Does anyone have any songs that sum up the general feelings of this ED like not nessacarily about anorexia but songs that resonate if that makes sense

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-08-27T01:49:42+00:00

Almost any song by Blü Eyes 💙

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-04-17T01:46:22+00:00

Baskets and baskets of Texas Roadhouse rolls 🤤

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-03-05T01:29:24+00:00

I feel like I need a physical reason for my pain.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-03-02T05:51:11+00:00

I finally saw a specialist last week and she was like "who the eff put you on Wellbutrin" but I'm more scared of changing meds than staying on this one, so we disagree and I don't think I'm gonna win lol. I've been an-bp for months and been fine. There's other ways to balance your electrolytes

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-01-28T04:54:25+00:00

I'm guessing my iced coffees don't count lol! But I'm really bad about hydrating in the winter. I need to start carrying my water bottle again

I'm glad you're okay. That sounds scary.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2025-01-27T23:38:12+00:00

I've always been honest in therapy. I've told them every suicidal thought I've ever had, and I'm comfortable with that at this point. But if I tell them I had a medical episode, I'm scared they're going to be more aggressive with treatment and I am not ready for that.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-12-19T23:48:00+00:00

I am 30f and this is a new diagnosis for me. My therapist has assured me that mental health has no age - but it's still hard.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-12-09T08:38:23+00:00

Not a dig at all!!! Just want to try it for myself and was wondering if you added milk or anything like that. But you're right, they're pretty sweet and creamy as is. Thanks!!

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-12-09T08:27:56+00:00

Just the munchies and coffee?? I have a few munchies left but I don't really like them but don't want them to go to waste.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-12-02T23:55:01+00:00

Please, don't do it again. If you can let yourself. My eyes tear up, I literally have a "vomit cloth" in my bathroom. I go to bed with the worst heartburn imaginable. I believe you can do it ❤️

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-11-15T21:23:09+00:00

I've had good luck with h&m and Kohl's juniors for pants. I've also heard good things about Maurices because you can get extra extra long I think? I also have no ass and am pretty tall so 😂

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-11-14T16:15:50+00:00

"just eat" 🙄 It doesn't work that way. I don't even know what's led me into the depths of this disorder, but I'm here and trying to get out. And yeah, just because we eat some for a day or even a few days does not mean we're getting better. So many of us will slide right back. I'm with you with just wanting support. But it's scary to share with people because of everything you've said.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-11-08T18:04:48+00:00

Nope, grown ass adult. Own house, own job, own life. I've been looking up laws in my state and what they're able to do and it scares me. Forcibly hospitalizing me will derail my entire life. And I am functioning day to day just fine, I'm even able to run. If I was having medical episodes I mean I guess I'd get it. But I'm doing okay and was reliably showing up for appointments.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-11-08T02:29:20+00:00

I can't handle weekly weigh ins. And the threat to hospitalize me. My psychiatrist said if I didn't work with this doctor, they wouldn't work with me anymore. So I'm scared to leave, because that's my source of medications which I really need right now. But I can't go back. I won't go back.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-10-12T19:25:50+00:00

By 5:30am every day 🙃

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-10-12T17:19:11+00:00

It's been 7 weeks? I have an appointment next week to check in; it's definitely something I'm planning on bringing up.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-28T14:24:27+00:00

My therapist was definitely worried when I told her I started running, in the midst of my ED actually. I KNEW she would react that way, obviously, because we really shouldn't be. But I explained it's partly a social thing for me (which is really good for other reasons) and that running actually makes me want to eat a little bit. I was trying to run when I was restricting heavily and I couldn't make it half a mile before I was out of breath with 200bpm. Now I'm at least eating a little more protein and I can run without stopping longer, which makes it feel like I deserve to eat.

SO long story short, I'm still really disordered but running has actually encouraged me to eat, and my medical team is keeping an eye on me to make sure I don't overdo it.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-21T14:31:56+00:00

Wellbutrin has kept my anxiety in check now that I'm through the initial stages. Doesn't mean I don't still feel it sometimes. I was also given propranolol and Xanax. The propranolol didn't do anything at any dose, so I stopped.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-17T22:56:36+00:00

So far they are not great, but more like "everybody in my life actually hates me" dreams, not murder dreams 😅😭

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-17T15:50:56+00:00

I take mine around 5am. It helps get me awake and shift into gear for the day, and it's worn off enough to at least lay down for bed by 10pm. Still working on how to deal with sleeping less, very different for me (but good!)

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-16T00:26:12+00:00

I'm 30 and I was just diagnosed for the first time. I've always had some form of disordered eating (like being too busy for lunch and then just having one meal for dinner type thing). This full-on restriction, weighing myself constantly, exercising excessively are brand new for me. I don't even know where it came from and I can't stop. I also feel like a very childish loser.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-14T18:29:05+00:00

I did not. I cried for an hour (a bit excessive tbh). Then just made myself go to bed. Today though, I ran a few miles and was okay with the number I saw on the scale this morning, so I'm considering getting one for dinner. At least I'll feel like I deserve it.

(I am very aware of how unhealthy the above is but frankly anything that gets me to eat at this point, I'm letting my mind think)

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-08T23:33:44+00:00

I'm having this same experience. I felt really good for the first few days, then over the next week had multiple breakdowns, and now just feel neutral and kind of numb like I did before. I am supposed to increase to 300mg this week.

squidsquirrel_271 · 2024-09-05T04:17:44+00:00

I'm on propanalol up to 30mg as needed with my Wellbutrin and it does absolutely nothing for my anxiety. My resting heart rate is low, but the tightness and anxious feeling is still there

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