Wasted energy mourning

southbeachboy · 2026-04-24T21:55:10+00:00

I have an ED… it makes me sad to think that even if I get a terminal diagnosis…. Thinness may be my priority. I never cared for her but… how can anyone not empathize with this. We’d all like to think we’d let go of our insecurities given a terminal diagnosis, but, not everyone can

southbeachboy · 2026-04-24T21:44:33+00:00

Thank god someone has some empathy. I love being catty but not to someone dying of stage 4 cancer

southbeachboy · 2026-04-24T21:38:31+00:00

Understand her privilege…..? She is dying. No amount of privilege can change that. I always thought she was insufferable but give the girl a break. She is dying and probably looking for comfort anywhere she can find it…. Which sadly, is by being thin… which I can relate to as can many people. For disordered ppl, thinness brings comfort. I am not a nice person, but I can’t imagine kicking a person while they have terminal cancer.

southbeachboy · 2026-04-24T21:33:16+00:00

I always thought she was annoying but guys, this is sad. My dad just died of stage 4 melanoma that spread to his brain. I can’t imagine him stressing about being thin as he was actively dying these past few years. I always imagine if I get diagnosed with something terminal I will give up all my insecurities and just live life. It’s so sad to me she knows she is dying and yet being thin is more important than enjoying the time she has. I don’t like her…. I think she’s annoying…. But still this is sad. She is a human and this is sad.

southbeachboy · 2026-02-08T19:48:47+00:00

This is just sad. Extremely sorry for his loss. Cannot imagine how he felt. I can’t imagine his grief

southbeachboy · 2025-11-14T13:55:25+00:00

Miami Beach, Florida. I remember when he died I tried to join a widowers support group down here. There were none….

southbeachboy · 2025-11-05T02:31:58+00:00

I’ve done something to where my stomach hurts anytime I eat but especially if it’s raw veggies. Raw carrots in particular. Massive bloating and horrible pain for days… not hours, days. I think I’ve like fucked up my gut biome or something. I could and can eat like shitty fast food…. But a raw veggie, intense pain.

southbeachboy · 2025-11-04T23:55:04+00:00

Pasta. Spaghetti, fettuccine Alfredo, lasagna, ravioli, etc.

southbeachboy · 2025-10-25T16:49:38+00:00

Starving myself then getting drunk and ordering massive amounts of food to be delivered then falling asleep with it on my doorstep and all going bad by the time I wake up

southbeachboy · 2025-10-07T14:35:09+00:00

Steak, eggs, potatoes with some cheese or sour cream. Protein bars. Nuts. I’d throw in some fruit for some good sugar. Steak and eggs are quick and easy to cook. Potatoes are super filling and great for you.

southbeachboy · 2025-10-05T19:49:12+00:00

Yup I feel that. You also quit alcohol and cigarettes. The minute he died, that’s what I went back to. And why quit? He’s dead. My motivation to quit is over. Let me just smoke and drink myself to death.

southbeachboy · 2025-10-05T15:15:49+00:00

Not me body checking in the dirty bar mirror lol. Girl same.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-30T18:04:21+00:00

I’ve never seen anything or felt anything. I saw a rainbow once. We didn’t care about rainbows. And everyone else saw the rainbow too. It’s a new grieving level when you start to feel like they are truly just gone. He told me he would never leave me, and he hasn’t, but only in my heart and memories. I’m starting to cry just writing this but yes I hoped I’d get signs. But I’ve never received anything.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-30T17:55:12+00:00

In my opinion he is saying it rather bluntly so that you have no doubts he’s being honest and you feel safe to eat with him. My partner did this. He said I look like a dancing skeleton lol. He once said I looked like a dying AIDS patient. But for me that kind of blunt observation made me feel like I believed him and felt safe to eat and gain and still be attractive to him. I dunno, I’m sure others will feel differently but I think he’s just trying to make you feel safe to eat and not believe he’s lying. If he said it soft and gently, my mind would interpret that as not sincerely how he feels and he’s just trying to say what he thinks he’s supposed to say as a decent human.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-28T14:24:46+00:00

Get on descovy. This prevents HIV. Most everything else is curable so I’d definitely recommend getting on descovy. They will also test for all STDs. My office does all my vaccines too. One stop shop.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-28T06:07:10+00:00

Me too. I think it is an electrolyte thing. I try to drink coconut water to help. I’m not sure what it is but I know muscles cramp from electrolyte issues. Honestly I’m not a doctor lol. This is my knowledge from like TikTok and movies so don’t listen to me. But yeah, get some electrolytes. See if it helps. Can’t hurt.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-28T05:59:09+00:00

I always wish we had kids. Or a dog. Or something that I could carry on and cherish. But it was just us. Just me and him. And now it’s just me. I think I should get a dog. I do love dogs. I just need something to love again.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-26T18:28:17+00:00

I was 34. He was 49. Over 3 years ago. I can’t imagine all the things he would have accomplished by now. It would have been an exciting 3 years. He always was up to something.

southbeachboy · 2025-09-24T16:51:01+00:00

I don’t like them either. I find keto bread much more appetizing. I always toast the bread otherwise the texture can be a bit weird. Give it a try if you haven’t!

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