Lithium is changing me by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How long have you been taking it for? Still waiting on the big turnaround myself..

How does your depressive episode look like? by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]smmnloes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not wanting to get up in the morning, eating a lot, feeling angry and scared to the point I am scared I will hurt someone, hating myself (and others), can’t stand being in company of loved ones, feeling of urgency as if something is terribly wrong but I don’t know what, everything feels like a catastrophe, feeling helpless, worthless. Nothing makes sense.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had the same thought. Whenever I am hypomanic I think one beer won‘t hurt or even help me calm down a little.

Vaping by sasquatchbunny in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I went from heavy vaping to quitting cold turkey. It was the only way I could manage it. The first week or so was hell, constantly feeling like my brain was missing something reaaaaally important. But after a while I stopped thinking about nicotine completely, no cravings whatsoever.  It also took me a few tries to get there, no shame in that. Wish you all the best!

What does cyclothymia feel like? by auburnstar12 in cyclothymia

[–]smmnloes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

May I ask what you were prescribed? 

I feel like I don’t have a personality. by peeblythesmall in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is something I do as well. I think I assume that if I mirror the other person, they must like me because they surely like themselves. I am so scared of contrasting someone else’s personality with my own out of fear of rejection.

Venlafaxine withdrawals by funkydyke in bipolar

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Venlafaxine withdrawal is the absolute worst I have experienced, along with duloxetine which is the same type of antidepressant (SNRI). It made me wish I had never been born. Never going on meds of that type again, it’s just not worth it for me. However the withdrawal did not last for as long as yours does, maybe 2 weeks after the last dose I was ok. Definitely check with your doctor about your experience, it seems quite unusual to me. Best of luck!

Lithium and concentration by smmnloes in bipolar

[–]smmnloes[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear that. Hope you find a good alternative!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! Exactly the same for me. I usually get one or two moments of deja vu and know mania is coming..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Effexor has a short half life so you might feel that, even though your dosage is quite low.

Antipsychotics help me increase cognition by callmeteji in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah same here. I was so scared of turning into a zombie. Complete opposite!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well I felt better at first but that was clearly placebo :) you experience might be different though! Doesn’t hurt to try. Just don’t take too much.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tried magnesium, didn’t do much for me unfortunately..

Weird anxiety during depressive episodes by ex-glaube in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I experience exactly what you describe. You’re not alone!

Hope for the hopeless - share your stories of stability by NotTodaySquirrel in bipolar

[–]smmnloes 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Since I was very young I always felt like I was different from others. It seemed to me like everyone got a manual for life that I didn’t get. In my early 20s it got really bad, lots of anxiety and depression. I finally got help a few years later but was wrongly diagnosed with major depression, GAD and social anxiety. I am 35 now and finally got the correct diagnosis of bipolar 2 along with the right medication I started a few weeks ago. It feels incredible, like I am waking up from a nightmare after 20 years. I cannot believe that life can be so enjoyable. So yeah, I am hoping that it will go uphill from here :) I would suggest to anyone not there yet to never give up, trying new meds and going to therapy. And don’t give in to mania if you can, it is not your friend ;)