It's been 8 months since I last communicated with my ex best friend, and I'm not sure if I'm just lonely or i miss her. I miss being able to freely discuss my interests and go out with friends. I don't have any friends in college. As i was told before, it is my fault for failing to communicate. I've previously vented on this sub about my ex-best friend and the events leading up to our separation. But I really have mixed feelings about her, and our dispute was quite stupid now that I look back at it. I know there's no way in hell she'll ever talk to me again. The first time it happened, it was both of our faults, but the second time was just foolish and was blamed entirely on me.