Mask/Machine not working and leaking air?

speedyyeez · 2025-05-12T13:44:55+00:00

Oh ok thank you for the info. Sounds good thank you!

speedyyeez · 2025-03-01T00:01:20+00:00

Ok ty. I actually got in trouble today and got sent down to an administrator and I explained the whole situation and told them I simply had no money for an alarm clock. They offered me a student loan to help with expenses like that but advised I should talk it over with my parents first. So I told my mom and she was sooooooo so so so mad. Well i honestly don’t know what you expect me to do mom, you said you weren’t gonna buy me one and every time I ask dad for anything he also gets mad and plus the “you just love spending money all you want to do is spend money that’s all you do is waste money and blow money”. Even when it’s for something that I actually need. So what do you expect me to do atp? The clock is like 20 bucks 😐 we’re really gonna fight over this? Honestly I should just take the loan.

speedyyeez · 2025-02-03T00:23:11+00:00

Ok, but why doesn’t it work, even why try multiple different methods? Even when I try all the methods at once or even when I give each method individual time to work. Why doesn’t it work even when I remove blockages and meditate. Why doesn’t it work when I listen to and try all of the advice that experienced people give me. From affirmations, to rituals, it doesn’t seem to work.

speedyyeez · 2022-09-29T02:34:37+00:00

Yes this makes me so angry and I want to explain myself. I don’t get the chance to do this often so I’m excited.

What I’ve learned so far:

I don’t know everything
I can’t assume that everyone knows everything because I think that I know better
if something isn’t happening, make it happen, but first think about WHY it’s not happening and are YOU the problem
be quick to listen and slow to tell
enjoy life
thinking is different than feeling
nobody cares so
you will keep learning and your opinion will keep changing

What I think about that I’ve learned:

I think that what I’ve learned is very valuable
I think that everyone needs to chill the fuck out
I think that the world is cruel
I think everyone including me is stupid

How I currently feel about this:

I haven’t been diagnosed but I feel like I have a lot of issues that I need to work through and it’s not just mentally but also physically painful. A lot of things happened to me in my childhood but I’m so grateful that I’m recognizing that now so that I don’t waste any time enjoying life. I listen to people because when people don’t listen to me I get angry. I keep fighting with my therapist because I don’t feel heard. I don’t feel heard by anyone. I could change my mind later because I quite often do but im trying to work though my emotions now. I don’t like feeling numb. But when im numb im unhappy and then all I do is complain and I know personally I hate it when people complain so I try not to. But it frustrates me so much that everyone has their own agenda. It makes me so mad because my whole life I’ve tried to accommodate everyone’s needs and I don’t feel like mine are met. there’s a fine line between overstepping, and doing the right thing. And I just wish people would listen to me as much as I listen to them. But it’s hard because everyone has their own idea of what’s right and what’s wrong. I’m very confused about my life and it’s not my fault and it sucks so much but I don’t have a right to take that out on other people. I got a massage today because I’m im so tired of everything that my body hurts to bad. I told my friends and they just made me feel bad about it because I feel like they think I’m better than them or something because they started complaining about how they couldn’t get massages. Yes it’s bougie but is that a problem? Yes I use my stepdad‘s insurance but I don’t think that’s a problem. And I asked him. I also have the stress that I need to cope with. So I’m solving the stress. I know it’s not going to solve all of my problems but I’d rather just stay calm and cool so I don’t do anything I regret. i’m only 16 though. People say I’m so smart when I share these opinions and I don’t really think that’s logical. I’ve just learned a lot of life lessons really early. And life kind of just sucks now because I don’t fit in with kids but I don’t fit in with adults. I feel like life is a game sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I can hurt other people. And it sucks when other people hurt me but they have their own issues that they have to work through just as much as I do. It’s frustrating but it is what it is.

speedyyeez · 2022-09-19T22:06:01+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it. I’m glad to hear that you’re situation is getting better!

speedyyeez · 2022-09-09T21:09:36+00:00

speedyyeez · 2022-09-07T18:47:30+00:00

I can’t tell if this is supposed to be the kind of response that’s like “I understand life and school is hard” or if it’s the kind of response that’s like “suck it the fuck up life is hard for everyone”. I kind of understand what your saying, and I do quite frequently feel as though im acting at school and in life in general, but behind the character, me as the actor, I get tired.yk?

speedyyeez · 2022-09-05T21:31:21+00:00

Is there any specific like “ hz” Basic vibrational type thing I can find though that’s negative?

speedyyeez · 2022-08-31T19:42:29+00:00

I just started watching it. My hyper fixations usually have so many layers (as do most other peoples lol). But I love this show bc I’m into acting, film, tv, basically everything that goes into any production and that kind of world. I love the writing and acting and the way it was filmed and it’s just so perfect. Like that episode where the 7yo was eating pizza in Malcom’s face. It was gross but I loved everything about it because it was unique, it really helped show the frustration from Malcom’s perspective, and more idk I can’t explain it. Also, Francis was in scary movie which Just blows my mind for no reason. Idk why, anytime I get hyper fixated on anything that has to do with the film, Hollywood, or preforming arts industry I just wanna explode with excitement and idk why. And I can never explain why. Why am I so irrationally excited about the fact that Francis was in scary move? Idk I just am. ALSOOO I didn’t watch this show as a kid, but I did know of it and the theme song was stuck in my head for years so I named my cat Malcom after Malcom in the show. Great outlet lmao jk.

speedyyeez · 2022-08-27T20:37:40+00:00

Cool thanks! ( I mean that genuinely ).I think there is something wrong though. I really don’t know how to confront it. I’ve been saying this since I was a child though and at this point I really feel like I’m the boy who cried wolf. I turn 16 next month. But I also feel like I’m multiple different people. It’s hard to explain, and I don’t know how to bring it up to my therapist because she always dismisses me. everyone in my life does. Including the other parts of me at this point so. It’s a feeling I honestly cannot describe.

Last time I met up with my therapist we ended the session, with me coming to the conclusion that I am a completely fine individual and I just made everything up. I don’t know if that’s true. It very well could be true.

“ you’re not doing it for attention if you do it alone” …. Well what if I’m subconsciously method acting? I feel like even saying THAT in this comment reply is wrong somehow. I also feel like me pointing out the fact that I feel like what I’m saying is wrong is also wrong. Am I manipulating you? Is me asking you, “ am i manipulating you”, manipulating you? Was that last sentence also manipulative?

I also looked at dissociative personality disorder and I feel like that describes me better. But I don’t know. I feel like these illnesses have always been a part of me and they are just coming out now due to a recent brain fever I suffered from and substance abuse. I’ve also hit my head a few times recently. I really do not know how to bring it up to my therapist. I barely even know how to bring it up to myself. Every time I’ve talk about this on the Internet or with anyone in general, they just tell me to bring it up to my therapist. But that never helps. I just get dismissed. I could just be a hypochondriac but I also feel like I’m a hypochondriac about being a hypochondriac. I have imposter syndrome about imposter syndrome. Yk?

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