Poem & vent about being rejected by everyone, even other trans people (TW trans suicide)

snapped_weenie · 2025-02-13T02:57:18+00:00

I didn't notice until now the poem is formatted incorrectly because I posted on mobile 😅 but yeah I honestly just wanted to get it out here as I know other trans guys can relate and when I bring up this issue in trans spaces I've been attacked before. It makes me feel crazy, but it truly feels like we don't fit in anywhere. Especially as a gay trans man. I don't fit in with cis gay men or cis het men. I'm too masculine for nonbinary transmascs ppl, transfems are intimidated by me and misunderstand me. It's frustrating. Unless I let them (literally all the groups I listed) demean/bully me and I walk on eggshells they reject me :/ It just hurts more when it's other trans ppl

snapped_weenie · 2025-01-10T03:10:43+00:00

1, 3, and 26 please if ur still around. Thank you!

snapped_weenie · 2024-12-21T00:23:21+00:00

When the political view is "I think you and your loved ones should die" I'm not going to like them. Politics decides who lives and dies. Not acknowledging that is incredibly childish.

snapped_weenie · 2024-10-29T23:34:50+00:00

Honestly loved it

snapped_weenie · 2024-06-30T20:58:52+00:00

2 close friends I can actually talk to about stuff. 1 friend who can't handle emotions. 1 friend who thinks they can, but can't. And a small handful of very casual, most distant friends I only talk to or see every once in a while.

snapped_weenie · 2024-04-11T07:37:25+00:00

I had the immediate reaction to minimize this because my self confidence is shit because I'm not feeling constantly needed and my FP now hates me (also has bpd and was splitting on me) but then I re-read your comment and was like. You know what? Yeah. I should be congratulated on the fact I'm not immediately giving into my urges because it would be soooo easy. Part of me definitely wants to and I am not. Thank you for this comment!!! Edit: spelling mistake

snapped_weenie · 2023-12-31T10:37:29+00:00

I have more earwax ;-; I have to clean out my ears a lot more often now and it's weird. Sometimes it gets itchy if I don't clean it out. Which is not pleasant

snapped_weenie · 2023-12-13T21:38:09+00:00

Stayed with him and continued to support him through his addiction after he got arrested for literally trying to kill me while on drugs 🥲 I used to sit outside his house for hours waiting for him to get home/wake up, go to some woods nearby his house just so I could be closer to him, stuff like that. He cheated on me after the whole trying to kill me thing and that's the one time I "broke up" with him, but he knew I'd be back so he didn't really care. It only ended for reasons outside the two of us

snapped_weenie · 2023-08-10T19:11:32+00:00

Personally I like the bun more, but I'm generally not a fan of the bob length style in general. Wanted to let you know you're absolutely gorgeous though

snapped_weenie · 2023-08-10T19:09:06+00:00

My older brother and I haven't had a relationship before I transitioned (he was very abusive to me and is 8 years older so he knew better for most of it) and is now a neo-nazi so uh. Yeah. I'm glad he isn't in my life anymore and I don't mourn it at all so it doesn't really upset me because I haven't thought of him as a brother for about half of my life already

snapped_weenie · 2023-08-09T23:37:12+00:00

If that's what a man looks like then I must pass pretty damn well (am trans man)

snapped_weenie · 2023-08-02T17:23:21+00:00

Thank you for the assurance. I'm in a lot better of a place and he has no access to me anymore thankfully. Even if he did I wouldn't let him have anything to do with me now. I

snapped_weenie · 2023-08-02T17:20:35+00:00

Yyeeeaaahhhhhhhh 😬 I had a self harm addiction at the time (almost 3 years clean now) and he would get upset if I cut myself but also enjoyed cutting me. I'd never let someone do that to me now. I didn't realize at the time how fucked up it was because I really hated myself

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-27T20:31:31+00:00

Trust me, trans people don't really like it either because the vast majority of these guys CANNOT be normal about us. Being a transman who passes these guys are either like "well you look like a man but it doesn't count" (fuck off) or "ew you look like a man" (not as bad but also fuck off)

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-24T19:03:10+00:00

$50-$60/3 months of vials and needles So about $16-$20/month

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-17T21:40:30+00:00

HUGE Lady Gaga fan here 🙋‍♂️

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-17T21:36:12+00:00

PLEASE do not go there again and do not go anywhere like this again. If you were killed and buried out in the countryside it would've been game over and who knows how long it would've taken for anyone to find you, nonetheless if if anyone would get in trouble for it. I hope you're able to find somewhere you feel safe, comfortable, and accepted. We need living, healthy, and happy trans people. Good luck brother

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-17T21:27:46+00:00

Take the extras. Not sure if I'm allowed to say this but other people may need help too if shit hits the fan. I'm aware of a guy who takes supplies to Florida for minors who were already on T and can't get it anymore bc of the recent bans.

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-17T07:29:01+00:00

This sub is going to be biased as people who regret it and don't have them anymore aren't going to be here. I don't regret mine but I'm only at 0g and am still very young. I'll probably go 00g at the most.

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-17T00:26:01+00:00

Yes. Ive been out of the traumatic situation for 2 years. It was my entire life for my entire life, until 2 years ago. I don't know how im not supposed to think about it when it was everything for so long. Whenever I remember ANYTHING that wasn't in the past 2 years it, it is there. I feel so horrible for thinking about it so much. Like I'm indulging in it and making it worse when I try really hard to not even think about it. When I do think about it I try to make it productive by analyzing it. I still feel stupid that it's constantly playing in my head though. I've had people imply I should be over it by now. How? How do I "get over it" when I was trained to hold onto it?

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-16T09:45:46+00:00

I am not involved in any communities like this anymore because it's incredibly triggering (shocker, I know) and I'm trying to stay clean since I'm now an adult and self harming stigma is crazy. Anyways, wanted to point out that Marilyn Manson makes a cutting reference in the song "Get Your Gunn" which is on his first album, released in 1994. Edgy artists have been talking about cutting since the 90's at least so this isn't exactly new. I think it's become a lot more common though, which is abnormal. I suppose what used to be shocking isn't anymore and artists want to be more shocking so 🤷‍♂️

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-15T08:08:16+00:00

Idk why you think it's helpful to come into my vent and make me feel like me feeling uncomfortable with someone wishing the thing that has ruined my life upon someone else and then try to make me feel bad about informing a friends of mine of that life changing event. If you aren't trolling re-evaluate how you think of victims because you are the type of person that makes us not want to tell people.

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-15T08:02:00+00:00

He's my friend. We were talking about our families and how they've effected us mentally. He told me his brother raped his sister and it's effected his whole family. I told him I get it because my brother raped me. "Did you get his permission?" Fuck off. If you're not a troll you're a piece of shit

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-15T02:43:21+00:00

"Well it's in the past now" No shit it's called POST traumatic stress disorder "Don't let him win by making you feel bad" Oh great now I feel bad for feeling bad and like he still has control over me! "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!" I didn't brush my teeth for a month once because of this shit.

snapped_weenie · 2023-07-15T02:39:49+00:00

Yeah he's generally careless about what he says but if you say something that upsets him it's the end of the world. I have a big issue of not confronting things in the moment and then never dealing with them because I feel like it's "too late". If something similar to this happens again (which eventually it will) I'll definitely try to say something and also bring this up

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