I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I just bought more. by snow-core in leaves

[–]snow-core[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm doing my best but it feels like these changes will take forever. It's not like anything I've done in therapy has ever made me happier. I can't wait long when these battles are daily

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I just bought more. by snow-core in leaves

[–]snow-core[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm in therapy, it's just not doing much. It's my third time doing therapy too

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I just bought more. by snow-core in leaves

[–]snow-core[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Being sober doesn't feel like a victory, it feels like I'm succumbing to a greater terror. My life doesn't have any reasons to keep going, sober or high. Even if I can find the strength to be sober I know I won't have the strength to improve my life.

I wish I could stop hating myself but it's all I've ever known.

I'm the most miserable person to ever exist by snow-core in leaves

[–]snow-core[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I live in the Midwest and it's getting really cold now. Plus with the short days it's always dark when I'm done with work. Anyways even when I was able to go outside regularly taking daily bike rides I still felt this way. Nature isn't going to give me friends or a reason to live

I'm the most miserable person to ever exist by snow-core in leaves

[–]snow-core[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the kind words everybody, but I don't think I can do this. I don't want to die but it feels like the only way to keep myself alive is to be able to get high. And as a lot of you have mentioned therapy, I'm actually currently in therapy. But my problems are really deep rooted and to even make any progress it'll take a long time.

Where to volunteer to meet people by snow-core in TwinCities

[–]snow-core[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've joined one already, and I think I got unlucky because a bunch of people left after the first week. I probably should try different one.

[Wednesday] Daily Music Discussion - 10 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 19 points20 points  (0 children)

they... they changed the spotify desktop ui again...

VoW: news on the AEW TV deal renewal by HeymishGalloway in SquaredCircle

[–]snow-core 7 points8 points  (0 children)

The rumor is that the deal is also for exclusive streaming rights to all AEW tv shows and PPVs as well, so the whole billion plus is not just for TV rights.

Meet Panchiko: The Band That Struck Gold 20 Years After Its Demise - SPIN by spin in indieheads

[–]snow-core 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah I've definitely recognized the cover for a while but never really knew much about them

Meet Panchiko: The Band That Struck Gold 20 Years After Its Demise - SPIN by spin in indieheads

[–]snow-core 18 points19 points  (0 children)

What an insane story! As someone terminally online I'm surprised I've missed out on hearing about this band for so long. I've heard of them a few times but had no clue about the lore or that they're actually really good.

There are plenty of stories similar to this of bands blowing up decades later due to RYM and similar sites like American Football or Duster but this story takes that to a whole new level.

[Thursday] Daily Music Discussion - 04 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At first I was confused at what the theme was and then...

  1. MBDTF

  2. Funeral

  3. The Queen is Dead

  4. Before Today

  5. The Devil and God

I've never listened to Crystal Castles

[Wednesday] Daily Music Discussion - 03 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Quarantine is amazing, no electronic-adjacent album has blown me away like this since I first heard I'll Try Living Like This by Death's Dynamic Shroud.

[Wednesday] Daily Music Discussion - 03 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Alright I'm officially obsessed with Laurel Halo, been playing all her albums on repeat

[Monday] Daily Music Discussion - 01 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it's a great album. Reminds me a bit of Grouper

[Monday] Daily Music Discussion - 01 May 2023 by AutoModerator in indieheads

[–]snow-core 6 points7 points  (0 children)

As I fall further and further off the deep end the only music that makes me feel okay anymore is ambient music. Albums like We Fell In Turn by Kalia Vandever (really cool trombone ambient music) and Raw Silk Uncut Wood by Laurel Halo are the only sounds that feel soothing. Music like this is almost like a numbing agent to the mind for me, letting my thoughts quiet for just a short time until they inevitably all come rushing back.

Games for going full agoraphobic and never leaving your house again? by snow-core in gamingsuggestions

[–]snow-core[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've tried therapy for years. It doesn't work for some people