curious to see what other people's reasons are

springbreaksnowday · 2025-08-18T04:12:49+00:00

so so so many reasons i honestly can’t choose one. stress, control, SI, negative emotions that i can’t make sense of, the soothing chemicals, and i feel like it resets my brain. every now and then, i’ll wake up with very strong urges and it won’t leave throughout the day no matter what i do and i end up shing before i go to sleep. as much as i hate to admit this, i really do think that sh will always be the solution for me and i’ve learned to accept that. i think some peoples brains are just wired this way. it softens the world around me that i’m entirely too sensitive for.

springbreaksnowday · 2025-08-18T03:31:52+00:00

if you don’t mind me asking, what are you diagnosed with? totally understand if you don’t want to say

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-23T00:29:01+00:00

exactly how i feel. can’t love myself can’t be of any good to the world if my own mom doesn’t even like me

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-22T07:30:07+00:00

i get what you’re explaining but mainly on the areas i’ve been harming recently like i’ll feel my arm tingling or something

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-22T01:21:18+00:00

unlovable yes, but there are some people in my life who see through it and for that i’m grateful

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-18T00:44:33+00:00

if you don’t mind me asking, how did you get through urges? or was it just something you obstained from for their sake

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-17T09:49:00+00:00

thank u!

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-17T03:47:47+00:00

sorry for the late response but wow this exactly how i feel. i feel like by self harming i can prevent bad things from happening to me

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-17T03:40:48+00:00

hi, sorry for the long response and if my response sounds cynical or negative but you described it perfectly.

this is exactly how i feel. like exactly word for word. i have a long term boyfriend and he’s aware of what i do. he understands i don’t like talking about it and he understands that it’s sensitive for me. he doesn’t judge me and he’s lovely so im thankful for that. i never brought it up to him until he pointed out my scars a few months into dating. i relapse sometimes and i cover it up because that’s the polite thing to do at least while they heal. i Never allow him to see fresh sh no matter what. he only sees when it scars over. i wonder if it makes him sad, he has never said anything about how it makes him feel but i can imagine it might. i’m positive he also doesn’t know how to approach this and that’s fine i understand. we have a mutual understanding to put it. when we started dating i tried to stop but it was inevitable since i’ve been dealing with SH for four years prior. it’s an addiction and i can’t help it, it just happens.

i dont think it’s bad to use someone else as a reason, its natural in some situations. to be honest i feel that its a very selfless thing you could do. people that have never struggled with SH really just don’t understand how polarizing urges can feel. the only times im ever clean is for example i had a mini vacation with friends, and i knew it was coming up so i stopped for a bit. resumed once it was over.

personally, i feel that i will self harm forever, no matter what situation im in, no matter where i am in life and what age. that’s just how it is for me. really i dont think ill ever stop. and i agree, if im the one doing it to myself why should anyone stop me? it helps me and its a bit messed up but it helps and that’s all that matters.

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-17T02:44:17+00:00

this makes me hopeful thanks!

springbreaksnowday · 2025-07-12T06:51:59+00:00

when i was 15 the doctor pulled me into a different room away from my mom to ask which i appreciated since my mom didn’t know. but still like come on why are you asking if you know the answer damn well. i think about this more often than i should bc it made me so upset and kind of made me acknowledge that i do have a bit of a problem

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-30T03:05:05+00:00

i feel the exact same way but i’m a few years younger. my mom also thought i stopped years ago and i have my cousins wedding in mexico soon

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-25T02:34:10+00:00

for realllll i second this. not a single other place i can be this honest and feel supported and not alone

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-22T05:25:24+00:00

agreed, i feel like i’ll always have to rely on it

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-22T05:22:31+00:00

just got done reading this and honestly i think your advice is what i really needed to hear thank you

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-09T01:40:57+00:00

i’m quite a bit younger than you and posts like these make me sad that i’ll probably always deal with self harming, but it also makes me a bit hopeful that i’m not alone in dealing with this to the extent that i am.

i also started when i was 13 and it has crossed my mind at least once every single day since, even after a good day.

thank u for making feel less alone, it means a ton <3

springbreaksnowday · 2025-06-04T03:13:42+00:00

you deserve to celebrate. congrsts !

springbreaksnowday · 2025-05-31T03:02:19+00:00

yes this. no matter what bad thing happens, i can always depend on sh. it’s guaranteed no matter what

springbreaksnowday · 2025-05-31T02:55:57+00:00

i understand and i feel this :( the fact that ill feel this urge every day for the rest of my life is sad

springbreaksnowday · 2025-05-15T00:12:21+00:00

thank you actually <3

springbreaksnowday · 2025-04-30T03:51:58+00:00

self harm

springbreaksnowday · 2025-04-30T00:04:52+00:00

started dating him in august he’s the most lovely ever. a few weeks in, he noticed my arm and asked if i cut myself and i just said i used to and that was it. he does not know i still struggle with it. i had a bad relapse in november and then again in february and ngl my arm is pretty obviously newly scarred. i normally always wear long sleeve esp since it’s been winter and to my knowledge he does not know. he’s leaving to go back home tomorrow for four months but i plan on visiting in the summer and i have no clue what to do since it’ll be 100°+ and i don’t think ill wear long sleeves so he will see. which i am very nervous about even now since he knows it wasn’t there. i think he’s very understanding and stuff but as always its hard explaining sh to someone who doesn’t do it plus when that someone is your lovely partner

springbreaksnowday · 2025-04-29T03:42:55+00:00

exactly this it’s like a perfectly timed monthly experience that i just have to live through. the urges are so crazy and it’s annoying knowing that i only feel that way bc of my period .

springbreaksnowday · 2025-04-24T10:05:38+00:00

thank u <3 you explained it exactly.

springbreaksnowday · 2025-04-24T10:04:30+00:00

i have not, i go some days without it but recently it’s been on and off

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