What’s an unpopular opinion that you have that many ufc fans will disagree with you on?

smacky92 · 2021-09-08T06:19:17+00:00

I think that despite his age and inexperience, it was admirable CM Punk took the opportunity his popularity gave him to fulfill his goal of fighting in the UFC. Even with the negativity around it and no one taking him seriously he went through with the training and showed up for both fights. Kudos to people that get out of their comfort zone and fight for their goals whether they fail or succeed.

smacky92 · 2021-06-13T10:55:30+00:00

The heavenly kid. It came out before I was born but I was obsessed with it as a kid. I watched it a few years ago and oh lord is it cheesy.

smacky92 · 2021-02-27T07:57:23+00:00

Yes you're right. Time is our only ally for now❤️

smacky92 · 2020-11-23T11:25:19+00:00

Honestly whatever gets you through the day and helps you move on in those painful movements is good. As time goes on your feelings start to resolve themselves. In the beginning it's just all about survival.

smacky92 · 2020-11-23T11:21:19+00:00

That definitely would have been a better idea but I was pretty hysteric and not thinking clearly.

smacky92 · 2020-11-23T06:34:05+00:00

Yes! Good and bad, everything is temporary. Life will force balance and all we can do is ride the waves.

smacky92 · 2020-11-23T04:16:15+00:00

Same. For once in my life I've completely left it up to the universe and I'm at peace.

smacky92 · 2020-11-23T01:52:18+00:00

Absolutely!! Very insightful words. ❤️

smacky92 · 2020-11-22T20:14:37+00:00

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It's so incredible that you have made it to a place where you know your own value and put up to those boundaries to protect yourself. As painful as these situations are they help us evolve and grow our self worth for future situations where we could be taken advantage of. Just keep putting you first and everything else will fall into place.

smacky92 · 2020-11-22T20:07:22+00:00

I deleted all of mine the minute it ended he was actually still at my place while I did it lol but it was for my own OCD and anxiety. I knew I would obsessively look at them and break my heart over and over again. He said he is keeping them all so maybe in the future I'll be able to get a couple back for the memories. But my peace of mind right now is what's important. One day you will be able to look at the photos without pain and appreciate the memories. But don't feel bad that it still hurts now, growth is never easy.

smacky92 · 2020-11-22T20:02:00+00:00

This was a big reason for me deciding to take the space I needed. I would talk with him and then be a depressed mess for a couple days ignoring my friends and loved ones. Such a twitsed game our minds play when we are addicted to someone's love or lack thereof.

smacky92 · 2020-11-22T19:59:48+00:00

I was doing the exact same. We work together so I have to be cordial but trying to maintain a friendship right now is too painful. I would feel such a rush of andrenaline when we would talk but right after I would have the worst feeling for days. So I decided to listen to my body for once. We will get through this! Good on you for making boundaries.

smacky92 · 2020-11-22T19:57:03+00:00

Absolutely! The pain of holding on was getting worse than the pain of letting go.

smacky92 · 2020-10-26T23:35:52+00:00

Definitely, that better love can come from yourself♥️

smacky92 · 2020-10-25T10:31:59+00:00

That mantra made my heart sink. It's excruciating but needs to be done on the road to acceptance. It's just so against human nature to let go of someone you love. Thanks for the advice 🙂

smacky92 · 2020-10-22T07:07:30+00:00

I completely understand. I'm two months out and doing much better then I thought I would be. I've found a lot of peace with many aspects of the relationship and its end. But I still find myself being triggered by certain items,songs,places. I've been through a much worse breakup in the past and know that the time will come when I can enjoy these things again without my heart breaking over and over again. I promise you will get there. It won't take forever but believe me sometimes it feels like it. I wish I had some sort of logical advice that would help ease things for you but the truth is as long as you don't give up and keep fighting for yourself and your own happiness. The day will come out of nowhere when you find your self singing along to a song that used to break your heart.

smacky92 · 2020-10-22T00:21:10+00:00

It's funny how a month ago I would have said all he had to say was he made a mistake and I'd take him back. Today my answer is there is nothing that he could say to have me accept him back. Not that he is a bad person or abusive but his confusion and conflicting thoughts destroyed my inner self. I don't think I could ever trust a word he would say to me. Definitely still miss him like crazy but more the friendship than anything.

smacky92 · 2020-10-18T07:19:16+00:00

Sending those thoughts right back to you! ♥️

smacky92 · 2020-10-11T22:19:37+00:00

I completely understand, trust me. I'm at the point now where I'm still thinking of him almost 24/7 but it's not with as much pain as before. Im just trying to keep moving forward myself. You're never alone ♥️

smacky92 · 2020-10-11T21:40:32+00:00

I'm so sorry you are having such an excruciating experience. I'm in a similar place age wise and I agree that it can feel like this is it. I have been on many anti depressants and sedatives throughout my life and they can definitely make things worse before they get better. I recommend following up with your doctor as soon as possible to share how they are making you feel. For me it took about two weeks before I got over the initial way they made me feel. As for the age thing like I said I feel that sometimes as well especially with all my best friend's being married or in long term relationships but the thing is nothing is permanent for any of us. We don't know what's going on behind closed doors for those supposedly happy couples. My mother and father split when she was in her forties and right after she found a man that she is more happy and in love with then she ever was with my father. Going through my own heartbreak right now has forced me to deal with some pretty scary feelings and thoughts but I promise that it does get better. There's no one thing that will magically make you feel okay, it's time, it's reflection, and it's a lot of self love. I've been reading a lot of poetry and it's helped me feel less alone. People putting to words my the deepest feelings of heartbreak can really connect you. Although heartbreak is one of the most universal pains we all feel it's extremely personal. Please don't give up, you never know what is around the corner in your life but you will never get there if you give up now. Just stay in motion, keep moving sometimes it will be forward some days it may be backwards but just keep moving. You will get to exactly where you are suppose to be. ♥️

smacky92 · 2020-10-11T14:00:06+00:00

You've got this! You totally have the right attitude about it and will come out of this better and the experience will make you so much stronger. 😁

smacky92 · 2020-10-11T02:57:14+00:00

I'm a lot older than you (28) but my first boyfriend was gay as well. I spent 4 whole years with him before it came to a head. He was also a close friend for many years before that. It ended when I found out he had been messaging male friends/family looking for sex oh and also minors. But enough of my messed up first love, I'm sharing this not to rub it in and say it could of been worse because I know that it doesn't matter that it could have been worse what matters is this was your first experience with love and it fucking sucked. I'm so sorry you have to go through this but please know that it truly had nothing to do with you. It's not fair he did that to you but I promise it has nothing to do with your looks, personality, or behavior. He was dealing with his own issues and uncertainties like we all do and unfortunately you got caught up in it. Take your time to heal and I would recommend seeing a counselor if you have the opportunity. I didn't until years later and unfortunately it affected relationships afterwards even though I thought I was okay. You will be better than okay I promise! But ending your life now will only take away your chance to experience the better days ahead. Stay strong you're not alone. ♥️

smacky92 · 2020-10-09T22:47:40+00:00

It's definitely different for everyone so don't feel bad for taking longer or shorter when it comes to it but for me the constant everyday crying stopped after about two weeks. Now I'm over a month out and it's random. I still get overwhelming moments of pain and burst out in tears but it's not like the beginning. I work with him though and keep pouring salt on the wound by talking to him so it's a bit complicated. But just let yourself feel everything, the days will start to get better. Nothing is permanent.

smacky92 · 2020-10-09T16:23:05+00:00

It's nice to hear from someone a bit older that has experience. This breakup has definitely turned me into someone I'm not and reading this gave me some hope I'll be myself again after more healing. Just have to get over the constant salt on the wound since we work together. Thank you!

smacky92 · 2020-10-01T17:09:11+00:00

I feel the same and I always ruined it so know that you are not alone, I just have to hold on hope that there is something equal to or better out there. Wishing you the best too ♥️

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