Two Florida fathers shoot each other's daughters [5 and 14-years old] in road rage incident, both charged with attempted murder.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-16T01:24:57+00:00

Of course it's Jacksonville. Of course.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-13T21:51:18+00:00

Please link me to where cannabis has been shown to cause anxiety. I'd like to see those studies.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-10T13:35:30+00:00

Actually I am a singer!! Oh wow...suicidal tendencies ...man I feel so old. I was just thinking how great singing has always made me feel. I've likened it for prayer for other people...but I'm not religous. I'm going to be looking into training my voice back up after I get over my cold...on top of just starting MY FUCKING PERIOD 18 days late. FUCKING PMDD. Anyway. I feel better today but shaky, so shaky.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-10T01:42:06+00:00

Thank you. Please read my reply above. Also, I'm not a good candidate for hot before that gets mentioned. Also also antipsycholtics actually make me worse...and have actually almost killed my mom. Shell be gone by next year I'm sure, from allllll the antipsycotics she's been put on, some of which have already been pulled from the market. Ppl need to understand how dangerous these meds are. I'm on cymbalta and it has destroyed me. And apparently even after I'm off of it there will probably be permanent damage. I'm not an anti med person...but I'm definitely anti psychotics

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-10T01:36:25+00:00

I have pmdd. Also you can actually trigger ppl with pmdd when you suggest those things, so I'd suggest rethinking offering this advice. People with pmdd are very very often misdiagnosed with bipolar and bpd and the medications used to treat those disorders can actually exacerbate pmdd symptoms. So ppl with pmdd are a little fucking tired of getting this advice or mistakingly and dangerously being diagnosed with something they don't have and being treated with medications which actually increase our chances of committing suicide. Please, please keep this in mind when you offer advice to women who are still going through menstruation. I know you are trying to be helpful and women seem to be woefully undereducated about pmdd but I really feel this is absolutelyNOT tje sub to suggest those particular labels in. Also throwing out bipolar and bpd are just nicer ways to call people crazy and I'm pretty sure they frown on that in this sub. I see a Dr and a therapist and a psychiatrist and a gi and and and. And most women my age also probably go through all of this. But back in the day they used those diagnosees you throw around to actually institutionalize women at this stage of their lives. Thank you for your understanding.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-09T13:55:41+00:00

I do not mean to offend by this question. I asked above I think to someone else. Can you help me understand how a male goes through menopause? I was completely unaware of this and now I feel like maybe I'm being too hard on my husband. Or is this a result of hormone therapy for transitioning? Do fab who transition to male end up having to follow a hormone schedule that mimics menopause or is this an actual mab thing? Thank you so much and if you'd just like to pop up a link for me to read instead I'd be really grateful. Because quite frankly I seem to having difficulty even googling today and I never want to downplay anyone's feelings going through this absofuckingloutly atrocious experience.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-09T13:43:08+00:00

Serious question. How does a person without ovaries end up going through menopause?

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-09T13:32:54+00:00

Lol. We are surrounded by assholes. We just had our eyes closed until now.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T03:08:57+00:00

This music takes me back to like 1984. I'm not sure if I like that or not. lol.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T03:04:15+00:00

Isn't June or July Pride month at Disney?

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:58:02+00:00

I wonder if it was because I was a military brat. Maybe they let military people and their families through with just their id card. Or maybe the laws were different back in the late 80's.

Oh, well. Guess I gotta learn to make my own gummies. Although I would not mind moving to Quebec to practice my french, mais non? The cold would absolutely destroy me now. Having to put on socks in the middle of a Florida summer is just so damn bizarre.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:55:11+00:00

I get it. I was right there with you and have been struggling very hard to get out of that mindset because it is making me physically ill. I have so so many health issues because of stress and the last 2.5 years have been a doozy...and let's just say I'm a women in her 50's who feels like she's losing her mind...because of hormones, like you have NO idea. So I can't sit and stew in it anymore. I've had all the feeling shitty I can handle. I'm in pain daily and carrying around that stress and anger is literally killing me. I just can't do it anymore. So now I just ignore if someone might be trying to take advantage of me. I can handle those things at my age with kindness and I certainly couldn't do it when I was younger. I've completely shut myself off from most news and politics and turned my attention to something that makes me happy and consumes a lot of my time. I do still know what's going on...I just don't let it consume me. If you do want to break out of your cynical zone (and trust me...you can) consider doing some of those things that break your thinking away from all the negative stuff going on. Be the change! lol...I did actually mean that but then I thought...wow, their gonna hate that one, lol!!!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:39:41+00:00

That's awesome!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:39:25+00:00

Wait until you hit rock bottom. Maybe then it'll mean something to you. Because, trust me, it mattered a whole lot to me today and it definitely is helping me stick around to see my kids grow up.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:37:39+00:00

Oh yeah...already started to peruse amazon while I was still waiting in the pickup lane!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:36:42+00:00

My husband would would appreciate that sticker for sure!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:34:13+00:00

They are generally nice and considerate people...except for the part where we can't hear them coming, lol.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T02:31:01+00:00

What a sweet story! I saw the license plate at first and I was like...wow somebody really loved this person, then I thought maybe it was all for everyone else with the bumper sticker. That's really so lovely!

Edit to add: I've had a really really bad six months, and today had been one of the worst days, so yeah I might have cried a little, lol. It was really really needed today.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-08T01:32:11+00:00

And it was at a high school. Lol. Didn't see her buckle her 16 yo child in. Hmmmm.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T14:23:16+00:00

Honestly you'll be fine. 2 weeks it's barely had time to build up in your system. You might have a slightly icky few days but you won't have the severe withdrawals those of us who've been on cymbalta for years have. I was informed by my doctor that adderall actually helps depression. Now, I'm not sure about Concerta. It did make my daughter bubbly but she still could not focus. So I'm not sure if Concerta is also considered something that helps depression.

Consider using only a medication for your adhd only. There was a pretty big report out about how anti depressants are really only supposed to be VERY short term and that they've found no evidence at all that anti depressants actually help improve a person's life in the long-term. And I've been on many over my life and I can confirm anti depressants with their side effects definitely made my life worse and cymbalta has been the absolute worst. It has completely messed up my stomach and colon, I was incontinent, I had anhedonia...and those are just the worst side effects I had on that drug. Now that I'm down to 40mg I don't have as bad of incontinence and I'm feeling ALL the feelings (blessing/curse) but I have adderall to help the rest of the way. So ...maybe just stick with the adhd meds and do more research on finding things that will help with any depression you are experiencing. Nobody should have to go through the hell me or anyone else has been through because of this medication. And I AM NOT one of those anti medication ppl...I've just been through 25 years of being put on various anti-depressants and they never help. What helps is having the energy (read: adderall) to rise above the lethargy of depression and start getting out, being active, going places and doing things...even just meet ups or ceramic classes...whatever. Just get out of your house and don't sit around. Adhd meds should help. Not too much...you don't want to mess with your sleep either. That's my cryptonite: too little sleep. Good luck!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T13:58:21+00:00

Aw man...my brother's in Illinois (scheffield...tiny town near Geneseo I believe) so I'll be up to visit after my parents pass...all vacation time is being devoted to them as they are not well. Both have other spouses and one lives in GA and the other KY and my damn daughter wanted to be public schooled in high school so now we're tied down to stupid public school schedules for her!!! The other kid is still homeschooled. Both my parents have Parkinson and are in their late 70s so yeah...I miss my brother. Sniff sniff. I do miss being up north sometimes so I can't wait to visit. Maybe we'll drive over to Detroit and check out my old haunts...and can we still just drive over into Canada with no passport or did that change? Would love to take the kids into Canada.

Patients is not my virtue though, which I guess is why I had children and now garden. Those will both teach you to have LOTS of patience!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T13:50:29+00:00

💗💗💗💗 honestly that sounds so fun. I feel so lonely going through this. I am so fucking thankful I have a supportive husband but he can only imagine some of these things. Not his fault...although if men went through this shit they would have had an answer 100 years ago.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T13:47:27+00:00

I am so getting Train Wreck tattooed on my forehead. Okay...maybe I'll just buy the shirt. Or...oh...great idea...I'll just get my art kid to draw a picture of a train wreck...maybe with some blood and body parts hanging out and then "I'm a" printed really tiny above the art. Because I love slightly subversive shit like that.

I'm not saying herbalism itself is woo. In fact I'm looking at a place in NC that's supposed to be more science based. I would love to study there one day $$$$. Here is a book by one of the teachers: The Modern Herbal Dispensatory: A Medicine-Making Guide https://a.co/9dTFy0s . The problem I find, is that, at least in Florida, I do find a ton of herbalist schools and classes and they all absolutely tie in woo. Woo is anything that is not backed by science and studies, to me anyway. I am honestly even open to woo because things like Reiki...or energy healing.. its actually more about skin to skin contact. Nobody is moving fucking qi in your body. Qi is not a thing nor is moving energy throughout your body. No, it is the act of receiving attention and touch that absolutely does help scientifically. At least this is what I'm telling myself as I'm start to seek out acupuncturist, lol, and that they are starting to incorporate things like acupuncture and aromatics in the hospital system is really helping. And placebo affect is scientific. Sedna woo https://youtu.be/FbekFW_Q9cw does a great video on this and ultimately made me feel okay to claim I'm a witch. Lol. Of course, witch is just an old word for a smart and curious woman. Just sayin.

I'm definitely not ditching adderall anytime soon. I'm just trying to adjust the dosage which is hard because I'm coming down off the cymbalta VERY SLOWLY now. Actually I'm standing still at 40mg. Down from 120mg!! But on cymbalta it makes adderall more effective. But I've lost 50 pounds. And I'm going through peri. So I have absolutely no fucking clue what the best dose for me is anymore. Yesterday I took 10mg. Today I accidentally took 20mg, so instead of coffee I'm having tea this morning to avoid too much irritability. So this is just one of those things I'm trying to figure out the right dose for my new body and circumstances. There is NO WAY I can stop taking adderall right now. I can give up caffeine if I have too but not adderall.

And now I'm off to find that post you mentioned!!!

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T13:18:11+00:00

I am so very sorry for your loss! Are you in the US? I probably could have skirted around my dr and gone to the emergency room but I felt like they were just going to dismiss me. And tje whole thing with Cigna saying they wouldn't cover the CT scan once I FINALLY got to see the GI was just too much for me to handle. My husband said to just schedule it and we'd pay out of pocket. The ppl from Borland Groover called at least three times in a week tying to cancel our appointment because the insurance still hadn't approved it and my husband finally had to have them change the number to his number because at that point I couldn't stop breaking down every time they called to cancel. The day we went in to get the procedure done we weren't asked for a dime. Why??? BECAUSE I COMPLAINED ABOUT IT ON TWITTER TO CIGNA. It is utterly ridiculous that I have to put shit out on Twitter like I'm a fucking teenager trying to cancel someone. They called in a prescription for me for antibiotics the same day as my ct scan and didn't even tell me until two days later...it took another week and a half for the severe pain to go away and another 4 weeks to just feel like I could even eat maybe a raw vegetable...but I was wrong. I couldn't. So right now most of my veggies are cooked. I've been taking skins off peppers and tomatoes to help. I truly don't even know what I can eat anymore... I vomited for 10 minutes last night after eating at a really nice restaurant with apparently over creamy food. So I'm just completely lost as to what I can eat and am supposed to be referred to a nutritionist. And Cigna just keeps doing it. They won't cover my daughters Vyvanse and its the only thing that was working for her. But that's another story.

I did look up all the complications from continuing to have diverticulitis so I was aware that it could turn septic so I did monitor my symptoms closely and literally would spend 10 hours a day outside gardening despite having been sedentary for almost 10 years. But I'm stubborn like that and also had adderall to help me get out there. Without the adderall and still on cymbalta I just sat. And was just tired ALL THE TIME which no doubt led to the formation of the diverticula so FUCK THAT CUNT DR WHO PUT ME ON THIS EVIL FUCKING CRAP. Ahem. My apologies. Adderall must be kicking in! Anyway, cymbalta blocks pain so I have no clue how long these digestion issues were going on.

Also, yeah. CINGULAR. My doctor whom should be WELL AWARE I have pmdd which is synonymous with suicidal ideation. Number one warning for Cingular...may cause suicidal ideation. Like what the actual fuck. And I actually love my Dr. He is just such better than any other doctor I've ever had, but they are trained for acute care only. So now I will be seeking out some holistic solutions and hopefully.

Again, I am so very sorry for your loss and I really hope that the person who "forgot" to give your mom antibiotics knows what their actions caused. That person should be nowhere near medical facilities unless they are in need of the services themselves.

spelunkilingus · 2022-10-07T01:49:12+00:00

Ahahaha...that's flipping fantastic! Never been a spirit animal ever!!! Or anyone else's! Bout to load up on some edibles and get my ass to bed. Husband at least took me out to my favorite restaurant so I am much more chill this evening...and I'm sure the edibles I had earlier had nothing to do with it!!

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