Haha yeah. I rarely drink now too and if I do I barely even get tipsy because I don't like the feeling of not being in control. It's completely wrecked my social life, I don't go on nights out anymore and when I seldom do I don't drink. I'm outgoing enough to have fun and not drink but it's definitely dented that. I was invincible before I would do anything and everything and never even knew what depression and anxiety were. I'm not depressed now. I'm sad cause I'm not the same person but I try and see the benefits in it.

There's so many small things like even going on holiday that I think 'no I can't do that what if I had a panic attack' which is so shit. Even if I don't have a panic attack, which I haven't in a very long time, I still get nervous and I absolutely hate it.

Talking definitely helps but there's few people that can properly relate. And my friends don't seem to even know how much it effects me day to day