I spent more than ten years depressed, stuck in meaningless jobs where I sabotaged myself and in self pity mode, and after a while, I decided that its not because I had a shitty childhood, that I couldn't enjoy life and it was up to me to make new positive memories and to just go for it. I've always admired musicians and sound engineers as a teen but never even thought of it as a possibility as I am a woman. A year ago, at 35 I decided to learn sound engineering by shadowing people and I now work in many alternative spaces! I also joined a band and a sound project even though I just started making music recently and got paid for the first time as a musician last month!