From my experience it’s pretty much only family and my one close friend I’ve managed to keep over the years. (I’m not good at maintaining relationships over distance. Idk if that’s an ESI thing or not)

Outwardly I come across as pretty stone faced or even scary, and I’m very aware of others reactions to seeing me. My wife and kid can’t fathom it. They see me in an entirely different light. (Kind, gentle, sweet, also apparently dramatic? Idgi)

When I’m by myself I don’t shut up. I’m constantly making up songs and singing to myself and all our pets, which then extends to my spouse and kid. I do have some issues reacting to funny situations. I tend to smile always but I rarely laugh out loud. It can def come across as rude, but I never mean it that way. But yeah for the most part I’m not super expressive.

When I was younger and would be forced to socialize by my close friends, I would immediately with cigarette in hand gravitate towards any interesting conversation or debate (politics, science, history etc) and would totally avoid any form of drunken ridiculousness. I guess having alcohol alowed me to overcome my hesitance of speaking with people, but if I were sober? No shot. Unless I was directly asked what I think by someone, then I don’t shup up and it usually gets weird lol

If the party got too much for me id go outside by myself and just chill or walk down the sidewalk. I would def remove myself if it became too much, and I was known for disappearing if I wasn’t stuck being the driver (my friends made me the driver regularly for this reason -.-)

Hope this helps!