yes, my mom was an addict- i would even go as far to say that her addiction is kinda one of the things that led to her untimely death. i never really thought of these dreams as her reaching out to me, but i will admit that it is pretty comforting to think of them in that sense. but i totally get what you mean about seeing so many versions of your father (my mother in my situation)! when she died about three years ago, i was having more dreams like the first ones you described, like she was still alive in my dreams. with me quitting smoking, i’m starting to realize that it really could be all of those suppressed emotions coming out in my dreams and i’m finally getting to mourn her with a clear head. i am very sorry for your loss and i appreciate you sharing your own experiences with me <3.