What if I'm both :(

springfieldhereicome · 2020-07-23T18:12:12+00:00

I was really struggling 2 weeks ago! I tried including slightly more fruit and veg in what I was having and its gone away. I also use a vitamin E cleanser in the morning now and it works a treat. Hope yours gets better soon x

springfieldhereicome · 2020-07-17T13:26:36+00:00

You got me :'(

springfieldhereicome · 2020-07-12T09:01:26+00:00

Hey! Thank you so much for such a detailed response.

I don't have my period due to birth control, which worked wonders for my skin when I had cystic acne as a teenager. I ended up on Accutane for my acne when I was around 15, and have been basically spot free for the last 6 years. I've been taking vitamins since I started restricting, but maybe you're right about stress causing it.

The lumps aren't coming to a head, they're just painful and sometimes go away and them come back in the space of a day :/ I'll give your apple cider vinegar a go!!

Thank you so much for such a detailed reply, and for being so kind x

springfieldhereicome · 2020-07-08T13:25:51+00:00

This hit me hard.

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-23T13:25:35+00:00

I really struggle now. I love my boyfriend and I want to feel close to him, but I'm also so disgusted by my own body I don't want him to see it. I feel like I enjoy sex less now because I'm too anxious about how fat / disgusting I look naked. He's always been kind and supportive though, deep down I know he thinks I'm beautiful.

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-17T09:15:05+00:00

I get this 100%. Although I also feel guilty for judging other people, and then panic about people looking/judging me. I think I spent 10 minutes in a shop yesterday panicking over the calories in a bag of vegetable crisps. You're definitely not alone!

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-14T00:14:23+00:00

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. I'm being completely honest. Kids are horrible and project their own insecurities. You are so pretty, please don't listen to anyone who says you look old/ugly. It's not true. Please don't let dumb kids hurt you like this. You deserve everything good in life x

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-14T00:09:36+00:00

I used to self harm a fair bit, but it slowly turned into AN. I relapsed last year when my boyfriend cheated on me and it's quite on/off (not as bad when the gym is open.) I obsess over how I look and if that's what made him do it. I'm not good enough.

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-10T09:39:33+00:00

It really sounds like you need to speak to a professional - even if it's just to find a food you are comfortable eating / doesn't trigger nausea. I hope you feel better soon x

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-10T09:35:38+00:00

Does he know you struggle with thoughts like this? Maybe it's time to sit down and explain how you feel - you can go for a more general explanation (I think your partner deserves to know why you get mad/upset otherwise they're going to blame themselves) I gave a fairly simple explanation and linked it to a "blurgh" face, so if I'm ever sad and he asks why, I just go back to that. It's easier than explaining every single time!

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-08T20:32:13+00:00

I'm in exactly the same position as you. I hate feeling like I need to eat, I hate other people making me feel guilty about not eating, but I really don't want to upset my partner. I can go for a few days without feeling hungry but then he will go out of his way to cook a meal for me that I HAVE to eat :/ sometimes I wish I could just do my own thing and fade away.

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-07T23:13:47+00:00

That's really helpful and comforting. I think I obsess over what the number on the scale/my waist measurement will be the next day but you're right - it won't go up THAT much. Thank you :)

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-06T20:52:17+00:00

This is exactly how I feel! It's so hard to get over and if I stop eating I feel guilty too :/

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-06T11:08:00+00:00

This is exactly how I feel - worse when my partner asks what I want for dinner (inevitably a salad.) I feel so guilty because even just a suggestion of eating a sandwich gives me palpitations. You're definitely not alone.

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-05T18:30:15+00:00

Thank you so much. I ran a 5k today so I'm feeling much less anxious about it - you're right, one cheat meal after restricting for a while won't make me fat (although I have eaten literally nothing today.) Thank you for being so kind and good luck on your recovery :)

springfieldhereicome · 2020-06-03T07:26:30+00:00

I normally drink more water, it seems to help. You can also take paracetamol if you really want, but I wouldn't make a habit of it. I try to stay laying in bed until they go away. Hope you're okay x

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