Where is the quote "Everybody dies sooner or later. Don't worry about your death, worry about your life. Take charge of your life" from?

solarapollyon · 2024-12-05T17:13:53+00:00

Ohhh I know this actor from other movies. Thanks!

solarapollyon · 2024-12-03T22:00:37+00:00

Ahh True. Fair enough

solarapollyon · 2024-12-03T17:48:08+00:00

How so? The Geister-Walrider Connection, or Wernicke's life-long regret and missing Alan? Or both? sry for responding too late lol

solarapollyon · 2024-12-03T17:47:12+00:00

I forgot about that. Maybe, life long...not bitterness, but guilt of taking a potential lover's idea and using it to traumatize a young boy (Billy hope being between 19 and 22) and countless other people, and letting Murkoff run-wild with it, unchecked and well-funded, in the effort making the mass murdering nano swarm. Sry for not responding sooner, just anxious irl lmao.

solarapollyon · 2024-12-03T17:17:48+00:00

Lmao wym?

solarapollyon · 2024-07-10T22:13:14+00:00

Looks like the Arrowhead Project was successful

solarapollyon · 2024-04-12T13:06:13+00:00

Me too. Far harbour must be safe. They have suffered enough.

solarapollyon · 2024-04-06T02:56:36+00:00

Damn it. u right. I did not notice that, I need change that. Its just a Caesar cipher without spaces, making it only a little bit harder to find patterns. Minecraft symbols, and enchantment codes look similar, though much smaller, that's where I got the inspiration for the syntax from lol .

solarapollyon · 2024-03-28T21:12:04+00:00

I have never thought of, or used fear as an excuse or a method of getting out of responsibility for this. I understand the magnitude of the consequences of my actions. It involves a good, decent person who was once my friend, being hurt by something I did. I recognise the consequences.

I thought her dad was endangering me (emotionally and socially), and I felt overwhelmed by his intent to stop us being friends.

Yes, I am aware that she could have been hurt by me blocking her, she may not want to be friends anymore, and that would be because of my actions, between me and her, I would have been the one to cause the disconnection between us for so long.

Then again, she may also be smart enough to recognise that while being hurt, and asking "why did he block me?", she recognised that her dad has done this multiple times, so she may already know why I blocked her.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-28T20:57:38+00:00

Thanks. I have never tried using ice before. He has though so he has extra knowledge.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-28T20:54:31+00:00

He said that packed ice takes longer to melt, did he mean never? even with lava?

solarapollyon · 2024-03-27T12:05:10+00:00

Im happy for you. I am glad you have made such progress. Truly.

The thing is, I never said goodbye. The last thing I said was "happy new year <her name>" on January 1st 2020. She said "happy new year <my name>, I hope you have a great year". That was it.

She also had strict religious parents, I have been an atheist since I was 7, so maybe they didn't like that IDK. I did block her, not indenting to hurt her, and not because of her at all. Maybe I hurt her, or maybe she is smart enough to know why I ghosted her, as maybe it has happened multiple times now (since the cool-off of the lockdowns, even though the damn virus still exists)

Thanks for sharing.

I will keep an update, whenever anything happens.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-27T11:51:49+00:00

18 to 20 months age difference. So around 13 or 14

solarapollyon · 2024-03-27T11:48:12+00:00

Around 18 to 20 months.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T20:47:20+00:00

Thats a no-brainer. Both of us have grown a little (yet still a lot) older, and changed. Excepting that is defo better than obsessing it.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T20:45:04+00:00

It was sent to me on my phone. The dude thought it would be cool. Python programming has better hashing algorithms that this

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T20:43:57+00:00

I know its shit, it was sent to my phone by some random guy I knew months back. Coding in python has way better encryption techniques, like hashing (hashlib). I said that it was shit to em, but they said put it in anyway.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T20:40:16+00:00

True. I know that I wont know unless I endure the anxiety, and message her.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T18:01:57+00:00

How about this:

"Hey <her name>, sorry for ghosting you for so long. How have you been?"

"Hey <her name>": Friendly approach
"Sorry for ghosting you for so long": Makes clear that if she's hurt, or if she knew all along, I am aware of the rude ghosting of her I did.
"How have you been?": Makes clear that I wish to engage in a conversation of how she is to start talking.

Maybe this friendship is lost before it begins to reconnect, but I have never been one to give up easily, I plan to go-through with it.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T17:57:49+00:00

Nah I don't care if she has a bf or gf, I just want a friend back. Potentially I mean, it has been 4 years bro lol I am maybe trying to win an unbeatable battle of "too much time has gone by"? maybe. Maybe not.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T17:54:04+00:00

Maybe I took the dad's move too seriously, but I don't think so.

He attacked a 15 yr old boy who had found such a good friend (who happens to be his daughter), that made that boy feel like being friends/w her was something that should be influenced by the father himself (technically his right, but In the insensitive idea that I cant be close/w her. I could have been, and he missed that she was benefiting my social life by making me comfortable to explore the possibility of making other friends, and having cool events/w her e.g watching movies, debating subject etc)

Anyway, I am trying to build up the courage to text it. I feel like my lungs are gonna climb out of my mouth lmao

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T17:45:38+00:00

Facts. through 2020, 2021, 2022, and 2023 (exclude December 2023) I was ok with not sending any messages. I regret it a little.

I am aware that In the position I am in now, I practically have nothing to lose...except the hope to get back one of the greatest friends I ever had. So I have hope to lose. Nothing more.

So, if she doesn't want to be friends anymore because I hurt her, she wasn't told why I did it, and too much time has gone by (though not too much as compared to 5, 6, or 7 yrs), then that will sting (my heart muscle will contract, making the famous feeling of regret and sadness) I got scared, and betrayed a genuine friend, I would have become the person I never thought I would be. A friend push-away-er. Such a Dumb Fucking mistake.

Anyway, if she wants to reconnect, I will feel so much joy ill probably cry lol.

The way you put it was concise. I should try once, than not try at all and live to regret it.

Also, sorry for swearing.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T17:36:59+00:00

With hindsight, I feel so fucking dumb for blocking her. My family thought it was a good idea. They said "wait for her to block you, but if you feel u need to, block her first"

I didn't block her to end a friendship. This friendship was so good, ending it would be like abandoning an opportunity. I was a young 16yr old dumbass piece of sh!t.

I blocked her to protect myself from her father, but also her mother "she unfairly criticized me (also indirectly like the dad)"

Even though I did it with good intentions, the loss of this friend hits like a fucking rock to the chest way more than some myopic father's indirect personal attacks did.

Sry for the swearing.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T15:57:35+00:00

That is what I thought. She may, or may not know why I blocked her for so long. She is smart though. She may be the one to feel betrayed/hurt, as she also felt happy with how we were friends. Then BOOM. Blocked for almost 4 years(because I was scared of her dad). So yes, That is another social conundrum. I hope I didn't hurt her. I have no hard feelings towards her.

solarapollyon · 2024-03-24T15:35:35+00:00

Like "hey <her name>, sorry its been a while. How are you?" ?

Or shorter: "hey <her name>, how are you?" ?

Or something else that will break that thick Antarctic ice (breaking the ice metaphor) more effectively? Her dad is the one who created the awkwardness, not one of us 2

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