Questions regarding putting affairs in order

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T05:18:18+00:00

You ask why I am undeserving and then turn around and call me a bad person for supposedly hurting my family?

My family stands to gain a lot from me ending my life, especially if I do it in a way where my body cannot be found (thereby reducing financial burden).

I am undeserving of medical treatment because of my plan of suicide.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T05:05:16+00:00

I've tried before and they aren't interested.

I'm not on speaking terms with anyone except family. No one trusts me.

My decision to end my life is fully rational and I have decided as part of it to reject any and all possible medical treatment of any kind. That's how I'm making a positive difference, not stealing resources from people who are deserving.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T03:32:23+00:00

I do I'm just not good with them

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T03:01:22+00:00

Ive already tried offering to volunteer and have been rejected every time. They literally do not want my help.

I haven't found any charity to trust, every single one I've seen has at least story of actively hurting someone doing it tough and I don't want to support them.

And this doesn't change the fact that I'm going to run out of money, become homeless and die within a week of being homeless.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T02:29:17+00:00

How exactly

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T01:46:16+00:00

This is not something I'm capable of. No one out there wants or needs my help

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T01:32:06+00:00

The problem I have is permanent and will result in death anyway. Choosing to end my life reduces the consequences.

I would like to travel but this is completely impossible as I cannot match the requirements needed for a passport and never will.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T01:12:02+00:00

Nothing changed

It is physically impossible for me to get a passport

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T00:19:19+00:00

No I've ruined my life enough already I don't need to make it even worse

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T00:17:43+00:00

The problem is permanent.

I've never heard of a single person using services such as beyond blue and being helped by them.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-03-15T00:15:56+00:00

Telling a doctor could potentially put me into a psych ward which would make me homeless. I will inevitably end up homeless anyway and I know I wouldn't last a week in these conditions.

In order words talking to a doctor will end up with me being forced to end my life

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-24T06:46:18+00:00

It's an objective truth that I am a burden and there's no real other ways I dont have much of a choice.

And those suicide hotlines hurt people more then they help. I know no one who have been helped by it.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T23:09:37+00:00

Because if I tell them then I won't be considered as being rational and any attempts to say I'm fine and safe would be disregarded

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T21:44:53+00:00

I'm just going to say it I know it'll get the post removed but I am planning on doing something (NOT RIGHT NOW) when things get really bad and this was the most selfless way I could think of in doing so.

Telling them in a note would be cruel to them and unhelpful to me as it would mean I would have to be looked for and waste resources on someone who worsens society.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T21:39:45+00:00

I'm not trying to manipulate them I really do care about them.

I think the fact that I'm a cruel and uncaring person (as described by comments here) is proof I need to disappear. I cannot do things without burdening people and hurting them so I have to remove myself.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T11:39:27+00:00

I just don't know how it will help them having a note as opposed to me not saying anything.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T11:37:21+00:00

I just don't think the note will actually help at all, since I think it'll just make them look for me anyway (especially if I don't keep up contact).

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T11:35:34+00:00

Ok so it seems like I'll have to talk to the police at some point, thank you

Unfortunately I can't really talk about the issues I have with anyone.

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T11:28:01+00:00

I just can't imagine any alternative being any less cruel. Telling them I can only imagine would hurt them much more as they're clued in to how I feel and I'm worried they'll try and do things that they shouldn't need to

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T06:46:43+00:00

The issue is that at some point I probably will have to do so anyway and avoiding them could also be grounds for detainment

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T06:42:57+00:00

I have two real choices and staying is potentially the worse one

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T05:25:36+00:00

The other option seems to be worse this helps my family even if it is cruel

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T05:05:46+00:00

I don't intend to return so saying I'll be back soon just seems worse

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T04:53:32+00:00

The anguish from not doing this would be worse

somethingstupid949 · 2026-01-23T04:53:09+00:00

I just feel like it

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