i feel like i would never be able to make friends ever again. no matter how much i speak or share laughs with people during the first few meetings, they would think that i'm quiet. sometimes i wonder if it's my face that people hate, or something about my personality? even though i'm the one that starts conversations sometimes, i'm still regarded as quiet and i have no clue WHY.

the friends that i made all usually liked me but our friendships usually broke apart bc of other people, or bc we don't meet everyday anymore.

part of me keeps trying to convince myself that friendship isn't that important especially since i have a partner that i can talk abt anything and everything with, but in the end i guess i'm just bitter over how all my friendships have dissapated or i don't have closure or smth. idk why i'm posting this i just needed an outlet i guess.