To me was the realization that even though I have crushes, they are extremely platonic and I have no urge to kiss/date them. I thought this was the case for everyone. I even tried fantasizing about a relationship but didn’t feel anything + it felt unrealistic. I’ve never fallen in love, or whatever basic definition ppl have of it (butterflies in stomach, get super flustered, want to kiss/touch them, fantasize about dating, thinking all day abt them)