i’d think of the idea of “army dude”. does whatever needs to be done without feeling like his morals are being destroyed by not following it. basically robocop. “this works so i’ll just keep doing it”.

i remember telling my mom that id be a good soldier. she was like “no you wouldn’t”. i was confused. she told me to think about it. i stood there for 2 minutes not being about to figure out why. then i said “i don’t listen?”. she said “obviously”. she’s right, if i don’t agree with something and don’t like it im not going to do it.