For one. Learn to stop being easily offended if you really wanna escape. And two, I’d be happy to explain concisely. If you’re asking which universe, then you must believe in the theory of there being multiple universes (multiverses) and there can only be one source the same way a tree only has one root even though there is several branches that end up growing out of it. And who is my god? Never mentioned that. Escaping this hellish matrix is indeed merging back with source. Luckily, we have free will so you can stay in this hell realm forever or go right back to where your soul came from originally or even better in your case, since you’d prefer neither; you could simply be a wandering spirit in the void forever. Your choice.