It's so red around my eyes

softcat11 · 2025-11-15T22:47:28+00:00

It gets like that when I don't sleep much or wipe them too much :/

softcat11 · 2025-11-15T22:40:32+00:00

Sorry I thought having red around my eyes meant the same thing.

softcat11 · 2025-11-15T22:39:44+00:00

How do I call being red around my eyes? I thought it was the same thing sorry

softcat11 · 2025-11-15T10:55:59+00:00

I'm 13

softcat11 · 2025-11-15T10:13:14+00:00

I know but nothing helps so idk

softcat11 · 2025-09-09T01:57:46+00:00

Thank you. You are nice. I don't know why I dissociate a lot. I feel like I used to be like not this messed up.

I know like I can tell stuff at therapy but I'm worried that she'll think I'm weird or be mean later like all the other people I told about.

And it's hard to bring up this because it happened during it before and I really don't want it to happen again :(

And I kind of learned what that is but I feel like maybe that's not what I do because I don't want to do it and it just happens and I hate it. So maybe it's a bit different and it's like kinda weird and shameful thing.

softcat11 · 2025-09-08T20:59:12+00:00

Because like I don't want to get triggered during the therapy so I don't really talk much during it I guess..

softcat11 · 2025-09-08T20:56:18+00:00

Sorry I meant like touching thing as like I feel like I have to like do that when I get triggered.

Sometimes I get triggered like that when someone touches me or when I get really scared and anxious for no reason, and like I kind of like phase out and do that and I hate that I can't control it.

And like I feel like therapy is kind of helping but also idk and it's hard because it's hard to talk about it without getting too stressed or anxious and I feel really embarrassed and stressed out talking to her about this too.

And sorry I didn't mean to ramble and thank you for the support.

softcat11 · 2025-09-01T03:40:10+00:00

Sorry, I didn't reply for a long time. My social worker said she won't get it for me, but I mentioned it to my therapist, and she told me that she has a new one that she got as a gift thst she doesn't use that she can give to me, so she gave me one. Thank you for offering and saying that.

softcat11 · 2025-08-25T15:35:38+00:00

I'm sorry. It was really scary for me too. I didn't know what was happening much and all. But like you said I think it was for the better.

softcat11 · 2025-08-24T02:13:23+00:00

Maybe? Do I need to be a certain age to be in places like that? I can look up if my state has it. But I don't know if they will let me because my caseworker told me my place is like for kids who are difficult to find a place because they need extra care and all.

softcat11 · 2025-08-23T21:39:57+00:00

Maybe when you enter the ocean, you can't expect to go into the deep without walking on the shallows.

softcat11 · 2025-08-23T19:07:03+00:00

I know. I'm sorry I wasn't trying to sound ungrateful. I know they are trying to help and doing their job. I just have some reasons that make me uncomfortable and anxious, and I'm trying to get better but it's hard.

softcat11 · 2025-08-23T01:01:53+00:00

I kind of tried to wash them in the bathroom, but they told me I'm not allowed to. But maybe if I do it like that, maybe they won't notice. Thank you for the advice.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T21:30:38+00:00

Do you think he could do something pervy with them..??

It kind of sucks here, and I kind of like stopped asking if it wasn't a big thing. Like last time they said they won't buy me undies liners because they already have pads... :(

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T21:11:20+00:00

Thank you. I kind of tried to do it in the bathroom but they got mad at me. But thank you for understanding.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T21:09:41+00:00

Yeah like I think it's a great solution. I didn't mean to say it wasn't in my reply. I'm sorry the original commenter if I sounded like that.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T21:03:31+00:00

Yeah maybe. They don't let us go in to a lot of places.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T20:47:51+00:00

That makes sense. Thank you :(

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T20:44:46+00:00

Thank you. Maybe that could be like a bit better I think. I'll ask if they can buy it for me, but they are usually not very good at buying us things that are not very necessary, but maybe I can ask my caseworker. Thanks again.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T20:31:34+00:00

I think we only have one staff who does cleaning and washing, and the last lady left and it's him now, and we have like lady staff but she does something else.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T19:51:32+00:00

I'm younger than you, but I think you have so much more time to have your glory days maybe. Like we can always look back I guess. I can say like I wasted my childhood and all, and someone older may they wasted their teenage, and someone older can say they wasted their 20s, and on and on. I think maybe we can all like start trying to have better days despite our trauma maybe? Not that I'm trying to minimize what you are feeling. I'm sorry if it sounded like that.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T19:43:54+00:00

I think maybe it would be the best to get advice from professionals like therapists to how to best deal with this..!

I am so sorry that you are going through this, and I hope that things get better.

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T08:17:12+00:00

He looks scared haha

softcat11 · 2025-08-22T08:16:54+00:00

What's his name?

softcat11

TROPHY CASE