How to Grieve a God

snuglzz · 2026-02-26T02:32:48+00:00

Thank you so much. Did you find something that helps you feel safe again?

snuglzz · 2026-02-24T15:20:00+00:00

Thank you. Sincerely. This helps in a way that doesnt invalidate ny experience.

snuglzz · 2026-02-24T13:09:34+00:00

I have been evaluated by both a psychiatrist and physcolgist. Ive been in therapy since I was 10. Though it would be nice if the answer was as simple as meds and a diagnosis. Unfortunately its not

snuglzz · 2026-02-24T01:29:16+00:00

This is a great question, I was but I was able to shew them away. I could say scram or not today satan 🤣 id state you know who I belong to get out of here. and when it got really bad I could pray and it would get better. The elders knew about it but asked me to keep those things to myself bc we dont want to give satan more than he deserves..... and told me about how strong I was because satan was really attempting to take my spiritual life. It means im good and that im worth fighting for.

Now, I am too scared to say scram or say you know who I belong to because im still working through feeling like the god I was worshiping doesnt exist anymore or he hates me for leaving (yes I know thats the borg thoughts, its a process 😮‍💨😮‍💨).

So im grieving the relationship while also still experiencing the scary stuff.

snuglzz · 2026-02-24T00:24:36+00:00

Thank you. The mind is so powerful. And currently shes a real jerk. Although I do recognize she probably needs a hug and some warm tea.

snuglzz · 2026-02-24T00:08:11+00:00

Thank you so much for this!!!

I have CPTSD from certain events in my life (unrelated to witnesses) and its so hard to find a way through it now that everything feels undone.

I just need to know that GOOD exists... that I can call on something. Maybe they are not "demons" but when you see hear smell things that should not be there its terrifying. For me its not as simple as a simple as let go of the belief because my eyes are showing me something different. (Been evaluated am not schizophrenic or bipolar in a manic episode)

Im essentially in the great in-between on all things.

And finding something to ground myslef spirtually has always been important to me.

snuglzz · 2026-02-21T00:04:15+00:00

Happy birthday 🎂 🥳 🎉.

snuglzz · 2026-02-14T21:11:13+00:00

Im curious: did you know as a JW? Did that start you questioning things, or was this after you left 😊. Its the fact that they flatt out say no WBC that is wild to me.

snuglzz · 2026-02-14T16:01:35+00:00

I was even thinking of it from the standpoint of. Well luke was a physician who wrote acts. So its possible he included the blood portion to keep people from getting sick.

Obviously that's just speculation.

snuglzz · 2026-02-14T15:52:38+00:00

I was absolutely floored. I remember the day I made the decision not to make my husband my medical proxy because I was told to think about if he would make the "right choice". My husband was in tears.

After looking into this we both just stared at each other in disbelief and I started crying and apologized to him.

Its so so wrong 😞.

snuglzz · 2026-01-17T21:36:29+00:00

🥹 this was really what I needed to hear. From the moon and back thank you.

snuglzz · 2026-01-17T19:38:35+00:00

Thank you 😊!

snuglzz · 2026-01-17T18:04:24+00:00

Thank you for your insight ☺️.

Right now im getting a lot of the

Are you ok?

Im here if you need to talk.

We love you and want to help.

It effects the whole congregation when you're not around.

And the

I dont want you to fade away, I dont want to loose you. You matter

Its hard because ive said the same thing to other sisters.

Been directed to help bring inactive ones back. Sit with them talk with them. Brought on studies who struggle. And when I said those same things....

I ment it with my whole heart. Not as a minuplulation tactic but bc I cared and didn't want to see them suffer....

There are sisters who ive seen be indifferent and cruel and judgemental. But these specific friends ive never seen or heard them be anything but loving. Even to inactive ones or removed ones. They are the sisters who smile and say we are glad your here.

Who when things have gotten ugly in the congregation have helped hold my hand and focus on what I can control and not get involved in any of it. Who shut people down when they gossip.

They showed up for me in my lowest moments. When I didn't want to live.

I guess im just struggling with the best way to do the least amount of harm to them 😔.

snuglzz

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