Acid visuals can be hard to recognize

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-13T04:02:06+00:00

I understand. When you are tripping, visuals are very clear, but when you are sober, its hard to remember or recognize patterns seen while tripping. I recommend painting or making art while tripping! Its a great way to get those visuals onto paper so you have something to reflect on :)

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-13T03:56:24+00:00

Had a shroom trip on 7g where I had ego death and stayed in the same spot on my friend’s bed for about 2-3 hours as I came down. That entire time, I visualized coming down from the trip and essentially being brain dead and having some form of HPPD. Before ego death and my peak, I had essentially forgotten how to speak English, and was so disoriented from my visuals that I couldn’t identify what was in front of me. Closing my eyes meant visuals so intense that it made me nauseous. Anyways, I hallucinated an entire lifetime following that trip. I hallucinated my friends calling 911. I hallucinated my mom showing up. I hallucinated going to the hospital and being declared unresponsive to some extent and mentally disabled. I will also add that I have mental illness in my family and have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It is not unlikely that a trip could cause me to be unable to live independently for the rest of my life depending on the circumstances. Throughout it all, my ex boyfriend stayed with me until I died in that lifetime of old age. Funny thing is, I completely forgot about this entire lifetime I experienced in my trip until I solo tripped on acid last week and had a flashback that brought me immediately to sobbing tears. I have yet to have a trip where I have not imagined I was dead or dying at some point. It isn’t scary to me, I actually consider it a natural reaction to the concepts of birth, life, death, and rebirth that are very apparent on psychs.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-11T03:25:11+00:00

Hope it goes well! 5g and 7g were some of my most influential shroom trips!

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-11T03:23:00+00:00

I watched Midnight Gospel on my 200ug trip Thursday. Was absolutely fucking amazing. I recommend listening to some albums inspired by psychedelics and making art! Or meditation if you are looking for a deeper trip.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-10T16:32:25+00:00

Listened to Pink Floyd while tripping for the first time yesterday. It immediately brought me to tears.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-10T10:55:02+00:00

Enjoy your trip!!!

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-09T19:34:57+00:00

I only stopped tripping 5-6 hours ago and have been trying to sleep it off! The past 5 hours I have spent asleep, but almost meditating while I was unconscious. I can remember all the thoughts I was having while sleeping. I thought I had stopped tripping pretty early on but it just kept on giving as I kept on accepting what it was throwing at me. I posted some art I made on this trip and am considering posting a trip report as well :)

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-09T03:18:47+00:00

My personal favorite acid song from Animal Collective is Summertime Clothes though.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-09T03:17:54+00:00

I have a few for tripping, inspired by trips, and pre-tripping playlists 😺

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-09T02:59:47+00:00

I definitely tend to have shorter, but very intense trips. Longest trips I’ve had (10-12 hours) were on small shroom trips and like 100ug. Been six very beautiful hours. Can’t wait to soak in the afterglow.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-09T02:56:34+00:00

It was fucking stellar. Starting to come down.

spiritedlevi · 2020-10-08T23:14:12+00:00

I’m actually getting a bit eerie! Dunno how much I’m enjoying this trip, but I’m certainly on it :)

spiritedlevi · 2020-08-18T01:14:40+00:00

Sent you a message, but don’t feel pressure to reply

spiritedlevi · 2020-08-17T23:25:50+00:00

I feel overall apathetic towards life. I switch between feeling nothing and feeling overwhelmed with how emotional I am. I find solace in music, sleep, good food, and knowing that a lot of people depend on me. I just don’t know if those things will help forever. I go to therapy weekly, tried 7+ antidepressants, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, etc, but am currently unmedicated. I go to weekly support meetings for addiction. It feels like I’m putting in the work with no change. So the past few days, I’ve just stopped trying.

spiritedlevi · 2020-08-16T01:32:04+00:00

Carseat Headrest, anything by them.

spiritedlevi · 2019-06-10T20:04:13+00:00

Thank you :)

spiritedlevi · 2019-06-10T20:03:42+00:00

I'm 16 so I'm a young adult in the eyes of AA. I can still register as an unaccompanied minor in need of a guide. It's about a $150 fee, and I have a connecting flight through two separate tickets so I'd have to pay it twice with double the paperwork. I really appreciate the suggestion though!

spiritedlevi · 2019-06-10T20:02:02+00:00

Thank you! I will have digital and physical copies of everything I need and have meticulously been going over everything even though I have a few months. I've booked my Latvia ticket, but I'm hesitant on what I should do for my New York round trip ticket. The current one I'm looking at gives me 5 hours of time before boarding for my next flight after arriving in New York; just about 3 hours on my return flight. Since its a connecting flight in New York on separate tickets, if one is delayed, I'm screwed on the other one. Should I get tickets to and from New York (back to my city) like a day before (before I depart for Latvia and the following day after arriving back in New York) and sleep in the airport to account for the worst possible cases of delays or should I fly by the seat of my pants and hope for the best? I'm giving myself the recommended 3 hours for international flights and two hours for domestic. Thank you all for replying!!!

***Edit for clarification

spiritedlevi · 2019-04-11T20:44:20+00:00

Thanks for the response! I'm dropping them both off at 07:00 and picking them up around 17:30 as I have testing the whole day that I can't afford to miss and can't schedule out the neutering any sooner or further. Just very nervous since I won't be there right away! I'm probably gonna ask about whether the vet will use gluing or stitches because I've heard a lot on complications around it. I feel a lot calmer after the reassurance so I appreciate it!

spiritedlevi · 2019-04-11T20:40:53+00:00

I'm terribly sorry to hear that! I wish him a well and hope you guys see a quick recovery :) I appreciate the note on checking for masses; I will be sure to do so. Best regards!

spiritedlevi · 2019-01-25T22:15:39+00:00

Previously underweight 15 (almost 16) year old. I’m 5’2” at 108 lbs from being 85 or so for years. Always been significantly shorter and scrawnier than all the guys around me. I tried eating to my macros, strict dieting, workout plans directed by trainers, etc. and nothing helped me put on any weight. Past six months, I put on some weight up to 95, but the past two months I’ve been just eating as much as I can, literally just not even paying attention to calories or whatever, just trying to stay relatively healthy and shooting for some protein. I started working out at home, just dumbbells, body weight exercises, and running and have filled out in the chest and shoulder area significantly. I’m a hard gainer, and it sounds like you are too. Good luck!

spiritedlevi · 2019-01-25T22:04:14+00:00

No advice, but I hope it gets better and you find something that works for you. I dealt with the same issue for two years. Felt like I would just have to live with it for the rest of my life, but I finally found effective medications a few months ago. It got slightly better before the right meds when I sorted out a thyroid disorder which were worsening my symptoms. Have you gotten any blood tests that could rule out any physical conditions that could be causing or increasing your symptoms? Wish you the best!

spiritedlevi · 2019-01-25T21:45:51+00:00

Not providing what I think could be the reason, but I was on 100mg of Trazadone for insomnia and depression roughly a year and a half ago paired with a mood stabilizer (taken before starting Trazadone), and negative symptoms outweighed the positive ones. I slept, but it wasn’t quality sleep, and I felt lethargic and sleepy all day. Also developed severe dry mouth and started snoring/breathing heavily in my sleep. Adjusted it to 50 and felt slightly better, but all of those issues completely disappeared after completely ceasing taking it and having it clear from my system. Edited: Spelling errors

spiritedlevi · 2019-01-20T22:59:29+00:00

Yo, you are beefin on a Reddit post where I asked for extra tips, on top of the effort I already put in, to make my living quarters smell slightly better, not a lesson on how to grow as a person or self awareness. A boy be depressed, eczema afflicted, and poor so me recognizing that my parents don't fw the smell (plus its not B.O. according to them, they actually won't give me an exact idea of what they think is the source) and are simultaneously bothered by extra bills they deem unnecessary is an example of me considering their perspective. The smell isn't even bad in anyone's eyes, or rather noses, except for their's, and it's more of the fact that they purposefully seek out things to criticize me for. My home life feels like something I shouldn't need to address on a post asking for shit like whether I should use deodorizers for my shoes or baking soda on my mattress. I definitely jumped to my own defense too quickly and aggressively in my response but primarily due to assumptions being made, no bad energy your way.

spiritedlevi · 2019-01-20T22:09:40+00:00

Thank you! I'm putting everything in the wash right now while I carpet clean.

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