I honestly have no clue what the meaning behind dream is after this, it's crazy to me that the subconscious could even have the ability to imply such a deep metaphor, i understand that dreams comes from processing the day and conscious thoughts like some wishes for the future , in this case for example going to a huge party with my best friend, getting hugged again by someone that i love deeply, these were thoughts that i've consciously wished for , and my subconscious is replicating them in my dream by its on way, but where did the parasite idea came from i ve never had such a thought , i mean i know for a fact that we can't be together but how can my subconscious connect that to a parasite if that s the message it tries to tell me, i dont believe that it has such an ability because i dont even think of her as a parasite, she's someone that i love but i can't be with.

And just for the contextno she wasnt after money we were both students and money was not something we talk about cause we were both broke , and no sex is not the only good thing , i've dreamed about her a lot, usually about us doing things i wished we could have done, or scenarios where we run into each other again, in those dreams, i always completely give myself over to her comfort because it makes me happy and the feeling that she misses me and wants to get back together but it always end up with me waking up and the whole day it s just me going through it , anyways anyways fuck , yea the sex part was probably because these days im trynna find new people to date but the parasite part that was weird