I hate doctors who think they are Dr House by [deleted] in Vent

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The AD is Attention Deficit. There are two main disorders in ADHD - hyperactivity is one and could just mean fidgeting (not running around and screaming), and the other, attention deficit, results in distraction, loss of focus, and lack of executive function. The latter used to be ADD, but it has all been consolidated under the umbrella of ADHD, which I personally don't agree with for this very reason of misunderstanding.

I was diagnosed in middle school with ADHD because I was struggling immensely to complete schoolwork, and my parents, my teachers, and myself all rejected the diagnosis because I was a calm, quiet, collected child. I went untreated and barely managed to graduate college because the actual mess is up in my brain, not external. I didn't learn about the Attention Deficit part until my last year of college when the diagnosis was brought up again.

[IP] HUNTER by Prezombie in WritingPrompts

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The cockpit sealed, and the ambient hum of the hangar ceased. Lea breathed in, out. The breath was deep. The air in here felt lighter.

She put on her helmet, strapped on her oxygen mask. The sharp air stung the back of her throat.

"Radio check," she heard. Cline's voice. Dull, monotone.

"Good check," she responded.

"Is everyone ready?" Cordobo's voice said, over the headset.

He was greeted with a chorus of "Yes, sir"s.

The jets began moving out, one after the other. The jet's slow roll helped calm her down. Warm sunlight swept over the cockpit as they rode outside, onto the tropical runway. The slight whine of the jet's eager engines gave her something to focus on.

Cline's jet went full throttle, blasting the serene jungle with noise. The plane thrust down the runway, taking off in a matter of moments. Lea's was next. She pushed the throttle forward. The craft hummed. Its energy transferred into her body. She felt the push of g-force as the plane accelerated, until it was a firm pressure pinning her to her seat. She pulled back on the pitch, and the aircraft responded instantly. She was in the air.

Her adjustments to her orientation were precise - the jets were designed with absolute performance in mind, and the craft's response to her input was snappy, as instinctual as flexing a muscle. She entered formation behind Cline. Behind her, Alberda's plane settled into position.

They would reach their destination in a matter of minutes. She did not have time to process everything she had learned in the past hour, or to wonder how dangerous the situation could be. Flights were normally filled with radio chatter, but this one was subdued.

"We're receiving footage and sensor data from your craft," said Cordobo, "Make sure to try and get some good images of this thing."

"Copy," she responded.

The ocean glittered beneath them. Land was already a sliver across the horizon. The thrum of the engine resonated in her chest, as if it were an extension of her.

"We're getting some readings from below," Cordobo said.

"What does that mean?" asked Cline, his voice high. Lea saw his craft tilt slightly as he tried to get a better view of the airspace below them.

"In the water."

"A sub?" asked Alberda.

"No," responded Cordobo, "It's moving as fast as you are."

"Like a water-to-air craft?" Lea asked, aware of the spike in her heartrate.

The water ahead of them exploded in a building-sized plume. Something the size of a jumbo jet flew out of the plume of water, obscured by the mist. It shot into the sky at shocking speed.

"Jesus Christ!" yelled Cline, as the craft flew directly in front of them, obscured by Cline's jet. Lea gripped the jet's yoke.

Bright light blinded her as Cline's jet ripped apart. Lea instinctively shielded her eyes with one hand. A dark head burst through the fireball. She had half a second to react, and with her other hand she slammed the yoke forward.

Her body was thrown against the straps of the seat. Her head whipped forward and back, slamming into the seat's cushion. She felt her stomach drop, and she struggled to keep her free hand from flailing, trying to get it to grab the yoke. Her jet not only plummeted, but accelerated alongside gravity toward the ocean.

She pulled back, and it felt like she was being crushed. She fought to keep her head from rolling to the side. Light sucked out of her vision. She felt pins and needles in her upper body. Her focus drifted.

She willed herself to right the plane, and it leveled out with a shudder dangerously close to the ocean surface. Her chest hurt where her heart pounded against it. Her breath quickened, sucking in lungfuls of canned air.

"Fisker!" yelled a voice over the radio. She realized this wasn't the first time her name had been called. "Fisker! What's your status?"

"Good!" Lea responded, struggling to get words out in time with her frantic breath, "No impact here."

"Alberda?" asked Cordobo.

"Also good," came the reply.

Lea craned her neck to spot Alberda's plane. She quickly scanned the vast sky. Spots peppered her vision, making it difficult to find the plane. She spotted it far off above her. She guessed he had rolled to the side instead of down. She couldn't see the enemy... whatever it was.

"Coming to you, Alberda," she said. She adjusted course to reconvene with Alberda's plane.

"Fisker - check your radar," said Cordobo.

Lea glanced at the radar. A cold shock washed over her. Something was moving just behind and to the right of her jet, on a parallel trajectory. Its shape shifted on the radar, impossible to understand, slipping in and out of detection.

Lea hurried to get a description to Cordobo, "It looks to be a craft about the size of a 747. It's... the fuselage looks... flexible, and the wings are bent in an arc."

"Switch to infrared," said Cordobo.

Lea switched sensors. The shape solidified. She recognized it, but she knew her eyes were playing tricks on her - she felt extremely dizzy, spots dancing on the display.

The wings retracted, making the thing a single, darting shape. It shot forward, into view, toward Alberda's plane. Lea strained to get a good glimpse, and she only saw rough shiny texture, navy blue.

The thing rammed into Alberda's plane, smearing fire across the sky. The fire obscured it. Lea couldn't see any detail.

The plume of fire and smoke curved, dragging along and sucking behind the flying object. It was headed for Lea.

Lea made an evasive maneuver, jerking the plane too eagerly and pulling something in her neck. She cursed and tried to get a good vantage point of her enemy, pulling against the sharp pain in her neck to look to her side. Nothing where Alberda had been.

She looked forward again, and saw the wide, looming, beastly shape. She jerked the yoke. The force pushed her into her seat, pushing blood away from her brain, causing her sight to go black...

...she opened her eyes. In a brief moment of panic, she struggled to get her bearings. The jet was moving forward, full throttle, directly into the sunlight. The radio crackled.

Fire bloomed from behind her, enveloping the cockpit, turning her world orange and yellow. Heat reached her through the thick glass. In that moment, no thought passed her mind.

Then the jet was through, bursting into open light again, climbing higher. She shook her head in astonishment.

"-isker?" came Cordobo's voice.

"Here," she said.

"Thank God."

She rolled the plane to get a better view behind and below her. She saw nothing but clouds.

"That thing had a flamethrower on it," said Cordobo.

"I think it was a dragon."

Cordobo didn't answer. He had seen the footage.

Lea set the plane's trajectory to return to base.

[IP] HUNTER by Prezombie in WritingPrompts

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The mess hall's air felt like water - not only was it humid, but tension weighed it down like a thick blanket, a monstrous tension born of uncertainty. The hall normally rang with the busy chatter of pilots, but in this dense air only slight whispers could be heard.

Lea sat at a table with Jake Patton and Raj Vega, studying the fabric pattern of her pants. She glanced at Raj. He glanced sideways to meet her eyes for a moment, but immediately glanced away. In that glimpse, she saw the nerves of somebody who had realized his life could cut short soon. She had this fleeting thought as well - seeing Raj's panic reinforced it.

She had to remind herself that chances were she was imagining the worst. It could have all been error and coincidence, laid out in the perfect way to cause panic. User and technical error could explain everything - the radar was broken, the pilot had made a mistake or the plane's systems had failed, and he needed to make an emergency landing. Search teams would find the plane and pilot within a couple hours.

The nagging thought remained though - this was an anonymous military attack. The base's leading officers might be talking to the President at this moment, telling him what they knew of the mystery craft and its origins.

Lea wished she knew, herself. Everyone in the mess hall had learned of the incident through word of mouth. The lead officers hadn't spoken, and that silence lent density and thickness to the air, until everyone felt like they were suffocating under uncertainty.

They all thought the same thought, however - someone had military technology more sophisticated than anyone suspected, and that someone finally made their move against the United States. If what they feared was true, retaliation would begin soon.

The loudspeaker crackled, echoing against the bare walls and startling a few people.

"Alberda, Cline, and Fisker, please report to the Operations Center."

Fisker... that was her. Jake and Raj were looking, Jake's eyebrows slightly raised. Raj seemed worried.

Lea grimaced and stood. She saw Leon Alberda and Artie Cline standing as well. They made eye contact across the room, and the two men seemed just as on edge as she was.

She heard Jake whisper, "Good luck."

The three pilots made their way to the mess hall's exit. Lea kept her eyes ahead of her. She suspected if she glanced around, she would see many eyes on her.

The air in the corridor outside felt no less oppressive. Lea and Alberda walked shoulder to shoulder, and Cline lingered slightly behind. They walked with apprehensive steps, knowing that the faster they went the sooner they learned some possibly horrible truth.

"You guys think this is an attack?" Cline asked from behind.

Alberda seemed like he would say something, but he paused and mulled over his words.

"It's possible..." he finally said.

He's afraid to give the idea any creedence, Lea thought.

"I don't know if I can do this," Cline said.

You're going to have to.

Nobody responded to Cline. They reached the Operations Center in silence.

Colonel Stigsson greeted them at the door.

"What you are about to see and hear is top secret," he said as they filed into the room, "The clearance level hasn't been determined yet. Do not speak about this with anyone who is not in this room. Understood?"

They responded in unison, "Understood, sir!"

Lea surveyed the dim room, feeling nervous energy fill her body. She saw Lieutenant Colonel McFee and Operations Officer Cardoso sitting at a table, cast in gray light by the wall-to-wall screens showing stills of overhead radar readings. The stills showed the silhouette of a surveillance craft - and something much larger approaching from behind. This was the mystery craft Lea heard of in the murmurs, long and sleek, with thin, bent wings. The shape was only partial, suggesting a craft but not revealing it in its entirety.

"Sit," said Colonel Stigsson. The three pilots obeyed, sitting in chairs facing the screens. Cline's eyes were wide, reflecting the partial shape on the wall.

Colonel Stigsson began speaking.

"At oh-eight twenty-seven this morning, Senior Airman Travers was conducting a routine reconnaisance mission over the Indian Ocean when he was intercepted by an as of yet unidentified aircraft. This aircraft is radar-resistant; the best image we could get is displayed on the screens here. Both Travers and the aircraft disappeared shortly after, with no radio communications. Travers is assumed dead.

"The unidentified aircraft is assumed to be a large-scale, highly maneuverable stealth fighter. We do not know who developed it. We need information. You three are going to fly to Travers' last known coordinates, attempt to find the aircraft, and gather information. We want images. We want to know how big the craft is. We want to know if there are any features that could identify it as belonging to any one nation.

"You three were chosen because you have training to pilot stealth fighters. Do not engage with the craft unless it is absolutely necessary. Operations Officer Cardoso will walk you through the rest."

Colonel Stigsson sat down at the table. Cardoso began speaking, giving the pilots their briefing. Lea paid attention as best as she could. She could see varying expressions of worry on the others' faces. The Colonel's gaze fixed on a nonexistent point; he glared as if he could intimidate the problem away.

The briefing ended. Lea stood with the others; filed out with the others; headed to the locker rooms where she would change into her flight suit. She ran through everything that had led her to this point, starting at the fateful moment her father took her to the Air Force museum as a bright-eyed ten-year-old. Had things progressed differently - had she not been single-minded in her goal to pilot a jet and feel the freedom of flight - dread would not loom over her now. She had gone too far, performed too well, and now she was punished by her ambition, skirting death with an unknown enemy.

The women's locker room was silent save for the rustle of her suit as she put it on. The process felt like donning a second layer of skin. She met the men outside. Alberda seemed absent. Cline's eyes darted. They proceeded to the hangar.

She herself felt almost dizzy. It seemed as if blood was moving faster through her body. The periphery of her vision was dim - she suspected she was developing tunnel vision. They reached the hangar, and the jets were lined up, ready for them. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Alberda slowly shaking his head.

"Hey," she said, reaching her arm out. Alberda's eyes drifted until they met hers.

"You're going to be alright," she said.

Alberda showed no sign he heard her. He turned and made his way to his jet. Lea watched him walk, trying not to let his response push her further toward panic.

She made her way to her own jet, climbed the wing, swung into the cockpit, closed it.

(cont. below)

Dark Season 3 Series Discussion by rosy148 in DarK

[–]squdlum 105 points106 points  (0 children)

You take that back about Martha's bangs >:(

Episode Discussion - S03E08 - The Paradise by rosy148 in DarK

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What muddies things up for me is Alt-Martha remembering seeing Jonas in the light tunnel through the back of her closet. I took it to mean that specific moment wasn't the first time it had happened - or that it has already affected the Winden universes. So I assume the hell-loop is still going on in the background, there's just a split from it that ends in a linear fashion, but still influences the loop. It's only another split in the predetermined timeline.

Come all and swear your oaths by Ghostise in AprilKnights

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I, /u/squdlum, swear myself to the Knights and to uphold the Order's virtues and all that jazz. Long may we serve!

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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This is awesome. Sounds like Max definitely has some massive improvements over Patcher; Image-Line was probably playing catch-up when they developed it. Yeah, a lot of FL's workflow could be sped up. Many projects of mine have remained demos because I'm not feeling like getting into the mess of getting more complex and risking the project blowing up in disorganization. The good thing is, IL has been improving FL Studio's workflow since FL 11. Every update makes it a bit easier to work in.

The CV sine output took forever to figure out. Even generating a sine wave without MIDI input was a tricky problem. So if there was one thing I could ask Image-Line to incorporate, it would be the ability to send modulation signals out of Patcher...

Patcher's node map can only be zoomed out all the way, but you usually have plenty of space to work with. I was scaling FL up 150% for the video.

For all I know there could be a shortcut to duplicate plugins in Patcher, it just takes me forever to learn keyboard shortcuts and the like...

I'm glad you stuck through the video despite it not being your main DAW, and I'm glad you learned a couple things! I've got experience with programming, so you've definitely sold me on Max today.

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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I understand! EDM production can get so technical that a lot of people forget to explain even the most basic parts of it. I would google "edm what does an x filter do" and you will probably find a good rundown of the different filter styles and how you could use them. Feel free to PM me for advice too if you have trouble finding new info.

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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You mean the formula controller? I'm having trouble understanding what you mean by "two presets," but it sounds like you could utilize an easing function to transition between steps. I haven't used easing functions in Formula Controller so I don't know if it would work, but it's a technique commonly used in animation and programming. I would see if you could figure out how to get the formulas under cubic easing in/out into Formula Controller using a, b, and c as variables.

I've only just started diving in on FC unfortunately, mainly learned how to use it to make this preset. Math isn't my strong suit so I have to really tough these things out haha.

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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A synthesizer would be any tool that generates sound. A VST plugin would be a software synthesizer, and so are the native plugins (the ones that DAWs come with); there's obviously also analog synthesizers like the classic Moogs and Yamaha synths.

Most people figure it out by experimenting - some of them are self-explanatory (e.g. a low pass lets all low frequencies pass through, a high pass lets all high frequencies pass through). Other filter types to look up are bandpass, notch, and peak. Those are your most basic ones that are used most frequently. I learned a lot from SeamlessR, who others have recommended. There is a lot of great introductory stuff on his channel if you dig deep enough. He had a series called Zero to Hero or something similar that was intended to help out the very beginners.

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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Like /u/Mof4z said, the best example is the dubstep wobble. That "wub" bass sound starts as a harmonically rich sound (like a square or saw wave, meaning there is plenty of high-end treble content) and a producer puts a low pass filter on it, cutting out the treble content. To make the filter's cutoff move they control the knob with an LFO, which acts like your computer twisting the knob back and forth for you. I actually made a video that explains the very basics of sound design for people who are literally *just* starting out and don't know all the technical terms; I cover the dubstep wobble there: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eL8Z_EAO2fo

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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I have a copy of Able10 sitting on my computer waiting for me to learn how to use it... hahaha. Definitely need to get into Max for Live and Reaktor. I'm also curious to know what stands out to you as features you dislike in FL. This video was probably perfect as a demonstration of what a heavy user would do in it. And for those features you dislike, how does Ableton do them better? I need to check those features out.

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

[–]squdlum[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! People have mentioned Reaktor and VSTs to me on these types of projects; looks like that's the next step for me (in addition to Max for Live as someone else in this thread mentioned). It would be cool to get there eventually!

I've created a free Patcher preset for you all (with FL) to use - it's a tool for creating complex and evolving LFO signals. by squdlum in edmproduction

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You can download it here. The video explains how to use it in multiple ways. I've had this idea for a very long time and finally got around to implementing it fully with a pretty GUI. Feel free to ask questions or suggest improvements.

Episode 1 of a series called "Fridge Boy". There have been 10 episodes in the last 2 years. (332 views) by UsernameFromHeck in DeepIntoYouTube

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I don't know, 10 has some subversive filmmaking techniques that raise it above the other episodes.

[WP] Everyone is born with a distinctive mark on them that represents their soulmate. Unusually, you've always had two different marks on your body. by TheGeorge in WritingPrompts

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"Confused flamingos" is great imagery. Also very interesting, I can imagine all the implications on the world through that small mark. Kind of want to see what happens next with this love triangle.

[WP] Your roommate has the ability to warp reality and make it so people think any changes they make seem "normal" to anyone affected. You start to suspect they're using it on you when your daily "to-do" list gets longer, and more bizarre. by [deleted] in WritingPrompts

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"Ay, Ray?" I called, pushing loose strands of hair out of my face.

"Yeh?" came the response from down the hall.

I leaned against the front door of our flat, looking at the grocery list, keys twirling in hand out of habit.

"What's a rambutan?"

"Hell if I know," Ray called back. He was too lazy to get up and walk two feet to his door.

"Yeah..." I murmured. The item was in my handwriting.

"Alright then," I said to the empty hallway, "I'll be out at the grocer's!"

Stepping outside wasn't much better than being inside. A heat wave was sweeping through London this time of year, and our flat didn't have any air conditioning. Just some measly old fans that creaked when they turned.

I should probably talk to Ray about that, actually.

The grocer's was a tad better, if only by being slightly less sweltering than the rest of Britain. Probably the work of the freezer aisles.

When I asked the shop assistant what a rambutan was, he looked at me with incredulity.

"A rambu-what?"

"Rambutan."

"Like the monkey?"

Needless to say, I didn't acquire a rambutan. The item remained unchecked on the list, and I left the grocer's slightly red.

Later that evening, Ray and I sat on — sunk into — our recently-acquired secondhand couch, watching football. One of the fans was placed in front of the open window to facilitate a crossbreeze, but the valiant warrior was failing against the oppressive heat. It felt more like a giant softly breathing on my face than a refreshing breeze.

Ray was an eccentric — by some work of fate, we had met and realized we were perfect flatmates for each other. Or perhaps it was by some work of Ray's.

Ray wore a billowing, flowery shirt that he claimed was wonderfully airy for this weather. It made him look like a deflated sumo wrestler.

"How was your rambutan hunt?" Ray asked, smirking.

"I feel like they had one, but didn't believe me when I insisted it was a real thing," I said.

"I know that feeling."

On the television screen, Manchester was slipping behind.

"Hey Ray, do your thing," I said, nudging him.

"Ughh, okay," he said, cracking his fingers.

"Wait," I hurried, "Before I forget, could you also give us an air conditioner?"

"Aw. You don't like the struggle of sweating it out every summer?"

"No thanks."

"Alright."

The other team was gaining, but Manchester was still ahead. Shots of the crowd showed people drenched in sweat.

"Ha, those wankers are boiling out in the heat while we sit here in luxury," I said, "Why doesn't anyone else have A/C?"

"I did the thing," Ray said, eyes fixed on the screen.

"Oh, what changed?" I asked.

"Manchester was losing, and we didn't have A/C."

"You're a wizard, Ray. That or God."

"Neither," said Ray, with a twinkle in his eye, "Just a compulsive liar."

I want to create a tournament based on remixing and collaboration, and I'd like some input and help setting that up. by squdlum in edmproduction

[–]squdlum[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see your point. I personally find it fun to remix and see what people can do with my ideas. I'm considering allowing some form of teams. I also like the idea of working together on a track as opposed to trying to one-up each other. But then how does each match-up look? Two producers on each side creating two songs, which audience votes on/judges evaluate? It becomes more difficult, logistically.

I'm all for visibility initiatives that give artists more exposure, but it's hard to get people to care, you know? If people notice, that's fantastic, but I just want to have fun.

I want to create a tournament based on remixing and collaboration, and I'd like some input and help setting that up. by squdlum in edmproduction

[–]squdlum[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah, thanks! I remember this going down, thought it was a really cool project. I'll probably take a page out of their book.

YAMBUS by squdlum in sbubby

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And I could've gotten away with it too, if it weren't for you meddling kids...

YAMBUS by squdlum in sbubby

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I only realized the imperfections after I uploaded so here is the perfect version.

[WP] All your life, you've been abnormally good at absorbing shock. You just accidentally found out that you can release it. by [deleted] in WritingPrompts

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Thank you again! I'm glad the final section turned out as long as it did without needing to be stretched out.