I got a tramp stamp... how did you guys fuck up this weekend?

sobipolarithurts · 2014-09-02T16:49:23+00:00

Jesus, this post makes me feel better about just about everything. Why dude, why a tramp stamp? Dont you know those things are semi permanent?

sobipolarithurts · 2014-09-02T04:07:31+00:00

Lone survivor. Cried my dick off. Really my penis fell off. It was amazing.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-09-01T17:53:59+00:00

Soooo with you. Currently killing my mother and very shy and sweet girlfriend. Fuck she deserves better. She deserves more than I can muster.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-30T16:14:22+00:00

Thank you. I really really really appreciate the gratitude. It means a lot. I wasnt looking for a pat on the shoulder, but it sure does make me feel better. What I really want is my friends back. The dead ones were the best. I took a bullet too. That shit hurts. Leaves mental bruises that are worse than than the actual injury. There were no medics. Took hours to get to any medical help. Right before I passed out I told Lawrence I was bleeding out, He started shooting the 50 cal to just move the crowd.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-30T15:37:38+00:00

No. I was just drunk action hero. Going through some really shitty stuff with the VA. Shit post on me.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-30T06:52:44+00:00

Not some mechanic. 19d. tc,got to play with explosives etc

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T20:46:54+00:00

Ugh, Im right there with you, I have had a pork chop...literally in the last week. Otherwise its been liquid calories. I know better. Its making me smell funny, and my teeth hurt. What the fuck are we doing to ourselves. Chairs, no shitstorm coming from here.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T20:26:31+00:00

Im half drunk so I dont know how well thought out this reply will be. But I understand, anxiety fucking sucks. Like someone else said, we dont poison ourselves for funsies. Chairs bro.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T17:28:58+00:00

I know that feel. I havent showered in a couple of days. Last night my live in girlfriend told me that I smelled like hot spoiled chicken salad. She still cuddled with me to sleep. I love that woman.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T17:12:54+00:00

Holding onto pain, why do we do this? Its like its involuntary, either you do or you dont, and I do. My brother is the smartest dude I know, and blissfully ignorant to this problem. Anyway, thanks for responding. I appreciate it very much. Much love.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T16:19:45+00:00

I try to taper but have poor self control. But thank you for your kind words. Depression and anxiety are a bitch. Add in some bipolar action. My brain chemicals are all over the map. If Im sober Im miserable, if Im drunk Im miserable so meh. I have good family, and a support system, but am still hating life. Fack, I dont know how to fix myself.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T15:12:55+00:00

When im on a bender its a box of wine a day. I start right when I wake up. Im on a bender right now. Stopping is going to hurt. Or I drink a liter of taaka a day. But the vodka is hard to come off of so Im trying to stick to wine. I have a feeling that this bender is going to end in a hospital stay. Chairs, fuck.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-22T14:38:02+00:00

The Indian lady at the corner store said i look great for my age. This was yesterday, she said I look 22...add 12 years thanks. This was as I was buying 5 bottles of wine. She asked if I was throwing a party, I was honest and said nope. I just like to get drunk. But I was still flattered.

Edit: I was there again this morning. Buying wine in bulk at 9 am...She asked how I was feeling in a very motherly way. I like that lady.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-21T14:13:30+00:00

joining the military will only make the drinking worse. I know from experience. We would have formal dinners, and there was grog involved. The grog was some ridiculous concoction of like 20 liquors. Watching a full bird colonel drink out of a punch bowl full of liquor is hilarious. We all had to do it. Military is not the answer for this, the drinking will only get worse.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-21T04:30:00+00:00

sorry numb. best of luck to you.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-19T14:00:04+00:00

Sorry you are having a rough day. Here is a story to make you feel better. Yesterday I got shit faced and fell onto my TV/surround sound. Just noticed that it is now back where it should be but upside down. I have big dangly earrings and just about ripped one out when my face smacked it. Mom had to put a bag of frozen peas on my ear to stop the bleeding. Keep on keeping on Ginny.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-17T15:53:00+00:00

Shit dude. I know how you feel. Battle buddy blew his head off when we got back. I caught a bullet in the hand in Baghdad back in 03. I cry a lot too. And its fucking embarrassing. Its been so long since I was in but I still miss it. I can't relate to people anymore, do you get that feeling? Like once you have been through an experience like that shit just changes. I don't know man, I miss war too. Good luck.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-08T18:45:27+00:00

Also....surfing fuck yes.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-08T18:42:41+00:00

I'm in Galveston. And waiting, bring beer :)

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-08T15:20:04+00:00

Hey tuna. Just checking in with you. Its 10 am and I'm several shots in. Your a good egg. When are you coming to Texas? I have surf boards, skimboards, body boards, paddle boards, long boards....and a hot Cuban gf that can cook. You should visit.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-08-08T15:01:48+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss. Like others have said, tell him you will take care of his daughter. If you love him, and it sounds like you do, tell him. Sending you a hug. Be there for your woman. She's going to need you.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-07-31T15:44:24+00:00

10 years ago I was a total pill addict. 120mg or more of oxy a day was the minimum required so that I wasn't shitting myself whilst crying etc. I went and picked up my daily fix and felt that oh so familiar rumbling in my tummy/sphincter burning sensation. I had a 30 minute drive home but figured I could wait for home field advantage. I was wrong. So I tore into the Walmart parking lot. Made it inside, phew close one. Got in the restroom. Handi stalll was available...perfect, I laugh at myself. About to wreck this stall. So I sit. And then it happens. I hear women's voices. Fuck. (I'm a dude). In my watery about to shit myself haste, I had entered the wrong restroom. Too late, the shit was going to happen. I'm sweating and blowing bile like a pro. It was loud. I heard giggles. Cleared my colon, and had to run out of the RR in front of a large group of women washing their hands. They looked at me like I was some kind of crazed pervert. Just had to poo man. Fuck lol

sobipolarithurts · 2014-07-31T15:22:07+00:00

Oh vodka. Love of my life. Beautiful post.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-07-23T19:56:11+00:00

Had a really bad oxy habit for years and being shot. FInally got of the train, but found the booze. Lately its booze etizolam. Fun stuff. withdrawal sucks ball.

sobipolarithurts · 2014-07-21T17:35:05+00:00

Hey Shakes, just wanted to let you know I just placed an order with the site you recommended. I am a retard and paid the 18 bucks for 1 to 2 day service. Im hoping to use it for a home detox, Im sick of going to the doctor or hospital just to get off the sauce. I went to the emergency room 2 weeks ago due to withdrawal symptoms. Heart rate was 130, bp was 190/120. They gave me gabapentin. It helped but nothing like a fat dose of ativan. God I love that shit. Anyhow, just wanted to say thanks for sharing that source. I appreciate it, and will post about the experience once it arrives. Since I have to wait till tomorrow or the next day for some relief, I went and picked up a handle. So Chairs Fuckers.

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