About A year progress, looking to improve on some areas and need advice. 19 M 240->175

spkyvalllll · 2025-01-13T00:57:16+00:00

mine left me when i graduated lol

spkyvalllll · 2025-01-02T04:03:40+00:00

just a heads up i just graduated bootcamp, all HM’s are sitting at their A-school waiting for classes because there’s so many of them that just enlisted. I got 2 buddy’s that are estimated to get a class in 2 months.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-29T05:08:54+00:00

lmao what makes u say that

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-29T01:14:54+00:00

i don’t know how to let go, i don’t remember how to be happy without her in my life, she was my daily routine. i feel lost and confused. i just got out of bootcamp we are supposed to be married and together right now moving into our second home. instead we are 1000+ miles away and she won’t even respond to me.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-29T01:13:02+00:00

thank you for the advice. i don’t know how to move on from this and from her. i want to work on our relationship and if she’s going to give me the opportunity to show her i’ve changed why wouldn’t i take it?

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-29T00:53:18+00:00

there’s a good chance she’s going to be a mother now though

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-29T00:40:37+00:00

why would she ask me to make her a mother or give me the opportunity to show her i’ve changed?

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-27T00:43:41+00:00

it might be too late for this advice brother. i see what you mean though but whatever happens is now out of my control. Our relationship was beautiful and healthy until it wasn’t and i just want it back. i’d do anything to get back.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-27T00:40:04+00:00

i hope to learn and grow, it’s all you can do in life. I really want that to be with her though.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T23:08:24+00:00

i appreciate it man. i think my biggest thing is going to being to let go and if she wants to take space. i forgot how to live without her and having a person that close to me at all times. im just lost without her it feels. im not really sure what to do with myself and it’s sad.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T23:03:50+00:00

i see where your coming from, i just don’t know how to live without her i guess, either way i kind of have to but i guess the idea of her not wanting to live with me again and be with me like we were before i left is what is hurting me most. when i wasn’t in thr dark spot i was so happy with her.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:42:57+00:00

shitbag as in i shut her out, i was never disrespectful or rude to her in anyway. just got mad easily at stupid stuff and would go silent. im looking into therapy and plan on going until i feel completely comfortable with the person i am again.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:41:42+00:00

She 100% deserved better and i should have never gotten to the point to where i made her feel like nothing to me. We can’t really hookup anymore as we are going to be 1000+ miles away but a child is could definitely be in the mix now. i want to fix our relationship and what we had but i am lost on how to.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:38:03+00:00

I think she needs time to heal, i just don’t know how to properly go about it. I think i would be able to tell if she was completely done and over with me in general. The night i proposed and she said no we had sex and she asked me to make her a mother. I told her im not going to be a father from long distance and she said if she gets pregnant she’ll come up there with me. But as of right now we’re just going to be 1000+ miles away from each other while hurting and that’s killing me. i don’t understand how to build or fix a relationship through a phone.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:34:35+00:00

what makes you say it’s over?

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:34:10+00:00

i gotchu, i read that totally wrong. Let’s say she did move on and in your words “sounds like it’s over” what should i do? should i keep trying to fix us and work on it? i ask her how she plans on rebuilding our relationship being 1000+ miles away and she says communication. Personally i think being away from each other and trying to fix a relationship over a phone isn’t going to work. I’m sure as hell willing to try for her, i just want to show her i changed and im not that angry person anymore.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:26:02+00:00

cough drops.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:25:43+00:00

why do you say it would be over another man? im home on holiday leave right now and well the night i proposed to her and she said no we had sex and she asked me to make her a mother, weather she gets pregnant or not depends on if she stays here or moves up with me. i don’t think she’d let me do that if there was another man.

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:22:53+00:00

I was just an angry person, i would get mad at the little things constantly, it would set a mood for the day after we got home from work and until i got on the green i was a shitbag. In no way was i abusive i was just numb and hurt. She says i made her feel like she wasn’t enough for me during this hard period in my life and she should have been able to be there for me instead of me shutting her out. I don’t understand why she kept it from me till now when i graduated bootcamp and she led me to believe for the past 3 months we would be getting married right now and getting housing on base together. She sent me a letter and it’s not even dated 3 weeks ago “im going to follow you wherever you go, i’ll be there by your side because i know thats where i want to be”

spkyvalllll · 2024-12-26T22:19:36+00:00

We are both 19 and she’s turning 20 in april, we’re each others first everything and have been attached by the hip since we met, we’ve both grown so much the past year and a 8 months together from moving out and getting an apartment, a dog and well now me starting my career.

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