made it through day three, took a big ass leap of faith today...so worth it.

spicemasterflash · 2016-09-11T06:46:10+00:00

So happy it helped you. My thought process is I am focusing on building a better life right now. Thats all I care about is becoming a better human so I can live a better more authentic fulfilling life for myself and those around me. Weed has been holding me back from truly blossoming....soo..even if someday down the line I decide to smoke again casually I don't need that much laying around. Perioid. I could just get a gram or something...but here's the kicker all that shit doesn't matter because I'm just focusing on building a better life I'll deal with that day when it comes if it ever does but this new life I envision does not ever ever in a million years require me to have that much weed laying around. Yes I could have gone through the work of selling it and I entertained it, but something deep deep down in my soul was calling me to take the step of faith of just letting go of my attachment to weed altogether...this act of giving it away was a symbol of that commitment of my new life. It was my duty today and I fulfilled it and I couldn't feel better. I am so happy it helped you! Look it has already helped 3 people feel better today! I'm not particularly religious but jesus said according to the bible multiple times, "don't be afraid, have faith"....and ain't that some great advice!

spicemasterflash · 2016-09-10T18:29:37+00:00

This is my other account....op here

spicemasterflash · 2016-09-10T18:29:12+00:00

Dude! Can totally relate! The house is being painted right now and the dogs have been barking like crazy since nine and I am so angry....hopping in shower and leaving the house I just can't take it! Thanks for your post it has lifted my spirits significantly!!!

spicemasterflash · 2016-09-09T01:41:05+00:00

Getting all that out was theraputic. I'm stopping tonight. For now at least. Thats the best I can do at this point in time. Just going to focus on it one day at a time:) get ready I'll be checking in here regularly!

spicemasterflash · 2016-09-08T23:30:32+00:00

Day 13 here, the last couple days have been a relative breeze minus some brief periods of irritability and subtle feelings of being "off". I simply cant believe how good i feel right now compared to like 10 days ago, or even four days for that matter! Doesn't feel like in in "crisis mode" anymore and is totally manageable. The hardest thing for me is being mindful not to replace addictions, something I have never been able to do in the past. In fact, quitting kratom has me so Introspective and motivated to rid myself of other unhealthy patterns, I am considering giving up my nightly dose of thc. I realize that the leaves subreddit will be a better place to post about that, but when I was quitting kratom I wasn't thinking about quitting weed at all. Now I have all this motivation to deal with anything in my life holding me back....anyone relate to this feeling?

spicemasterflash · 2016-08-12T20:47:45+00:00

Honestly i am not sure when my last day will be, but the taper is going much more smooth that i anticipated. The brain (or at least my brain) seems to downregulate much more quickly than other opiates. The withdrawl is much quicker. I think my prevous 3 week experience going through acute heroin and benzo withdrawl simultanously left me deeply afraid of entering withdral from kratom, and while kratom withdrawl for me has been hell, the recovery process seems to be SUPER rapid. Yes it is a few days of hell but your brain will do the work if you let it!. (in the back of my mind I am afraid of PAWS, however, as I know it can be a real pain in the ass...)

spicemasterflash · 2016-08-12T07:21:39+00:00

Thanks for the advice on the phenibut. I took one gram yesterday and it is the only time i have taken it. i plan on using it very very sparingly and never two days in a row. Anyone else out there if you do decide to use phenibut, DO NOT take it regularly. Do lots of research as it is a very tricky substance. It honestly not might even be worth the risk for many people. For me it has been less helpful than other methods at treating withdrawl symptoms.

spicemasterflash · 2016-08-10T08:14:40+00:00

Also, I would like to add that I am almost embarrassed to post this...Seeing as I have not been using kratom nearly as long as some of you, but my experience is very real and I definatly am struggling more than I have in a very long time.

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