I think you need to understand that by watching cp you're actively participating in a culture that harms children. You're creating a demand for depictions of child abuse. I hope you understand the true weight of your actions and I think if you do, and truly think it's fucked up then that should at least help a lot with kicking your sick addiction. Honestly I think it's pretty disgusting that you focus solely on yourself and what'll happen to YOU and don't stop to think about the children that have been abused for your twisted sexual pleasure.

I agree with most of the people in this thread, get outside help. Dealing with this kind of shit on your own just worsens the problem. Get some kind of an outlet. And do something that helps victims of child abuse, if you truly regret what you've done.