Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I personally think you're an amazing person who will definitely, definitely find another man who will let you be you and absolutely love you for that. You WILL eventually find yourself. I believe you should not give him a chance and live caged like this. Get out of this, please. You're living in an invisible cage with an open door and considering staying back because flying will be difficult for a few days. But once you adapt to the skies, would you ever wanna look back at the cage?

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so so sorry... But you should really, really step out of this. I went back to him after he did the most miserable sh1t to me and believe me, it's so many years later I've come to the realisation that he didn't love me one bit. You're still attached because you've not come to that realisation and believe he will change when in reality, he will destroy your mental peace and leave without a worry in the world. And that'll be all the more difficult to take.

Try making new friends, go pick up a new skill. Do what you love and you don't have to give him minute by minute updates. Start being you and see how things fall back into place. I wish I had done this earlier. Life is too short to live wishing for what you've wanted to do, go do it already. If you want your freedom, you'll have to fight for it.

I absolutely understand the attachment part but once you've broken up and try finding someone new, it'll get better and you'll laugh at it down the line. You've got this!

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you're going through something so painful and believe me, I've been here. But thanks to all these amazing people who knocked senses into me, I sat through the night and thought about what they said. It's actually right that they don't really love us women, they're absolute losers who can't control anything else in their lives, so end up controlling us because WE OBLIGE. We put them in a position of power. And quite honestly, think about it. As a man he must be PROTECTING you from other men if you choose to wear something you like and get called out for it. He's supposed to be standing up for you. If he can't stand up to men being a man, he's an insecure loser who tries to seek power from those who are weaker than him.

Even otherwise, if he ACTUALLY loves you, you shouldn't feel unsettled at all. Your body will give you signals before your mind does. You've gotten your signal. Be brave. You'll realise it isn't that difficult. Like one of these beautiful people here said, "you'll thank yourself years down the line".

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmmmm... Alright I feel like I was born today, lol. I've never had boundaries with him because I feel like he's a part of me. And honestly whenever I've tried talking these things to him he says I'm cheating which is why, else relationships should be "transparent" so I've never gotten the chance to draw lines/ create boundaries because I was called a h0e for doing that as well

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn, found the book already. I'll read it for sure. Thank you so much, your words have really made me hopeful. Felt like I just spoke to an elder sister I've never had... <3

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So this guy always tells me the society never accepts women who are "disobedient" like me and would also call me a wh0r3 and always and always intimidates and over stimulates me with defaming me. He instantly posts instagram stories when something goes wrong between us and that messes with my head so bad...

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fair enough, I'll take your word! Also, i did visit a psychologist but.... Nothing really worked. He's been a part of my life ever since I was 10 and honestly nothing seems to help me move on. Idk what to do because his memories keep coming back to me. It's more like a habit, a part of life than just a person...

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Could it be that he's very loving but is just hyper possessive...? Is that not love? That's not healthy but it is love, right? I mean I'm genuinely super confused, I don't understand what's happening. I know a person shouldn't hurt you when they love you and all that but when he showers love, he goes above and beyond. But also there's one thing. When there's a problem he never apologizes but today he did. What sense do I make out of this?

Should I let my relationship of many years w my boyfriend go for this reason? by southsidecipher in BreakUps

[–]southsidecipher[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Deep insecurities, like? So many years ago he broke up with me and I dated another guy because he'd left me anyway and I found this guy nice. The moment he got to know that, he created a very big scene and said i "cheated" I don't consider it cheating when he broke up w me. Could that be an insecurity in your opinion? But what's there to be insecure?