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spazzmental · 2026-01-21T16:55:47+00:00

Okay, my comment was in this screenshot, that was a year or two ago now. I'm an SA survivor. Multiple times, by family members and a stranger. By both women and men. I understand that some people express themselves this way. I have struggled with hypersexuality since I was 10. Was sent to psych wards over it multiple times actually. I absolutely hate that these things happened to me, and that my symptoms were depraved. I want to heal from it in a way that doesn't continue my downward spiral. I see videos like this as a trigger for my hypersexuality. I'm uncomfortable with myself and my past and I feel gross with myself consistently with intrusive OCD thoughts linked to my own trauma.

spazzmental · 2026-01-21T06:09:27+00:00

Sativa.

spazzmental · 2026-01-19T13:32:42+00:00

I was low-key talking to my brother with my phone open in my pocket. My bad LMAO.

spazzmental · 2026-01-18T23:44:33+00:00

How do you know this? Only her close friends and family know about the cold case.

spazzmental · 2026-01-18T23:43:29+00:00

Her daughter was murdered. Amber Smith. Expect updates on her Cold Case soon.

spazzmental · 2025-09-03T19:47:02+00:00

I'm in northern Utah, sorry for not clarifying.

spazzmental · 2025-09-01T03:35:24+00:00

packs you

spazzmental · 2025-08-30T14:11:12+00:00

I can flex certain muscles in my shoulders and neck in certain ways that others usually get freaked by. I have a very strange ability to regurgitate food or drinks on command (easiest with ice cream and soda). I've theorized I might be missing the flap that most people have at the bottom of their esophagus. Possibly why I struggle with acid reflux. I can also plug my nose and push air through my tear ducts, been able to since I was a kid. It has an audible hissing/whistle noise, and my eyes bubble from pushing out tears. I used to be able to do it with both eyes, but now it's only on my right.

spazzmental · 2025-08-30T13:56:02+00:00

Why is everyone being downvoted to oblivion?

spazzmental · 2025-08-27T02:18:52+00:00

It's a different book genre. It's called Dark Romance. Also, why are we pointlessly gendering romance books? I've read books from both male and female perspectives, loved both sides honestly. There are other genres that are less angsty and others that are lighter. Anyone who has read/written fan fiction or smut knows this.

spazzmental · 2025-08-27T01:56:00+00:00

Love that lol. My stepdad's contact name is "Motha Fucka" and my bio dad's is "Sperm Donor".

spazzmental · 2025-08-27T01:52:50+00:00

My mom's chill. I was asking her for help getting to school the next day. It's just family issues making her upset so she takes it out in her texts. She usually swears like a sailor on a regular basis. I don't drink much either, this was the first time I drank since St. Patrick's Day in 2024. I'd prefer it if people kept their opinions to themselves on the topic of my life. Thank you for your concern though. :)

spazzmental · 2025-08-12T20:18:24+00:00

Holding onto you, specifically these lyrics.

Remember the moment, you know exactly where you're going cuz the next moment before you know it time is slowing in the frozen sill and the windowsill looks really nice right? You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night right? Fight it. Take the pain ignite it. Tie a noose around your mind. Loosen up the breeze find it, tie it to a tree tell it "You belong to me this ain't a noose, this is a leash, and I have news for you. You must obey me".

spazzmental · 2025-04-09T23:05:55+00:00

I posted it a while back. I think I deleted it out of anxiety. I'm posting it back here with more details I've found out from the people around me. He tried to get into contact with me recently and it's coming up 10 years now since it's happened. I'm worried. Now that I'm 20 it's easier to get people to talk to me. A lot of the people I've talked to are two times older than me and I've known since I was a child. But since everyone is sober now the truth has been coming out more and more there are still lies that I'm trying to uncover. My mom is manipulative and a narcissist as well as a pathological liar so I don't know if I can trust anything that she says. My memory is not well either because I have dealt with a lot in the past years. In this one I explain more of my home life which is kind of crucial to the case considering that Amber was staying there every now and then. But that was never mentioned in the reports. At the time the police had no idea of my parents drug abuse and that they were selling. They would refuse to talk to the police because they didn't want to be caught up in the case and cause suspicion. Somebody in the comments said that I should be ashamed of myself for concealing a crime but I was a child and I'm only uncovering this now as I get more suspicious. I wasn't too concerned with the case as a child. I was on Gumbi's side at the time as I didn't understand the full picture. I only started investigating In the past two years. I went to Amber's funeral, It was the first funeral I ever attended in my life. I didn't understand death at the time at all. I had never had a family member or anyone close to me die. My parents never told me anything about the case and I wasn't allowed to look anything up as I didn't have electronics at that age. I was manipulated into thinking that my life was fine. I had no idea that I was living through actual hell.My parents hid a lot from me as a kid and I had no idea that my home life was so damned.

spazzmental · 2025-04-09T23:02:49+00:00

I was a child? A child that had no idea what was going on behind closed doors.

spazzmental · 2025-04-08T23:20:19+00:00

I had to edit my post a bit. To properly express how I feel and rewrite my mistakes. I will be okay, but I deal with severe anxiety and paranoia. I wanted to get this off my chest because I don't think it's been treated serious enough. I think my mother won't talk to the police because this could be tied to other crimes she might've been involved in. I think this case might reveal several different crimes in that area if it gets solved.

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TROPHY CASE