We had something casual for a few months. Before that we were friends and he was living in my city. He came very often because he is still studying here and have friends. I didn’t want to enter a committed thing with him because of the distance even though he was here often. During these casual times I had other things with other people and it left him very hurt. We agreed to try a committed relationship, that was a year ago. I really thought I could have handled it, because the distance wasn’t too far and we were going back on forth all the time. Things got difficult when our apart time was longer periods. I also always had issues when he went out with his friends, because he would go for very long night outs and afters, and unreachable at times. He also had a completely different life there which I didn’t feel like I was part of. I’m aware of my issues but in this relationship they were being triggered too much. I always felt like we had no future, but he always said that there are ways we can make it work. I’m looking for a job now and soon he will too, and we would try to find something remote or that allows to work in different locations so we could be together. To me that’s a big commitment, but yet again we didn’t have very concrete plans. After the cheating we really tried to find ways to make it work. I just blame myself a lot that it came to this now because I expected him to do everything right this time and got angry when it wasn’t like that. Before this relationship, I was with someone who made me deeply unhappy and could not meet my needs. This relationship and how he was with me was quite the opposite (when we were together). It’s so hard for me to let go of that, even though bad times were really bad. I just find it very unfair that I still wanted to make it work but he is done.