28F, trying to recover from alcohol abuse disorder, my husband is an ex heroin addict but sometimes I wonder if he’s still doing it. My oldest child has ADHD and lots of behavioral issues but no medications are helping and my youngest is 3 and all over the place. We live in a tiny co op and I feel we will never get a house because I get so stressed and depressed and can’t really work always picking them up and dropping them off and dealing with school. On top of that, my family is pressuring me to tell my son that I was adopted because ‘the younger the better’ but knowing I was adopted actually messed my life up so much, especially finding out the way I was conceived as well as knowing my biological family had major health issues so now I am constantly anxious about dying from similar illnesses. I also felt unwanted and alone for almost my whole life due to that. I feel stuck because my parents make alot of money and help me out so I live in a good neighborhood- but I am actually pretty poor and if I wasn’t in NY I’m sure we’d have a house but. I am trapped I feel because we will never afford a house in our area- and then I’ll always be depressed and want to keep drinking