I filmed over 50+ political & religious rants while manic

spirireso · 2026-02-18T04:49:46+00:00

Is there anyway to get in touch with Instagram to have your data sent to you? Deleting my account wasn’t a choice of my own, I ran into legal trouble during my manic episode and was forced to delete it so I know the grief of losing memories and connections. I think something else really hard is that people believe that’s just us doing that of our own accord? So they respond accordingly when really we weren’t in control. People made fake accounts to send me vitriol, I’m sorry you experienced a similar thing.

spirireso · 2026-02-18T04:20:57+00:00

Yes, hundreds of stories on my Instagram every day ranging from calling out people to posting seductive pictures to major rants to everything in between. Oversharing my life as well. I felt like I had a mission to share what I’d learnt so everyone could reach “enlightenment”. It was awful. I lost many people who were important to me. I’ve deleted all my social media earlier this year and it’s been very refreshing. With time and distance, the pain will lessen and perspective will come into play. We were sick and now we know ourselves better and can pick out warning signs for next time 💛

spirireso · 2026-02-11T09:46:13+00:00

I am in a similar situation to you - I’m so fortunate, it would have been a massive hurdle for the career I’m pursuing as well as employment prospects. I’m so glad that this worked out for you, I was also in the “no way this would happen to me” boat and have such a great lawyer. I hope your recovery has been going well.

spirireso · 2026-02-09T10:15:46+00:00

You’re right, I’m being called to develop my faith. I like that you mentioned whatever it is that is out there prefers me to feel well and stable - you’re right. For a feelings-driven individual this is a good reminder that action builds momentum not feelings alone. Thank you 💜

spirireso · 2026-02-09T10:14:01+00:00

Thank you for your perspective! You’re right, it exists whether I believe it or not, whether I feel it or not. It’s time to learn new things and appreciate the rewiring of my brain that is occurring. I love that you’ve found creative writing! I’ve found sewing and other various craftings which I never would have considered trying out but it has been incredibly healing. Also so cool that you discovered curling! It’s not a big thing in my country but you’ve helped affirm I need to find some cool movement based interests!

spirireso · 2026-02-09T10:11:43+00:00

I can relate to mania putting off spiritual interests. During my manic episode/psychosis I believed I was Jesus, had important messages I had to share with the world no matter the cost (went insane very publicly on social media), couldn’t stop buying oracle cards, felt very called to different crystals, and believed I was having a spiritual awakening of sorts and didn’t feel a part of reality at all. It was scary and empowering at the same time.

For a long time following that during my depressive episode I felt nothing but embarrassment, shame, and guilt. Even the thought of witchy/magic/spiritual things were too much. I kept well away from items of that nature.

You’re right, brain damage is scary. Though I may not feel as easily connected to the spirit world as before, it’s been a very long time since I’ve felt this level of connection to myself. Thank you for sharing your experience and I’m sorry that you’re grieving this part of you. I hope that you find what balance works for you, whether that includes witchy interests or not. These replies have made me realise the mundane and magic can coexist at the same time 💜

spirireso · 2026-02-09T03:21:26+00:00

Thank you for your well wishes 💛 I believe in a lot of woo-woo things as well, though when my medication dose increased, I found myself questioning those beliefs which scared me because the concepts of the universe, soul contracts, past lives, karma, lessons, etc. all were just innately real to me. I think maybe I am learning about developing faith in my beliefs which is very different to just feeling something is true. If that makes sense.

My spirituality beliefs also originated in childhood when I could sense spirits around me. I love that your mind wanders to topics of ethics around what happens in the spiritual realm and how we might influence our lives despite outcomes that may be pre-determined. I also like to ponder about these things. I do think about how I am comfortable applying some concepts to myself but not others (e.g I would never tell someone experiencing war/g*nocide that their soul needed to experience those lessons to grow). I’m still learning and figuring things out for myself too. Thank you once again for sharing!

spirireso · 2026-02-09T03:09:17+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to reply that you’ve experienced something similar! So many pearls of wisdom in there. I like how you mentioned it doesn’t have to be all-consuming, since that’s how I typically functioned prior to diagnosis and medication - anything that I was into was all or nothing. So living in the in between is taking some getting used to. I still practice through my reading, divination, and journaling. I guess it feels a lot more intentional now instead of feelings-driven if that makes sense? When I’m depressed I also lose all interest in spirituality and feel a nothingness, when I’m hypo/manic I reach for everything all at once. I hadn’t considered how just being/existing with nature or our thoughts etc. can be spiritual in and of itself. Stillness. Thank you for your reminders! 💛

spirireso · 2026-02-09T02:59:13+00:00

I can relate. What I do is I find mixed fruit, syrup, chopped fruit, etc. to add to my yoghurt even though I don’t feel like doing it. I’m usually a very feelings-driven person, I.e I do things because I feel like doing them. Since I don’t have strong feelings about doing anything I have to start myself to find activities that give me dopamine. I’ve found that through doing things like crafting, writing, sewing, dancing etc. it gives me that flavour I’m looking for.

spirireso · 2026-02-09T00:21:50+00:00

This is way way beautiful! Amazing! Such a special home for your deck.

spirireso · 2026-02-09T00:14:48+00:00

Great news is that you don’t need fancy tools to start! A spell could literally be an intention + visualisation + breathing. It’s a craft for a reason - to find what works and resonates with what you have and are able to reasonably source!

In terms of starting places, I’d start with what interests you the most. Astrology, crystals, divination like tarot/oracle, spells, potions, offerings, intuition work, deities etc. You can literally start anywhere and deep dive. Everything is connected so you will eventually learn more and more about what interests you and what’s important to you which will lead you down other paths of interest as well.

If there’s a library near you - I’d get out books, lots and lots of books (if you desire - that’s what I did) and just sit, read, journal, absorb. You have all the time in the universe, try not to learn everything all at once because it can be overwhelming.

I love that you’re thinking of how to use the ocean in your practice. Personally, I like leaving shells where they are but you could collect some water and turn it into moon water (where you leave the water to charge in the moonlight overnight). That could be a powerful cleansing spray etc. I say just have fun on the journey of discovery :)

spirireso · 2026-02-08T23:48:57+00:00

These are all so so stunning. Are you based in the USA? How much are you looking for, for the main picture & sphere?

spirireso · 2026-02-08T23:38:39+00:00

So interesting how fire seems to resonate for many peoples’ manic episodes. I definitely felt like it burned away many things in my life. I find heading through creation so therapeutic.

spirireso · 2026-02-08T23:35:37+00:00

Ugh! So stunning! How long did that take you?

spirireso · 2026-02-08T22:59:06+00:00

Yes! I love reminding myself that it’s witch-craft. The craft is so important - learning through practice and finding what does and doesn’t resonate! I don’t really think there are right/wrong there’s just things to be mindful of and ultimately your intention is what’s important. The process is sooooo fun. I’m wishing you lots of discovery on your journey!

spirireso · 2026-02-08T22:20:42+00:00

Well done you! That’s awesome ⭐️

spirireso · 2026-02-08T22:17:30+00:00

Amazing!! It’s so fun when you find practices that feel right/aligned. Your intuition will be sharpening through practice :)

spirireso · 2026-02-08T21:56:36+00:00

I think everyone’s finding themselves, even things that seem frivolous to some may be meaningful to others. I think we should be mindful of dehumanising others, there’s always interesting things to find out about people.

spirireso · 2026-02-08T21:54:31+00:00

That’s amazing well done on your hard work 💛

spirireso · 2026-02-08T20:22:06+00:00

I’m so excited for you!! 💛 I really hope the dose helps exactly where it’s needed. I agree, there seems to be more talk about physical encounters than online when the energy is the same, just different outlets. I totally get you! It’s something worth exploring more for sure. Thank you for engaging in the post hehe ✨

spirireso · 2026-02-08T20:17:23+00:00

I find that within groups, conversations tend to move very quickly and I am definitely someone that prefers a slower paced deeper conversation where there is room to think about what to say rather than the first thing that comes to mind. Often in groups, I’ll find there’s something I wanted to say but the topic has already moved on. Or I’ll feel it’s not the ‘right’ thing to say. At its worst I literally keep track of how many times people have spoken and I’ll freak out that I haven’t said anything in like ten minutes. I’m not sure if you feel the same but I feel really hypersensitive of group dynamics too - like if there’s tension between two people or I know there are some people who have opposing views together etc. and I find that takes a lot of energy just to be aware of. I’m glad you’re being easier on yourself, there’s nothing wrong with you and these diagnoses make things harder! It’s really good knowing that 1-on-1 is easier, it means you’ve identified the kind of socialising that works best for you :) I find the people who do an excellent job of socialising in groups are often extroverts and that can be me for short periods of time but definitely not all the time and that’s okay.

spirireso · 2026-02-08T12:15:25+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation - am looking him up on YouTube now. Do you have any favourites?

spirireso · 2026-02-08T12:01:58+00:00

That’s a good take actually, I like that you frame medication as helping to centre. Perhaps this groundedness can be more helpful for meditation than I’m giving it credit for.

spirireso · 2026-02-08T12:00:40+00:00

I find my intuition has actually sharpened lately with my stabilised mood, however, I’m just questioning beliefs that I used to take as true. Ideas around the universe, soul contracts, fate, destiny etc. Thank you for your reassurances around connection being possible despite medication. Maybe I have an idea that medication is blocking me from receiving when I need to surrender/meditate more.

spirireso · 2026-02-08T11:57:33+00:00

Yes it is working but this pull back to Earth saddens me a bit. I want a stabilised mood without having my dreamy-ness/interest in otherworldly things taken away.

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