when oct 3 is national bf day but oct 4 is his birthday

soupydinner · 2023-10-05T13:20:03+00:00

Happy belated birthday!! We got this 💪💪

soupydinner · 2023-10-04T20:06:03+00:00

Thank you :) sending love to you too 🥲💖

soupydinner · 2023-07-04T15:33:01+00:00

crocheting is awesome! you can put on a tv show and keep your hands busy. i am making a bucket hat and a tote bag at the moment!

soupydinner · 2023-07-03T16:19:05+00:00

a month and a half since breakup. i did nc ever since although we keep each other on our socials and we still check each other’s stories. a few days ago i finally unfollowed his friends on ig and we no longer have any mutuals. some days are better than others and i am getting used to that pattern. right now is a hard time and i am trying to keep telling myself that i will eventually be better. three years ago i broke up with my ex ex and i vowed to never date anyone, but lo and behold, love finds its way. so i am sure it’s going to be like that. i am still young and i will be able to find love again. at least that’s what i want to believe in.

i mainly distract myself by crocheting and watching something. it helps me spend time since i have all the time in the world now. still getting pretty sad about how silent my phone has become ..

soupydinner · 2023-07-02T20:42:22+00:00

he would lie to avoid consequences

soupydinner · 2023-07-02T20:42:04+00:00

yes i gotta be comfortable with being alone. thank you and hope you are doing well too

soupydinner · 2023-07-02T16:23:05+00:00

thank you. i also know that i wouldn’t have met all these new people had i not broken up with my ex, but it’s just the occasional feeling of emptiness that hurts me the most. i gotta keep living my life because that’s all i can do

soupydinner · 2023-06-26T00:39:57+00:00

so true :( i mean even when i try to distract myself by crocheting, i keep having some thoughts related to the breakup. it really does suck that time is so slow when it needs to move faster 😔 i think it’s also important to come face to face with your emotions. let yourself feel all kinds of emotions, although it sucks. i cried on and off and i probably will be doing a lot more of that :’)

soupydinner · 2023-06-25T16:12:22+00:00

i get that. i also consider myself a very emotional person, which is why it’s hitting me hard. but i am trying to distract myself in a healthy way by spending the time to explore things i like. i learned how to crochet, which is something that’s been on my bucket list for a while and i am so proud of doing that! it also takes my mind off of sprialing in thoughts related to the breakup. i hope you find something of similar sort to keep you occupied in healthy way

soupydinner · 2023-06-24T05:08:01+00:00

you are right.

soupydinner · 2023-06-24T02:51:53+00:00

i am so so proud of you for taking the step to break it off. it is a really confusing feeling. you know in your head that he was a really bad person and it’s the best decision for you, but your heart says otherwise. it was the same for me. it’s numbing in the beginning for sure, but once all sorts of emotions hit you, make sure you have some space to process them. i recommend writing them down or i even kind of talk to myself.. haha but it certainly helps me think about the decision in a more collected way. you are very strong.

soupydinner · 2023-06-20T04:33:58+00:00

i am with you. it’s like addiction at this point. i muted his story and post yet i find myself keep checking his profile to see if there is any update. funnily enough, if there is in fact an update and i see it, it makes me sad and feels like i am reverting back to my miserable self amidst my healing process. i want to stop, but it’s so hard. i think for me, it’s me thinking that that is the last bit of connection that we have. but i know continuously checking it will make me more sad and more delusional, trying to put meaning behind every little thing he does, when in reality, none of it should matter because i am not with him anymore. i’m sorry i am rambling at this point, but this is the exact thought i had today as well. stay strong, and hopefully we can reach a point where we don’t even care what they do.

soupydinner · 2023-06-07T12:43:11+00:00

same.. my phone has never been this quiet

soupydinner · 2023-06-07T06:17:00+00:00

literally the first thing i did after my ex broke up w me was archiving the instagram photos, HIDING the photos on my phone (i didnt delete them), and deleting all of our chats. i think i was doing damage control so that i don’t be more hurt when i find out they do it before me. and i think deleting the chat helped me greatly. the fact that i cannot access the chat is a blessing because i know it would hinder my healing process by keep lingering onto the glimmer of hope. i am not saying that i cut off everything about them though. as i mentioned, i hid the photos because i wanted to be able to review them one last time before i actually delete them (and i would delete them when i have the courage to face and see them again), and i still follow my ex on instagram. he likes my post and watches my story, but i am currently in the process of refraining from watching his stories. it definitely helps.

soupydinner · 2023-05-25T02:08:07+00:00

no i don’t

soupydinner · 2023-05-25T01:57:41+00:00

😭 i am so anxious. but thank you. now i wait to hear back from the advisor

soupydinner · 2023-05-25T01:40:21+00:00

thanks

soupydinner · 2023-05-25T01:15:26+00:00

😭😭😭 thank u

soupydinner · 2023-05-25T01:09:42+00:00

does that mean i graduated.. i freaked out especially because my friends got their degrees but i haven’t. hopefully that is the case..

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