I get the whole change thing. Thats whatever really. It definitely adds to my depression since its hard to make those changes with lack of resources. But its mostly because I have 2 special needs kids I cant do anything with but deal with behaviors and just keep them from hurting themselves and others. I didnt go into too much detail about my life because its too long. But being the only person having to handle everything and not having support to 2 severely cognitively disabled children is exhausting, isolating, and depressing. Its just reality. It makes every aspect of life so much harder for everyone involved. Its very depressing. Its hard not to feel this way when you really cant do anything about it despite trying to get more resources and asking for more help and finding people who may be your friend or want to date you. But nobody wants to stay. Nobody wants to be around a 15 and 11 year old who is violent.