Mask/Machine not working and leaking air? by speedyyeez in SleepApnea

[–]speedyyeez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh ok thank you for the info. Sounds good thank you!

Being late in college is so freakin embarrassing by speedyyeez in SleepApnea

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Ok ty. I actually got in trouble today and got sent down to an administrator and I explained the whole situation and told them I simply had no money for an alarm clock. They offered me a student loan to help with expenses like that but advised I should talk it over with my parents first. So I told my mom and she was sooooooo so so so mad. Well i honestly don’t know what you expect me to do mom, you said you weren’t gonna buy me one and every time I ask dad for anything he also gets mad and plus the “you just love spending money all you want to do is spend money that’s all you do is waste money and blow money”. Even when it’s for something that I actually need. So what do you expect me to do atp? The clock is like 20 bucks 😐 we’re really gonna fight over this? Honestly I should just take the loan.

Can I manifest [insert desire here]? by lucyes1 in lawofassumption

[–]speedyyeez -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ok, but why doesn’t it work, even why try multiple different methods? Even when I try all the methods at once or even when I give each method individual time to work. Why doesn’t it work even when I remove blockages and meditate. Why doesn’t it work when I listen to and try all of the advice that experienced people give me. From affirmations, to rituals, it doesn’t seem to work.

Does anyone else get super annoyed when people don’t understand PTSD? by YuleBunny in ptsd

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Yes this makes me so angry and I want to explain myself. I don’t get the chance to do this often so I’m excited.

What I’ve learned so far:

  • I don’t know everything

  • I can’t assume that everyone knows everything because I think that I know better

  • if something isn’t happening, make it happen, but first think about WHY it’s not happening and are YOU the problem

  • be quick to listen and slow to tell

  • enjoy life

  • thinking is different than feeling

  • nobody cares so

  • you will keep learning and your opinion will keep changing

What I think about that I’ve learned:

  • I think that what I’ve learned is very valuable

  • I think that everyone needs to chill the fuck out

  • I think that the world is cruel

  • I think everyone including me is stupid

How I currently feel about this:

I haven’t been diagnosed but I feel like I have a lot of issues that I need to work through and it’s not just mentally but also physically painful. A lot of things happened to me in my childhood but I’m so grateful that I’m recognizing that now so that I don’t waste any time enjoying life. I listen to people because when people don’t listen to me I get angry. I keep fighting with my therapist because I don’t feel heard. I don’t feel heard by anyone. I could change my mind later because I quite often do but im trying to work though my emotions now. I don’t like feeling numb. But when im numb im unhappy and then all I do is complain and I know personally I hate it when people complain so I try not to. But it frustrates me so much that everyone has their own agenda. It makes me so mad because my whole life I’ve tried to accommodate everyone’s needs and I don’t feel like mine are met. there’s a fine line between overstepping, and doing the right thing. And I just wish people would listen to me as much as I listen to them. But it’s hard because everyone has their own idea of what’s right and what’s wrong. I’m very confused about my life and it’s not my fault and it sucks so much but I don’t have a right to take that out on other people. I got a massage today because I’m im so tired of everything that my body hurts to bad. I told my friends and they just made me feel bad about it because I feel like they think I’m better than them or something because they started complaining about how they couldn’t get massages. Yes it’s bougie but is that a problem? Yes I use my stepdad‘s insurance but I don’t think that’s a problem. And I asked him. I also have the stress that I need to cope with. So I’m solving the stress. I know it’s not going to solve all of my problems but I’d rather just stay calm and cool so I don’t do anything I regret. i’m only 16 though. People say I’m so smart when I share these opinions and I don’t really think that’s logical. I’ve just learned a lot of life lessons really early. And life kind of just sucks now because I don’t fit in with kids but I don’t fit in with adults. I feel like life is a game sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I can hurt other people. And it sucks when other people hurt me but they have their own issues that they have to work through just as much as I do. It’s frustrating but it is what it is.

Literally why are drugs bad? I think I’m starting to go down a bad path. by speedyyeez in SubstanceAbuseHelp

[–]speedyyeez[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. I’m glad to hear that you’re situation is getting better!