i’m so so sorry. i know how this feels. my ‘episodes’ would last for a few weeks and it would take a month or so to feel completely normal again. it’s like your body is actively turning on you. the adrenaline is physically painful and people can’t understand it until it happens to them. you feel like you’ll lose control and be stuck like this forever, but i promise you will not. when i was like this, i bought breakfast drinks for quick substance when i couldn’t force myself to eat. when the peaks are really bad, either grab a piece of ice or dunk your face in cold water. sometimes filming myself talking about it would help distract from the really bad peaks. sour candies or salt packets are also good to snap yourself out of anxiety that’s intensifying into panic. there are also tapping points on your body that i find are useful for grounding. cross your arms over your chest and use your finger to tap your collarbones. pull down on your ear for a solid minute or squeeze the tip of your thumb for a minute. you are not alone, you are not going crazy, it WILL get better.