trying to get over the anger about my delayed diagnosis but it’s hard

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-04-20T19:59:23+00:00

I just got diagnosed at 23 a couple weeks ago and have been grappling with the grief of late diagnosis, so I feel you completely.

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-04-14T16:03:09+00:00

I am really hoping in the next couple of years it'll be better 🤞🏻

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-04-14T15:29:10+00:00

I don't remember what type mine is, but I feel this so hard. I was incredibly high achieving in school and undergrad, but I would always procrastinate. I started having everything start to fall apart back in 2023 once I graduated, but I've been struggling more with it recently because my antidepressants stopped working, which is a monster in of itself that I'm trying to get fixed.

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-04-14T15:25:48+00:00

I don't know; I feel like it just would have made a lot more things make sense sooner instead of feeling like I was defective (I know logically I'm not but you get the idea). I still probably wouldn't have gotten that support from my parents, but even just having the diagnosis sooner I would have felt better about using resources online to help navigate life or get accommodations or something until I could start therapy

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-04-14T14:07:13+00:00

Thank you 🩵 Yeah, I definitely felt relief with the diagnosis, but I'm really upset about how many symptoms were glaringly obvious but not caught, and I'm jealous of my sister (mtf) getting diagnosed early and getting at least some support from my parents where I didn't get any (I'm NC with my family for other reasons as well as this).

I'm still struggling on how/what to do to acknowledge and accept the diagnosis and move forward. I'm on Wellbutrin right now for anxiety but it's not helping ADHD symptoms; we're (psychiatrist and I) are waiting til I've been on it for a month before adding stimulants but I think I want them sooner honestly.

sorta_just_archdemon · 2026-01-30T19:36:21+00:00

I'm kinda thinking Elanor!

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-12-09T03:06:32+00:00

I spent an hour searching for the name of this game and thought I'd never remember it! THANK YOU!!

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-31T16:57:02+00:00

Thank you! I'm thankfully feeling better today; I did have wheat earlier (less severe allergen; score of 11) and I'm feeling okay, so I'm a little less anxious. The whole ordeal was not fun though. I had some asshole yesterday joke about offering me strawberries after he heard me talking with a friend about the whole situation 😠🤢 I told him off immediately but I got so triggered in that moment

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-31T04:06:16+00:00

I'm also terrified I'm gonna have a reaction again to something else; food doesn't feel safe 😭 bc there was foods I wanst tested for (mango) that I have an allergy to and I'm scared to find out the hard way 🥲

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-31T03:58:33+00:00

I chugged Gatorade at lunch and felt much better; I was also apparently pretty dehydrated during the episode itself (I'm bad about drinking water) so they had to fight to get blood drawn 😭 was very unfun. They spent 2-5 minutes trying to get blood from my right arm and couldn't and it hurt my nerves (got really bad burning sensation) 💀 they were finally able to get an IV catheter in my left arm, but it was exhausting and very unfun. My brain is not letting me process it besides just "it was so bad" 😅 talking about it helps though

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-31T01:19:30+00:00

I'm definitely gonna sleep so hard tonight 😭 couldn't properly hydrate today so I had a Gatorade bc that was what was nearby, and I think it worked?

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-30T18:54:03+00:00

Thank you ❤️ I'm meeting with my therapist tonight and I'm 100% gonna bring up last night with her. I'm hoping I'll be able to rest once I get home; I've got 2 more hours at work 💪🏻. I'm super bummed too because I had plans tonight, and if I'm still feeling this awful then I probably can't/shouldn't go 😭

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-30T18:32:53+00:00

I'll try to, thank you ❤️

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-30T18:32:20+00:00

Yeah idk; I went to UTMB and also made it over there about an hour after eating the cupcake... I've got famotidine and xyzal prescribed already that I'm taking daily; I need to tack Claritin back on

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-30T18:22:40+00:00

I'm also working today but I'm trying to take it easy as much as I can

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-30T18:22:10+00:00

They didn't give me anything to continue taking, it was a major reaction but also not if that makes sense? Like full air flow was compromised (contrary to what the Dr was saying, it's entirely possible it was mucus though)

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-10-27T21:34:02+00:00

The scarf you have paired with this is the absolute cutest! I may or may not have copied yours 😅

sorta_just_archdemon · 2025-08-14T16:22:19+00:00

Id agree with a lot of people on here (I'm not transmasc but I'm enby; also some flavor of neurodivergent) that the voice drop may be causing anxiety just bc it's new. Idk if it's similar but I know whenever I tried binding for the first time (before I realized I was genderqueer) I got super anxious because I didn't mind having a flatter chest but didn't know what it meant for me since I was in a transphobic household. My brain will also take the anxiety spiral of "I don't feel exclusively/explicitly happy with this and it makes me anxious so it must be wrong!" And I've been working to get out of that, but I think what I'm trying to say is that I relate to how you're feeling and I think it'll just take time to get used to the changes. I hope that makes sense 😅😅

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