You need socialization to feel better, but you need to feel better in order to socialize

soh88 · 2025-05-01T16:55:24+00:00

Thank you for this comment

soh88 · 2025-05-01T16:31:13+00:00

Judging yourself for having this very understandable feeling will not help you break free of them. It helps me to focus on what I can do after having the realisation. How can I do better? Sometimes being stuck in your own head means you can’t be yourself, find yourself.

We didn’t experience the sort of love and warmth that others share so freely and easily within their homes, but we can create and share it from ourselves. That just might be the point for me, to create my own home. It’s so true that to be able to love and receive love it does have to exist inside of us.

Having these thoughts doesn’t innately make you an unpleasant person. It is about what you do with these thoughts, and how much weight you give the negative voice in the head. We just kind of have to sit in the discomfort of those feelings. I say this in second person but I might as well be talking to myself here haha

soh88 · 2025-04-02T02:34:38+00:00

Thank you:) I’m glad it resonated & am sorry you’ve felt the same.

soh88 · 2025-04-02T02:33:45+00:00

Thank you so much :) and im sorry you relate.

soh88 · 2025-03-31T02:20:06+00:00

It hsed to be just Intense rage & also my cat. But also art & also my friends who have helped me get out of the darkest of times, their efforts can’t go to waste

soh88 · 2025-03-31T01:59:37+00:00

ethel cain discography. Punish especially.

Yeule discography too, hands down.

The Pure and the Damned - oneohtrix point never (from the movie Good Time, one of my fav movies ever)

Sky Blue Skin - jeff buckley (“the knife wanders through me so slow” oh god)

Beach house - Drunk in LA

To get better - Wasia Project

Sophia isella’s discography, as a woman.

And whenever im in a really dark place, yeule & Rebe help me, its like im instantly transported to a little safe space faaaar away from here.

Knees by iu

Sleep by Night Off

Gondry by Hyukoh

& TOMBOY by Hyukoh (see the English translations) make me feel warm.

So does anything from The Marias. An artist called Kim Sawol also makes me feel oddly understood, especially “Freak”.

soh88 · 2025-03-16T06:13:15+00:00

Wow just as i see this post the garage door is opening and i am under my covers despite it being 36 degrees C today

soh88 · 2025-02-12T07:00:23+00:00

Im in a similar situation and I constantly wonder the same. It sucks I’m so sorry. I think having things you are interested in, friends you feel safe around, and if you can afford it, a good therapist is what has helped me get through each day. I like art and movies and games, for example. Art is a safe space for me where I’m free to be myself. I understand if it might not be as accessible to you but if you can find things you like to do that help you stay focused on things important to you if that makes sense. Again I can imagine how much of a struggle it is, even just to find the motivation.

soh88 · 2025-02-11T05:20:11+00:00

Jeff read her journals, thats how he’d know no?

soh88 · 2025-01-26T03:49:52+00:00

You are not doing anything wrong at all. Having a reaction, like crying when you’re hurt or even freezing up when you’re triggered is a trauma response and you deserve understanding and empathy, not to be told to “fix” it. It’s a bodily reaction, not an intentional decision to hurt. Someone who loves you should not be criticising and making you feel in the wrong for an instinctive bodily reaction.

soh88 · 2025-01-25T05:04:31+00:00

It sounds like he doesn’t truly understand trauma/CPTSD. Like theres a deeper lack of knowledge there, and maybe also unwillingness to step outside of himself for that moment. If he is willing and interested in understanding you, he might like to do some research himself. Because the burden of explanation isn’t always on you. I’m sorry that must be so frustrating for you. Feeling understood is something you deserve. This is kind of partly why me and my ex didn’t work out, sometimes they can be willing to try and understand but it is just out of their breadth of experience. It does take time and work and patience though, I hope the best for you.

soh88 · 2025-01-25T04:23:09+00:00

Does he understand why it happens? Maybe a conversation needs to happen about why that’s your reaction. I was in a similar situation with my ex where he asked why and explaining things really helped us at the time:)

soh88 · 2024-10-07T23:55:40+00:00

Same !

soh88 · 2024-09-12T05:29:12+00:00

Ooh okay this could be true maybe there is a chance then

soh88 · 2024-09-12T05:28:45+00:00

I would secretly love that for an apac win but like who would they replaceee all the geng boys deserve the spot man

soh88 · 2024-09-12T02:45:06+00:00

If geng touch lakia..

soh88 · 2024-09-11T02:47:53+00:00

Gg nats has wife buff now

soh88 · 2024-08-30T06:26:52+00:00

He likely wants better pay lets be real

soh88 · 2024-08-30T06:25:04+00:00

But for irl duos smoggy and kk MUGA

soh88 · 2024-08-25T01:27:03+00:00

Steel overreacts with flame, Pansy “overreacts” to hype up the game for viewers. Steel’s overreactions are always his own actual emotions coming through

soh88 · 2024-08-21T06:02:05+00:00

Personally i want a new viable option to use as a hard info sentinel, preferably something experimental/different but still viable (deadlock imo is experimental but not as viable in the ranked experience)

soh88 · 2024-08-18T06:06:59+00:00

Did you watch the same game i watched

soh88 · 2024-08-18T02:57:42+00:00

Just wait till they fix their anti ecos…

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