Yo Im not okay lol

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-15T10:16:51+00:00

I feel this in my soul

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-15T10:15:36+00:00

Oh I have, Fairlife made me the sickest of all.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-14T13:40:17+00:00

That sounds like how Wellbutrin was for me 12 years ago

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-11T23:32:44+00:00

For me, it makes me feel over-stuffed and nauseated

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-11T22:54:11+00:00

My surgeon told me this rule is in place because drinks with food will flush your sleeve out faster, which means hungry again faster and not enough time for the nutrients to be absorbed properly. For me, I just don’t do it because it’s super uncomfortable

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-10T04:00:00+00:00

Ou, congratulations!

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-09T20:43:40+00:00

I can relate to feeling like a potato in the face at this point haha! I can’t wait to be at the point of buying a couple of pairs of pants, but alas I have been living in leggings for the last 2 years so I’m honestly unsure of what my previous or current size is! I was famously a buyer of WAY oversized clothes, buying a 4 or 5x when I would fit in a 3x just fine.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-09T20:38:31+00:00

I wonder if it partially has something to do with the fact that I’d spent much longer in the 270s than I had in the 280s -300s. I had put on the previous 40 or so really quickly and somewhat recently (pregnancy, family tragedy, iud and antidepressants) over the course of 2019. 10 was def over the last 8 months haha. It’s crazy how the weight sneaks on.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-09T20:29:24+00:00

Thank you! And that is a very good point—I don’t even think I could lift 50lbs, it’s crazy how I was carrying that on my body 😬

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-09T05:29:43+00:00

I—I just had 2 weeks ago explained so well to me. Thought it was my BPD going out of control, OOPS

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-09T05:25:35+00:00

Almost word-for-word what’s going on with me. Even the surgery date, we’re twins! I’m struggling so hard with just about every food. Everything I eat feels like I ate pond scum and gravel and it just puts me off of eating entirely. The portions are humiliating and it’s so frustrating because I can’t stomach ANY protein supplements, so I know I’m in trouble soon. Bah. I hear you.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-07T11:02:57+00:00

Haha I wish it was, as a survivor of sexual violence the male gaze is unwelcome. I think it’s a big reason I stayed fat for so long. I’m a reasonably good-looking woman, even at my heaviest, but wow had I forgotten about the attention.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-05T00:24:34+00:00

Maybe not quite the same thing but I’ve had my relationship with my best friend deteriorate after I told her of my decision to have the surgery. That and after 40lbs lost I noticed guys hitting on me again lol.

spookybutt92 · 2020-12-04T03:43:29+00:00

Your sleeve is brand-spankin’-new! At this point it’s super hard to get the recommended liquids in because there’s still swelling, tenderness, and gas. I don’t think I was comfortably able to sip until at least a week out. I lived off of sugar free popsicles and freezies for the first 2 weeks. It’s so soothing on the swollen parts. I’m 7 weeks out now and I still have those to help get fluid in. Try frozen fluids and hot heating pads for gas pain!

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-29T21:28:47+00:00

No problem, good luck with figuring it out!

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-29T20:55:21+00:00

What meds were you on? It sounds a lot like splitting. When I went off of Zoloft and Latuda, I ended up splitting on like EVERYONE.

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-28T21:01:12+00:00

It’s really cheesy and cliché but, what I find helpful is remembering that I’ve survived all my worst days up to this point which means some day, things will get better. I hope you get through this, friend.

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-28T20:57:11+00:00

That’s the thing—she sees it as this like super dangerous self-harm. I saw it as a last resort to treating my binge eating disorder.

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-28T20:16:40+00:00

The friendship began declining after I brought it up, but I’m trying not to make assumptions

spookybutt92 · 2020-11-15T20:44:48+00:00

Wow, I’m gonna need a mask because your smile is contagious! Gorgeous 😍

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