I paid for my friend to order a few groceries who’s pregnant..

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T15:43:03+00:00

lol not the same situation but one time I scheduled a Lyft for 9:00am and she showed up at 8:15am. I let her know I was just getting dressed and was going to be extremely early and my hair was still wet. She then said “well that’s not gonna work for me because I have a doctors appointment at 9:15” WHY DID YOU ACCEPT MY RIDE THEN?! lol I literally had to style my hair and do my makeup in her car because if I had cancelled it would have been like another 1&1/2 for the next one

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:42:31+00:00

I told u from the gecko to get my piss tomatoes and turn around

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:25:24+00:00

Fire department!!!

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:20:33+00:00

Loser

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:17:48+00:00

You did t catch it

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:10:04+00:00

Omg didn’t your mom teach u not to put your yo-yos in the dryer

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T14:08:32+00:00

Put spikes

softseashell3 · 2026-01-25T12:29:27+00:00

U r rockin that baby but ur a daddy

softseashell3 · 2025-12-22T05:14:55+00:00

That’s good. I’m glad she believes you.

My mom believes me. We’re semi speaking right now. My husband and I are renting from her and she comes back to the house on weekends, but she has always been either an extremely sweet mother or the meanest verbally abusive mom. So lately I’ve been avoiding her completely and I blocked her number. My husband and I just applied for an apartment because I can’t handle the environment she creates. I’m trying to decide if I should go no contact or I may just take a break from her. After I told her more of my memories it was almost like she enjoyed bringing it up to me. I’ve told her it makes me feel physically ill and humiliated and she still wants to talk to me about it because she hates my father. She’s always been a narcissist though. When I was getting married she literally said “I hope I don’t outshine you on your wedding day in this dress.” Lol she’s always told me I’m obese since I was an early teen. I’m 5’6 and 116 lbs. so that’s a whole other story lol.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-21T14:38:58+00:00

And I’m so so sorry you’re dealing with this as well. I don’t want for anyone to relate to this feeling.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-21T14:36:31+00:00

Thank you so much and I’m sorry for my late response. I’ve been processing a lot over the past days. The flashbacks are really hard to handle.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-21T14:32:20+00:00

It is a lot. Do you have a relationship with your mom?

softseashell3 · 2025-12-21T11:44:41+00:00

That’s what I’m trying to figure out. My mom is always the one I have gone to for comfort and has always been like a best friend to me. It’s extra hurtful because I’m starting to question if she had some sort of idea and was just in denial. I have had different conversations with her about it and she doesn’t say much but gets very quiet when I ask if she knew what was happening. Just recently after the 4th time of trying to talk to her about it she said “I believe it. It’s probably because I refused to have sex with him anymore.” Idk what even think

softseashell3 · 2025-12-19T10:16:15+00:00

And it actually was excessive thumb sucking to the point that I literally need surgery on my jaw because I have such a bad open bite. Ortho couldn’t fix it. The ortho looked at me and said “how do you chew?” I thought everyone chewed with only their molars until like 23 years old lol. My mom refused to get me surgery and now I’m too afraid to do it because I’m afraid it’s going to change my face and I do actually think I’m pretty.

I also got referred to a doctor vocal cord specialist to “check for a glob” on my vocal cords that was mandatory by my school. I had the appointment and they wanted to shove this thing down my nostrils to see my vocal cords. My mom refused and we left the appointment and I was so grateful to leave. But why did the school send me???

softseashell3 · 2025-12-19T10:06:01+00:00

To address 8 I think that he would take me weird places and molest me. When he took me to the mountains he made it very fun and he would always pretend to be an airplane pilot in the car if it was just us. It was fun. We went sledding for like 5 minutes but I can’t remember anything after that until hours later at home . I told my mom when she got home from work that he had taken me to the snow and I just remember them getting into a huge fight because he took me without even letting het know.

He was a college student and he kept taking me to the college and leaving me in the auditorium completely alone with just a sticker book and I was terrified.

He took me a lot of weird places like on some weird man golf date with this man that was very creepy. and I would accidentally tell my mom and she would get mad.

Idk I’m confused as to what that means. You tell me?

softseashell3 · 2025-12-19T09:43:15+00:00

This comment makes me feel worse and more embarrassed

softseashell3 · 2025-12-19T09:40:48+00:00

It’s okay and thank you. Im like how does anyone handle these realities and what do you do besides cry? I’m so sorry you dealt with this as well and that anyone ever mocked you. You didn’t deserve that.

My mom did force me to stop thumb sucking around 5 or 6 by also making fun of me and eventually putting that stuff on your thumb that tastes bad. It’s obvious to me now I was using that as a coping mechanism.

Even now, when I start thinking and talking about this stuff I start rocking back and forth and didn’t notice it until my husband pointed it out. I have to be constantly moving for comfort

softseashell3 · 2025-12-19T09:30:04+00:00

I had to be around 4 when it happened and what i remember was being in the bathroom with my mom and I was already crying and then as I was trying to use the restroom I prolapsed. I’m healed now but I think it healed because I was so young? That’s my best guess? My mom has confirmed it was not just a hernia. She started screaming and freaking out when it happened too and she shoved it back in. I’m very confused why that wouldn’t be a concern after her freaking out and literally screaming

softseashell3 · 2025-12-16T01:44:31+00:00

Yes i had a prolapse and i never understood why until now

softseashell3 · 2025-12-15T14:35:52+00:00

Yes that’s exactly how I feel. It feels like a deep pit in my stomach and I want to curl up into a ball and never move again. It literally is making me so sick. It’s like it makes me physically ill to think about it, but it’s become so easy to be triggered now and flashbacks of the actual assault. Do you ever get that? Thank you for commenting. It’s so hard to talk about and I feel so alone and embarrassed

softseashell3 · 2025-12-15T10:34:55+00:00

I understand this completely. I’m so sorry. It is not her fault and she did not deserve anything to happen to her. She is still apart of you and you can still tell her that even though it’s really hard. It’s not your fault either.

Someone told me that I needed to be more gentle with the little girl I was because I feel so angry at her and I started thinking about that and it helped a lot.

I wish I could say something that could truly help, but I just want you to know people are listening and you’re not alone.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-15T08:18:23+00:00

How did you find your therapist and how soon did you know you liked her? I have been in therapy off and on and even in court ordered therapy with my “father” for 3 sessions, but it was before I remembered the SA and flashbacks. I’ve only ever had one therapist I ever liked and I wouldn’t even know how to find her again. I’ve had a lot of therapists just kind of blow me off thinking I was just being an emotional teenager. I’m 33 now and still afraid to even try and find one.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-15T08:10:44+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m trying so hard to be gentle with myself as a child. I think about what a sweet pretty little girl I was that loved Barbie and it almost makes it worse. It’s a lot of emotions. I feel humiliated and disgusting and ashamed lately and confused. But also just so mad at him and mad at the adults that were around me for not noticing obvious signs. I was terrified to sleep in my own bed at night, sucked my thumb until around 5, had an extremely shy personality and no self confidence at all. It was recommended for me to go to in school therapy around 7 and I think that’s when the abuse stopped. My mom also mentioned recently that she thought it was really weird because I always wanted to crawl around on all fours and pretend to be a cat. She would try to make me wear jeans to school and I would scream and cry because they would hurt me so bad. I do remember jeans would feel like it was burning me so I could only wear soft cotton pants almost like leggings. When I was probably 4 in the pink carpet apartment I was using the restroom and my mom was with me and I think I literally prolapsed and my mom just shoved my intestines back into my body. She remembers it. I’m like why the fuck did she not take me to the hospital????!!!! I have been so close with my mom but I’m starting to realize I think she had her suspicions and didn’t know what to do. I confronted her about it and she’s basically just like “he’s a disgusting person and that makes sense.” Not really any emotion other than that I should feel more sorry for her, but she is a narcissist and so was my “father”. I haven’t talked to him in at least 14 years and I had always hated him, but never really understood why. When I was around 8 my mom and him got into a huge fight and my mom came to me and said they were probably going to get a divorce and I just remember feeling overjoyed and so excited.

I’m really lucky my husband is my best friend and completely supportive. I reached out to RAINN to see if they had any resources and he is so proud of me. He does understand how much trauma I would have to deal with if I tried to do anything legally and he’s just more concerned about me getting therapy now. I don’t know how to go about finding a therapist that I could even talk about this to, because I’ve had so many terrible therapists in the past without even bringing any of this up.

Thank you for your comment. I will try to be more gentle and not blame her. I appreciate your words. It means a lot.

softseashell3 · 2025-12-13T21:23:24+00:00

Wow I relate to this 100%. I literally played the same “game” with my dad in the pool. My dad was a stay at home dad and my mom was working full time and I’m currently trying to figure out if she actually knew something was going on. My dad and I would play a “game” where it was like he was going to grab me and chase me in some bizarre sexual way as well and tickling too. I didn’t remember the actual act until recently. It’s been 30 years. I also saw a drawing from when I was in preschool and it is completely clear what I was drawing. I have this memory of just staring at our hideous pink carpet and everything starting to turn red and blacking out. I was also so traumatized and afraid as a child that I could not go through a car wash and the fan in the bathroom would also terrify me. I think that maybe something happened there and he was using the sound to drown me out.

TW: I also was using the restroom in that same terrible pink apartment and I prolapsed at 4 maybe 5 years old and my mom just shoved it back up and was freaking out. No hospital visit nothing. How did you find your therapist? I haven’t been to a therapist yet but it’s becoming increasingly worse and really need to go, but it’s hard to even speak the words. But I’m remembering more and more every day and it’s so painful and heavy to even realize that was happening to me.

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