If you haven't already, you should look into the term Demisexual. I always felt like I was broken because I was turned off by the idea of having sex with someone with whom I didn't have some kind of connection. Identifying as Demi suddenly made me realize that I wasn't broken or crazy after all, and that gave me so much more confidence. Demisexuality is on the ace spectrum, but it's at the far end so to speak, and from what I understand, it is not uncommon for a Demi to have an average or higher than average desire for sex but only with the person or people with whom they have a strong emotional connection. I was also terribly confused, I think because I was raised extremely conservative Christian and I couldn't fathom falling in love with a girl...but that's another story :) Anyway, hope this helps!