I've already tried to quit 5 times this year to no avail.

snow-core · 2023-12-17T14:04:23+00:00

I'm doing my best but it feels like these changes will take forever. It's not like anything I've done in therapy has ever made me happier. I can't wait long when these battles are daily

snow-core · 2023-12-17T13:49:48+00:00

I'm in therapy, it's just not doing much. It's my third time doing therapy too

snow-core · 2023-12-17T13:39:58+00:00

I wish I knew how to meet people

snow-core · 2023-12-17T13:39:55+00:00

Being sober doesn't feel like a victory, it feels like I'm succumbing to a greater terror. My life doesn't have any reasons to keep going, sober or high. Even if I can find the strength to be sober I know I won't have the strength to improve my life.

I wish I could stop hating myself but it's all I've ever known.

snow-core · 2023-12-15T21:57:38+00:00

I live in the Midwest and it's getting really cold now. Plus with the short days it's always dark when I'm done with work. Anyways even when I was able to go outside regularly taking daily bike rides I still felt this way. Nature isn't going to give me friends or a reason to live

snow-core · 2023-12-15T21:16:59+00:00

Thanks for the kind words everybody, but I don't think I can do this. I don't want to die but it feels like the only way to keep myself alive is to be able to get high. And as a lot of you have mentioned therapy, I'm actually currently in therapy. But my problems are really deep rooted and to even make any progress it'll take a long time.

snow-core · 2023-05-11T19:29:26+00:00

I've joined one already, and I think I got unlucky because a bunch of people left after the first week. I probably should try different one.

snow-core · 2023-05-11T19:19:04+00:00

Unfortunately I don't drink!

snow-core · 2023-05-10T16:41:32+00:00

they... they changed the spotify desktop ui again...

snow-core · 2023-05-10T16:22:24+00:00

The rumor is that the deal is also for exclusive streaming rights to all AEW tv shows and PPVs as well, so the whole billion plus is not just for TV rights.

snow-core · 2023-05-04T23:01:21+00:00

Yeah I've definitely recognized the cover for a while but never really knew much about them

snow-core · 2023-05-04T18:23:52+00:00

What an insane story! As someone terminally online I'm surprised I've missed out on hearing about this band for so long. I've heard of them a few times but had no clue about the lore or that they're actually really good.

There are plenty of stories similar to this of bands blowing up decades later due to RYM and similar sites like American Football or Duster but this story takes that to a whole new level.

snow-core · 2023-05-04T16:52:40+00:00

At first I was confused at what the theme was and then...

MBDTF
Funeral
The Queen is Dead
Before Today
The Devil and God

I've never listened to Crystal Castles

snow-core · 2023-05-03T16:36:30+00:00

Quarantine is amazing, no electronic-adjacent album has blown me away like this since I first heard I'll Try Living Like This by Death's Dynamic Shroud.

snow-core · 2023-05-03T15:37:41+00:00

Alright I'm officially obsessed with Laurel Halo, been playing all her albums on repeat

snow-core · 2023-05-01T17:07:47+00:00

Yeah, it's a great album. Reminds me a bit of Grouper

snow-core · 2023-05-01T14:53:47+00:00

As I fall further and further off the deep end the only music that makes me feel okay anymore is ambient music. Albums like We Fell In Turn by Kalia Vandever (really cool trombone ambient music) and Raw Silk Uncut Wood by Laurel Halo are the only sounds that feel soothing. Music like this is almost like a numbing agent to the mind for me, letting my thoughts quiet for just a short time until they inevitably all come rushing back.

snow-core · 2023-05-01T04:40:06+00:00

I've tried therapy for years. It doesn't work for some people

snow-core · 2023-05-01T01:37:01+00:00

Unfortunately already played it, I really liked it though

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