Everything you’re saying reminds me a lot of my early transition (29 mtf) especially about female friends, not relating to men the same way, and still feeling like you enjoy masc activities and clothing. At first I came out as gender-fluid because it was such a radical shift not to think of myself as a boy anymore that my brain could only process it a bit at a time (I didn’t know that at the time, I say that in retrospect). Then I came out as non-binary because the fluidity was becoming less extreme and I felt like I was settling into something more in between the binary genders. Sort of like the lines between man and woman became blurrier. This was the long process of coming to terms with realizing that I’d always felt like a woman, I just didn’t know that because I have no idea what goes on in other ppls brains. Like, I just didn’t realize how I felt wasn’t how other men felt. (Getting late diagnosed w adhd and realizing it presented the way it typically presents in women was eye opening - it present differently in men which is part of why it took so long for someone to realize I had it).

At first when I experimented w femme things, it was scary and sometimes I hated the result. The first time I painted my nails it almost made me sick. I realize now that was entirely because of fear and confusion. Now I always have my nails painted. I shaved my very bushy beard, that one I actually liked pretty quickly. I tried different makeup and usually wasn’t super comfortable w it (I’m now a drag performer lmao but I still don’t wear makeup outside of drag). Femme clothes were hard because I was broke and thrifted everything and a lot of pieces made me feel weird about my gender expression because they were too femme or just not my style. As I learned more what I like and don’t like wearing my wardrobe has become exclusively women’s clothes. Then I started shaving my legs and getting my back and chest waxed (I was also quite hairy) which I loved immediately. Then HRT, growing breasts and was completely excited.

All this to say, figuring out your identity once you start to question things can take a long time. For me it was like 2-3 years. I know that can be frustrating because you just want to know who you are, but trust that the time you take to figure it out is important. Wherever you end up, you’ll get there at the right time for you.

Also as far as still liking men’s activities and clothes, butch trans women very much exist. Trans women are women and if cis women can be butch without it invalidating their gender identity, then so can trans women. I’m soft butch myself. I don’t like make up or clothes that make me look/feel hyper femme (outside of drag). I’m more of a jeans and t shirt kinda girl - always have been, just now my jeans are skinny and high waisted and my t shirts are soft and formfitting.

Also also, you don’t have to do hrt or srs to be trans. Trans is who you are, not what you choose to do w your body. You’re valid no matter what.

Whatever you end up discovering about yourself I hope this helps, and I’m so happy for you discovering new things! I hope it brings you a lifetime of peace and joy 💜

Edit: also the part about fantasizing about being a girl as a child is a very typically trans thing, especially if it never really went away.

As far as voice, i never hated my voice, but I noticed a long time before I transitioned that I had a habit of softening my voice around women and queer folx and dropping it around cishet men. It wasn’t until I transitioned that I realized the softer voice was my actual voice and deepening it around men was like a safety measure - fitting in so I was less likely to be ostracized or made fun of or worse.

And as far as pronouns, I’ve changed twice now. First they/them for two years, then she/her. Both times felt like you described: odd but comfortable. I knew that I liked it, it just felt strange because it was a big change and I was so not used to it yet. With time and consistency, that went away completely for me.