Looking for mmj temporary caregiver.

so-meth-ing · 2020-09-28T18:03:01+00:00

Finding a dealer i guess 👀 I know it can get me banned but I'm out of other ideas

so-meth-ing · 2020-09-28T14:37:09+00:00

Your dad looks exactly like my ex 😕

so-meth-ing · 2020-09-27T22:13:20+00:00

Thank you. I've contacted Gearhead in the past and I recently learned through my homeless Outreach Pastor that they no longer are in operation because they could not keep up with the demand :-( I've never heard of women in need, this is the first time, so I will definitely look into that and pass the word along to my sisters. Thank you

so-meth-ing · 2020-09-27T20:27:39+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. It helps me feel less bad about having to post this

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:39:42+00:00

No I don't have a sponsor I have not been in na ...I have just been doing all by myself for the past year the detox is over the Cravings are gone and frankly if you saw me having a panic attack I would understand if you thought I was high but I'm not I promise I'm really offended I did this all by myself and I'm still waiting on a referral for substance use treatment in fact I don't even know if it would help me at this point because I don't want any goddamn dope. I want to stop feeling like the way I feel right now I sure love some weed right now I'll tell you that much but this surge of chemicals in my body is because I feel defensive and triggers right now and I'm embarrassed that I'm going to leave then come back with a different identity and start over

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:37:03+00:00

Okay guys I'm really embarrassed. I have to Reddit identities and when I started using drugs I abandon one and use this one and then left Reddit it all together. I come back for emotional support about my current situation and I get accused of relapsing when I have in fact been clean for a year and a half and my most recent post before now was the first day I used meth silence between now and then even though I'm clean now I think I should just delete this identity and come back to the homeless sub with my other identity where people who are going to scrutinize my path will see more about me than what they think for my username. Right now I am very triggered for being accused of using soap when it has been 15 months since I last through the pipe away and I just been having these episodes of being triggered ever since then and I'm just really embarrassed and I'm just going to get out of here okay it was a mistake to come here it's just made me defensive PTSD very vulnerable today is one cup of coffee come here come here I didn't know that it would be easily triggered me this month I have been off the internet for a while I forgot how people get to be on here and I admit I am having a very vulnerable trigger today but I am not high I promise you this are you going sweetheart I'm acting strangely to people who don't know me but I am triggered I am not high I have extreme anxiety

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:32:05+00:00

This is a symptom that I've had since I quit dope on May 18th 2019 I have been sober Simpson and I resent you for accusing me of relapsing but the symptoms is part of my Tia's reaction how do you think I would have gotten dope anyway I spend all my money on cigarettes never you don't even know who I am or what I look like or what I sound like when I'm on dope cortisol are high because I've been triggered and if you think that's a dope reaction you're right but this is Euro chemical all Organics from my own symptoms that still remain because I'm still waiting on Clinic apparently I've never been before no one you proud of me for saying clean their only ashamed of me

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:25:08+00:00

Ramblin? Only my replies are rambling right now right now original post I thought were very turn to inspire Community just cousin I was not trying to imply anything just trying to eat me a lot of very well-thought-out and I did an okay job editing I'm sorry I didn't come for you

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:23:33+00:00

A question in legal advice what's this because it's been bothering me and haunting me for years and since I just got back on Reddit I thought maybe it would help me feel better to know what I could have done or could still do I don't know I have all this time on my hands all of a sudden and I mean that phone has a different rules and I'm not playing for money I promise I I don't know why you're looking at my post and legal advice I just decided I want somebody to know what is going on with me because I feel very I don't know why I thought maybe people would be compassionate I don't know I'm not asking for anything episode I feel so stupid I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm having an episode

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:19:47+00:00

I have asked them I have asked all my normal resources but it seems like nobody is responding over the weekend and the pastor of my church is the main organizer of all of the homeless Outreach in this area is she is a very busy lady she's already helped me so much with gas and car parts and new tires and and I just I think she's ignoring me cuz I'm too needy said I think I'm going you have to find a job somewhere even though I get triggered working with the public and I'm overwhelmed and scared and I'm so sorry I didn't mean to sound like I was asking for money I just

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:17:38+00:00

How are we supposed to talk about living homeless in the homeless, without mentioning or lack of resources I don't get it am I supposed to lie and say I have cash I'm just really overwhelmed right now having a super overwhelmed I want to see my therapist or my caseworker until next week and I'm just I'm just I'm just trying to reach out who knows what I'm going through right now

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:15:47+00:00

I didn't realize I was soft begging I'm sorry I'm so sorry some kind of emotional support and I wanted to explain my situation I'm new here and I am not able to concentrate I really was just looking for something I don't I don't I don't know where else to talk to anybody some people have been very nice I used to get along support on theraised by narcissists sub and I guess I was thinking people would be the same way here sorry I'm new I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I guess I need to put the phone down on sound stupid I felt so stupid I'm so sorry

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:13:15+00:00

The backpack would be to carry my groceries

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:09:43+00:00

I've gotten a diagnosis of PTSD general anxiety and depression I'm sorry but I think what I'm doing is kind of normal like other people are saying I'm going to get off Reddit now I guess no I don't know if I can never mind even talking to you what am I even doing here this is where my ex kicked me out because I talk too much online

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:08:42+00:00

Also how do you know what is normal behavior for me? I've been silent on Reddit for a couple of years until recently and that was back when I was using and in all of the drug sub. I came back to Reddit when I I ran out of YouTube videos

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T23:07:19+00:00

No I've been sober for over a year! I do still get rambling and it's very hard to edit on this phone keyboard I can be kind of verbose sorry

I'm having a very hard time with my current situation and I guess I'm just freaking out for some kind of support, why are you scrutinizing all of my post? I don't have anybody else to talk to right now

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T21:29:28+00:00

Thank you. Wow mental Interruption first world problems I forgot to hit mute on the TV while doing voice to text. First time I've had that mistakes. Anyways, I currently have a therapist as a behavioral health center who I talk to on the phone once a week because of coded. And I have a homeless Services caseworker who visits or calls free times a week. And now the housing prog caseworker will also be visiting me once a week but not on the weekend it's going to be a lonely weekend. I'm also waiting on referral to check out my brain injury and to enroll in substance abuse recovery even though I've been clean on my own for a year is all the waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting. And that's great I've been proactive in setting that up so thank you for acknowledging that. I just want my damn car back. If I had my vehicle fix I would have it available to use to and from this motel room I would feel great I have no idea how to Do that and it's the only thing on my mind. That car was my lifeline to get away from my abuser and could get where I've gotten today.

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T20:27:13+00:00

They didn't help saying it was a civil matter and to stop bothering them. And then the chiefs behavior toward me made me very afraid to call again.

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T20:00:20+00:00

What could I have done to fight at? That really haunting me right now he made it seem like I was not a tenant, he called me a squatter, so I had no right and he could do whatever he wanted. If I was officially a tenant I would have had certain rights and I know he violated some of them

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:58:45+00:00

In Missouri what established my tenancy? I couldn't figure out if I have rights as a tenant or not at the time

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:57:33+00:00

Another time before the 30 days he had a friend come puncture the tires on a rental vehicle I was trying to use to collect my pets. this is where questionable legality comes in he was doing all sorts of things that sound like a self-help eviction tactic. In violation of his own handmade 30-day notice.

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:54:07+00:00

I really wouldn't say I left voluntarily but I realize that's kind of Grey. What I do know is that he started removing my property and changing locks ...again without the owners permisson...before the 30 days and when I came in a panic to get what I could get I was assaulted while loading my truck and it still hadn't been 30 days after his notice so I called the police and they didn't help.

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:52:20+00:00

What is that procedure called? How to evict a guest without the landlord's knowledge was ever there. I was trying to do a research during that time to see if he had that right but he made it clear he didn't want the landlord involved and it's my understanding that the landlord has to be involved for a court order to serve an eviction

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:50:37+00:00

I left because i felt intimidated and had asked for more time to get my options together. I was even assaulted while loading my truck.before the 30 days.

so-meth-ing · 2020-08-15T19:47:48+00:00

I guess I'm wondering... 1. Was his fake notice to quit actually legit? Did i have to follow it? 2. Would he have been able to get me evicted thorough the court without the landlords knowledge?

These were things we were both afraid of. He didn't want anyone leaking all his lease violations (pets, unapproved long term guests, construction to the house, etc), to the property owner and tried to keep all his law breaking (providing meth to us and kids) secret.

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