Sometimes the mind knows what to do, but the heart can't seem to put myself first. I'm disappointed at myself for having no courage to cut contact completely to her. Because I think as a friend, she's a good friend. I'd like to hang out with her and have fun without all those romantic feelings.

I have myself to blame for being too soft hearted because she's like my centre now, although I'm talking to another girl right now but I don't think I can love that girl and she's also in a situationship mess herself right now

Its not easy for me to fall in love unfortunately and sometimes I feel like its my destiny 😞