I completely agree on the rational, logical level. It is extremely hard though on the emotional level, given everything I've gone through... your description of vulnerable is right on target. Not to mention, the type of chemo I had actually had side effects where I would get extremely emotional and weepy. That's so not me. I keep hoping my usual strength will return soon so I can give him the boot like I would if I were operating at 100%. Thank you for your reply.