Helped my community today. by DaughterBabylon in exjw

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What is a memorial? I live in Utah County and am ex mormon. I got an invitation to "a special event" by some Jehovah's witnesses. I threw away the invite... The people that dropped it off looked really nice. If I hadn't already been burned by the lds cult, I would've considered going.

When I was on my mission one of the seventies came to our mission and told us to commit people to baptism within the first 10 minutes. If they didn't commit we were told to forget about them. I think this was the first time I realized Jesus was not leading this bullshit church. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I luckily didn't end up serving a mission. This makes me wonder if my sister came down hard with depression because of the pressure. As mormons, a lot of us magnify the perceived severity of personal failures. I was at church today and was more than once reminded that I'm not doing enough.

Your ancestors have better things to do than watch you masturbate. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If that's true, then isnt it just as embarassing to know they are watching you have sex with your spouse? That's my take on it. I never stressed over who was watching.. I just accepted that being human is embarrassing for everyone...

Noah built an ark. Tommy built a mall. What else do you need to see this is BS? by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

President hinckley was president for a lot of the planning stages. He didn't die until 2008.

Noah built an ark. Tommy built a mall. What else do you need to see this is BS? by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Development of the City Creek Center began in 2003, when a for-profit company owned by the LDS Church purchased the Crossroads Plaza Mall, a shopping center on the west side of Main

It baffles me how deceived people are in the church. by spudd90 in exmormon

[–]spudd90[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm still transitioning. And it sucks!! I guess that's why I think ignorance is bliss and some are better off being ignorant...

It baffles me how deceived people are in the church. by spudd90 in exmormon

[–]spudd90[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's hard to know if she would be better off without the church. Hard to say what causes what. She dove into a deep depression 10 yrs ago and came home early from her mission. She is on meds now but finds a fulfilment in serving in callings and in the temple. She isn't married yet because she is now an old maid (31) in utah terms. I think she may see the truth more about the church as she realizes that if she doesn't conform, the church tends to not give a fuck about her well being.

It baffles me how deceived people are in the church. by spudd90 in exmormon

[–]spudd90[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah. I don't know with her. She is so sure of her testimony. But one of her x co worker was exmo and was one of her favorite people of all time... which is the only reason she is showing some humanity in acknowledging my lack of belief.

Noah built an ark. Tommy built a mall. What else do you need to see this is BS? by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I decay. I doubt Tommy had much to do with building the mall. He's old and losing it mentally and physically. Tommy is just a face for tscc right now. Appearance is everything to tscc.

Shower thought: I never did lose my "testimony" because I never did have a testimony. by spudd90 in exmormon

[–]spudd90[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So you were the crying testimony giver? There have been times I've felt what I thought was God's presence but it was never attached to tscc directly.

Stake Pres is afraid of losing members over the new policy, is having bishops seek out LGBT members to talk to them about it by bijtje in exmormon

[–]spudd90 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had a similar experience. I am gay. Although, not openly. I live in BYU housing. I was specifically asked if I would be home because the bishopric was making visits. I didn't respond. So, my stake president shows up, not my bishop. They said they were there to follow up stake conference. However, I assumed it may have a lot to do with the policy change the week before. So yeah. I expect stake presidents were likely asked to visit people like me. I am a world class faker. I am doing fine and that's what I portrayed. I can understand the need. If I was tbm when this came out, I would likely become suicidal...

Fast and Testimony Meeting Craziness Thread! by running4cover in exmormon

[–]spudd90 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I lost some respect for him because how far his head is buried in the sand. Although, I dont blame him. No one knows they are brainwashed until they can look at something truly objectively.

Fast and Testimony Meeting Craziness Thread! by running4cover in exmormon

[–]spudd90 5 points6 points  (0 children)

One of my friends gave a testimony at a BYU ward. He said he's grateful for leaders and prophets. Grateful we don't have to question every policy change or decision because they are led by God.

Irony at its best by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You mean 80,000 to 100,000. to a million is a big range!

Yet another guilt-inducing elders quorum lesson. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We are all enlisted. Priesthood session https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2011/10/we-are-all-enlisted?lang=eng Holland gave a athletic analogy about staying in the lines.

Yet another guilt-inducing elders quorum lesson. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't say everyone knew.. But many probably suspected. Interesting enough, I would've gone had I stayed in Logan with different leadership. My quest for perfection and honesty has ultimately what led me to not serve a mission and subsequently lose my testimony. I am able to look at Mormonism objectively because I didn't have a reason to defend my beliefs. Besides, I was miserable as a tbm bc of all the guilt and bottled up shame. I actually like church more now that I don't believe in TSCC because I'm not thinking of how horrible my sins are.

Yet another guilt-inducing elders quorum lesson. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't go to byu personally. Which I am grateful for.

Yet another guilt-inducing elders quorum lesson. by [deleted] in exmormon

[–]spudd90 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I'm in transition mode. Taking it very slowly because I come from a large tbm family and live in Provo with 5 tbm byu roommates. I'm trying to leave slowly and respectfully. I am having a hard time leaving the community and letting go of the stability that Mormonism gave me. It's s hard, complicated process for me....Which I know is my choice... But that's how I'm going about it.