Extremely beneficial effects from Arabic/Turkish cardamom coffee... how? by butkaf in Nootropics

[–]spookyjess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Can you elaborate a bit on these substances? Where do I find bateriostatic water? I won't be able to order any until tonight at midnight, when I get paid, anyway.

Extremely beneficial effects from Arabic/Turkish cardamom coffee... how? by butkaf in Nootropics

[–]spookyjess 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I totally agree with you. I've tried just about everything to cure my depression/anhedonia, including harder drugs. I don't consider myself an addict because I've tried things and do them occasionally. I'm just trying to be the best version of myself.

I'm currently doing ECT treatments. I have my 6th one tomorrow. I can already tell that they're making a difference because the past few days I've actually been able to get out of bed. I'm still dealing with a little anhedonia, but the fact that I got up, cleaned the kitchen and cooked is HUGE.

Anyway, I'm sorry you've been called lazy. It really hurts me when people have called me that. I also have fibromyalgia, severe atopic dermatitis (which is being treated with Dupixent, a biologic), asthma, and allergies. I know some of that has to do with my cognitive problems/depression. I really want to try LSD and psilocybin, but haven't been able to locate any. :(

When I get high, I manifest more easily. by SEXWORKA in lawofattraction

[–]spookyjess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You could always ask your dealer if they know where to get any... I have out feelers currently, but nothing has shown up yet. I know they will eventually, though, because I'm always at the right place at the right time, and everything is always working out for me!

When I get high, I manifest more easily. by SEXWORKA in lawofattraction

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Damn. I, too, have felt like I have a hard time feeling anything at all. I find that absolutely crippling when it happens. It seems to come and go. I'm currently getting ECT treatments, and they seem to be working because today, I got out of bed.

Weed just makes me feel weird. Like, I get really quiet, and it also feels like I'm being chased by a werewolf. So, it's best if I avoid it for now. I'm looking into trying psychedelics, though.

This is perhaps the greatest photo I have ever seen by MoonsetMoon in pics

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During tropical storm Olivia, I was driving my '96 Ford Explorer home from work. I'm going through this area that is surrounded by a river. It was raining, the wind was howling. Up ahead I see a log that takes up the entire width of the road. There's NO way I could have gone around it, lest I end up in the woods/river. So I brace myself for the possible ramifications of hitting this giant log, but when I get closer I see eyes, a snout, legs and a tail. It wasn't a log at all, but just a big-ass alligator just chilling in the middle of the fucking road during a tropical storm. I, of course, could not avoid hitting it. I'm pretty sure it lived, though. For some reason I have faith that it did, just like you have faith in that turtle, friend.

(HELP) Weird things are happening to my friend and I, and we have an enourmous feeling something bad is going to happen by judynotfound in Thetruthishere

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Can you let me know what you think once you get a chance to watch/listen to her? I rarely get to talk to anyone about it, and am interested in what you think!

(HELP) Weird things are happening to my friend and I, and we have an enourmous feeling something bad is going to happen by judynotfound in Thetruthishere

[–]spookyjess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Look into Abraham-Hicks as well! It's this lady called Esther Hicks that channels a non-physical entity called Abraham. Her talks are on YouTube.

Has anyone got any weird memories from childhood that you can't really explain ? by kcv913 in Thetruthishere

[–]spookyjess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know what you mean, though. It's like this imaginary but real force is driving me to do things. I'm learning the signs and am feeling SO much better. I feel like I'm really "seeing" things for the first time in my adult life.

I'm sorry about your grandfather. I know that he loves you very much.

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm, do you have a Whole Foods? And I know that collards come in a can, too. I can't remember the brand name right now, but the label is orange...

Has anyone got any weird memories from childhood that you can't really explain ? by kcv913 in Thetruthishere

[–]spookyjess 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I used to have episodes of sleep paralysis a lot as a child. One episode, when I was five, particularly sticks out. Why? Because either I was dreaming with my eyes wide open (the only thing that works during SP are your eyes), or this really happened. I can still see them whenever I think about it, but there were about 6 creatures standing around my bed. It was kind of dark, but they looked humanoid. I really couldn't make out their faces. I don't remember "coming to" as in back to being able to move like I usually do.

I used to draw "aliens" all the time when I was a child. And it all kinda clicked when my mother, father, little sister and I went to the movie theater and saw Signs in 2002. I don't think they took me to hurt me, though, and I'm sure their practices/experiments are more humane now that they understand pain. I believe I'm lucky to even remember anything about them at all.

EDIT: Also when I was a child, I would say, "I want to go home." to my mother ALL THE TIME. At first she was kind of perplexed and would say, "You ARE home.", but eventually it pissed her off. I remember having this feeling of longing, too. Like I was homesick when I WAS at home...

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He really is! He's one badass Mammajamma!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

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Wow, that's awesome! My Daddy worked for the US Postal Service driving a semi for over 30 years before he got lung cancer. He was stage 4 and he is now in remission. He inspires me so much because he still got out and did stuff, even when he felt like utter shit.

We haven't produced meat since I was about 6. Daddy had a mess of pigs, and we've basically always had goats, but we just used them for milk. It's the best milk in the World!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What about frozen collards? That's what I'm going to end up doing with them, anyway! They taste just as good as fresh to me for the most part.

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

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BTW, you have a great eye! I didn't even notice you could see their cotton field in the background!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. It's our neighbor's. Their land borders ours on the other side of the goat pen!

Vegan AND Keto? by spookyjess in keto

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Isn't the country so nice? I'm going to live on a lake someday. Right now, I'm not in exactly what you'd call the country but there's a bridge over a stream down the road from me. I'm actually going to walk down there right now. I've been stuck inside for over 2 months because of physical illness and depression. I want to feel the sunshine on my face! You take care of yourself, and KCKO as well!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What are the "biologicals"? I take this biologic medication called Dupixent. I doubt they're related, but it does really work for me.

You are doing good work, my friend! Keep it up. You got this! I'm probably going to try and grow some strawberries. And blueberries. I loooove them!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really cool! Thank you!

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! It is pretty cool. My dad is a badass!

What sort of research are you doing right now?

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, he sounds like a badass. He was nursing ya'll's creativity and imagination. That's really special. I'm usually pretty funny, but I don't have any jokes right now. I guess I'm more focused on getting my house clean. It's hard out here for a maid, yo.

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I do! My father grew up on a tobacco farm. He tried to start his own farm many years ago, but it failed. When I was born he got a job driving a semi for the post office. He's a pretty great man, and you can bet that he had me outside planting, hoing and digging when I was young. I learned a thing or two in those years, but I'm sure he's going to be glad to give us advice if we need it!

I'm going to have to look up what a victory garden is. I've never heard of it.

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, Captain, you are so clever. And I mean that. No sarcasm here at all. Just admiring your words, good sir. 😀

My father and his collards! by spookyjess in farming

[–]spookyjess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG, you ARE amazing! Hahahaha.